local mad scientist

hello! call me lucas or lucca, welcome to my blog

im 29, any pronouns are fine

i work (a lot) as an infectious disease scientist focusing on microbiology, mycobacteriology, and virology at a respiratory/research hospital

im also diagnosed with a psychotic disorder, which means:

im your friendly neighborhood mad scientist!

ive been on this site since roughly 2011 using a different blog but left briefly while in college. ive been forced back here but mostly just use this to reblog art and whatever else i see fit. asks are open to whatever!

current blorbos include: albert wesker (RE), cypher (Valorant), doc ock (Spiderman), the spot (Spiderman), ramattra (OW), sigma (OW), wd gaster (Undertale), the riddler (DC), viktor (Arcane), emmrich (DA:V), solas (DA), shockwave (Transformers), starscream (Transformers)

performed PT again at home today. ive only been at it a couple days but its incredible how much progress ive made. that being said, the incisions are quite sore and stiff now but that is to be expected.

tried to take a shower this morning. still unable. until im able to bend my knee, i think im going to have to keep doing modified ways of cleaning as the tub is too short for me to extend my leg. i have, however, developed a much better technique for washing my hair that doesnt include trying to flood my bathroom.

PT went well today. everyone at the office remembered me from before i had surgery and was asking how i was. goal is to be able to bend my knee 90° in a week. currently i can bend it about 20°.

pain.

not even a normal sense of pain. no throbbing, no sharpness, just a light stinging. no, this is bone deep. a feeling of wrongness. my brain doesnt know how to process this feedback, the synapses are confused. something is wrong, but its indescribable how or what or why. it brings tears to my eyes, but i cant pinpoint a reason.

didnt move a lot today. i walked around so much yesterday that im feeling the reprocussions today. incisions are starting to both itch and sting which is both a good and bad thing. it means theyre starting to heal, but at the same time i moved them too much yesterday and they hurt

nerve damage is roughly the same today. hard to tell if its slowly getting better or if im getting better at positioning myself to reduce the sharp burn. was alone for a couple hours earlier today, read a couple chapters of a gaster x reader fanfic, and entered into such a beautiful calm meditative state whilest doing so.