Outspoken! ((:

There's a question popping right now in my mind? What's gone wrong? Dati ito yung tanong ko sa sarili ko. I fell in love and mind you I fall hard that I don't exactly remember how I manage to get my shits up to the point na hindi ko alam kung ano ang isasagot sa "anong nangyari" coz to sum it up walang nangyari. I once told myself kapag nagmahal ako ulit sisisguraduhin ko na, na iyon na, na siya na but the world is unfair at mukhang hindi na naman matutupad lahat ng plano ko. Sabi ko sa sarili ko hindi ko ibababa ang sarili ko para lang sa isang tao. I have known to be tough and fearless but I guess lahat nagbabago kapag nagmahal ka ng buo. Ang shitty ng buhay no? Kung kelan ka nagmahal ng totoo tyka ka gagaguhin ng mundo. Kung kelan mo ibinuhos lahat tyka mo marerealize na tangina nasaid ako, paano na ako? I fought for it, I fought hard but maybe that's it! Mapapagod at mapapagod din kasi tayo dahil paulit ulit nalang ang cycle. We love, we fought for it, hold for it yet it was'nt enough. May mali ba sa paraan ng paglaban ko? May mali ba sa paraan ng pagmamahal ko? May mali ba sa akin? I want to ask what's wrong pero tuwing kakausapin ko siya ang lumalabas sa sitwasyon ay ngiinarte ako. Na ako na naman yung gumagawa ng gulo. I felt so unlove whenever these things happen. I felt so empty, nasasaktan ako but I cover it with irritation and galit kasi yun ang defense mechanism ko yet it will always end up on me being so materialistic so immature and demanding when all I want is to feel appreciated, to feel worthy, to feel na proud din siya sa akin. Nakakasawa habulin ang isang bagay na matagal ng nawala. Nakakapagod hanapin yung isang bagay na wala na. I loved him, I really do. But the shits i'am feeling is eating me. Napapagod din kasi ako na ipaliwanag yung sarili ko kasi hindi naman ako naririnig, hindi naman ako naiintindihan. I'm getting tired to proving my point in every argument. I'm getting tired of feeling upset. I'm getting tired of crying on my own knowing that he could ignore me. I deserve better. I know I deserve more than this. I deserve more than feeling guilty of not saying how much I love him I deserve someone who will be more proud at me. Someone who will be faithful at loyal to me. Who will care more about my feelings yung iintindihin yung hormones ko kesa ipamukha kung ano ang kulang sayo, anong wala sayo at anong mali sayo. I deserve more than this insincere love.

Dalagang -dalang -dala naaa Yeah!🤟 break it down. 🤪🤪🤪 (at 부천신중동 어딘가에서) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bxq4OD1noOj7hj3OuZXZdzsyvyRvQQfrGNE7Qk0/?igshid=7vvi8xgrhzea

Anyhow?? (at 부천 삼정동, Bucheon) https://www.instagram.com/p/BqwCCagg6Xp1NJWSnStX7GiAn1lsOnPkdcb9Ls0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=5nlr0gu8jknv

2011-2016 okaaayyyy... 2017? (at 부천 백만송이장미공원)

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