Saltofthaearth

I struggle to understand why people do the things that they do. I imagine that history will repeat itself and it’s best that I hold my heart close. I have meditated on the idea of letting you in but then I think of all the bullshit I dealt with and I retreat.  As I look at your contact photo while I converse with you thoughts of submission enter in and I want it so bad!  I feel like it’s a…

On what subject am I an authority? I can be trusted on a comeback ! I been through a lot and life keeps on lifing! But I’m going to keep on coming back from the spot I fell from! Don’t ever give up! Just keep coming back!

It’s the afternoon and some time has passed  Since I threw caution to the wind and gave in to the ask Of my starving libido For some measure of ass… Still tasting the flavor of you in my mouth  🤦🏽‍♀️ Before you arrived I was sure it wouldn’t jump off  My brain and my heart would not entertain it Now the deed is done and I’m sick but I’m not complaining  Cause it’s a two edged sword when…

Grandchildren are an old lady’s way to be loved in a world that finds value in beauty while there is beauty in aging  Growing old is not pretty, nor does it feel good  Sun spots and crows feet, hair loss, swollen feet  Hypertension and sometimes Sugar, without the daddy Cougar or ole bitty wit saggy titties If you’re not loud with  volume or style no one sees you!   Never saw it coming or…

I find it strange…the way the dead are glorified. I mean,  people are not so quick to bestow accolades on folks while we’re here on earth. Some of us struggle hard to keep it together and just get by while others struggle less and get further ahead in the same span of time and then there’s me. I can’t quite get there. I wonder if I will get a couple “Atta girls” once I transition? Is it possible…

Nerd Its 717 am and i am awake. As i am sitting in my bed  watching youtube. I go over the increments of yesterday.  A very cold and windy day that i chose to brave going out only once! One quick trip around the spacious building of Target (to get some astroglide) I mean id like to be prepared (as i was not last year Jan 2024). During my first winter here i got the privilege to hang out with…

I got a secret to share though it’s just the beginning and many obstacles lay aheadThis secret haunting me so badI’m fighting to forgetI got this image in my head  though I can’t see it real wellit’s tattooed on my frontal lobe  standing erect in full detailPhallus, thick like molassesboth in color and kind I missed you so… Much so  the first taste on my tongue numbs the pain  And  Feeds…

Me I’m tired and my body hurts. I didn’t have to go in to work today because of the weather. I posted the assignment for my students to do their distance learning today and now I’m just lying here. I’m wondering how does one get beyond the regrets of the past? Those regrets that affect today? Im trying to make peace with myself but damn I was naive! I have heard that teenagers don’t have the…

It’s crazy that I can’t seem to get a straight path out in front of me! I keep taking these crazy turns that are dead ends. Will I ever learn? I can’t really say, cause I’m not sure. I just hope that I get a few more things right before the window closes. So for now I’ll do what? I want to talk to a real professional person, and perhaps pick up some more coping skills. My iPad is set to suggest…