Just a shifter

2. **SF (Spontaneous Phase) and Micro-awakenings:** I’ve learned to become aware of myself during brief awakenings throughout the night. My brain has literally developed a habit of waking my consciousness up right when my body is at its maximum relaxation.

3. **Somatic Hypnagogia:** My hypnagogia is primarily somatic (physical). I can clearly feel my limbs shutting down (first fingers, then legs), and a spinning sensation begins. At the same time, I retain the ability to move (I can even scratch an itch), but the body immediately "disappears" again.

Part 2: That Very Night

Recently, I went to bed at 3:00 AM. My goal was to do SATS: enter hypnagogia, say my affirmations, and fall asleep with the assumption that I would wake up in the Void. I turned on audio with white noise and a bell ringing every 1.5 seconds.

Here is what happened next:

* I started the 4-6 method, reached a certain count, my body relaxed deeply, and I entered hypnagogia.

* Then cycles of micro-awakenings began. I kept falling asleep and waking up inside the dream about 5-6 times. Each time I became aware, I repeated my affirmations automatically.

At some point, I COMPLETELY stopped hearing the audio and the bells. Absolute darkness and silence set in. There was no body, no external sounds.

* But instead of just BEING there, my mind fixated on the instructions. I thought: “I need to be in hypnagogia and affirm so that I fall asleep properly.” I was convinced that since I didn't feel a sense of triumph, it meant I wasn't in the Void yet, and I needed to keep doing the method.

* Because of this thought, I instantly manifested my return from the Void back into hypnagogia and dreams. This repeated at least 3-4 times within an hour until the audio ended.

* In the end, a harsh trigger of the Spontaneous Phase occurred: I felt an incredible heaviness in my body (catalepsy) and severe dry mouth when I tried to move. The body was deeply asleep, but the mind was awake.

Conclusion and Insight:

I realized that I WAS in the Void. Several times that night. But I didn't recognize it in the moment because I was trying to do the practice "perfectly." My belief that *“I need to loop affirmations in hypnagogia a bit longer for it to work”* played a trick on me: the Void, being a space of instant manifestation, simply executed my subconscious command to "return to hypnagogia and continue the method."