category 12 thinking about season four martin event please keep me in your prayers
when jon asks about his poetry and hes like i havent exactly had a lot of time recently and its like. that may be true but its obviously more than that. like theres always talk (and this idea has become less en vogue in circles adjacent to me over the last decade but it is by no means gone) of creative geniuses throughout history being so good bc they were mentally ill but in reality its actually unbelievable how difficult it is to make art when youre deeply depressed. its one thing to write a poem when youre sad bc youre, For Example, pining after your boss who hates you, but its another thing entirely to write a poem when youre actively, deliberately cutting yourself off from the world and your own emotions. where does the poetry come from if you cant dig your hands in and pull it out of the world or your emotions. and why would you even care about poetry if its not for and from the world and your emotions. and how do you begin to heal if you cant access the world and your emotions. and and and
no literally like the fact that 1. jon felt such a strong need to connect that he 2. dug up the memory of something he knows martin likes and 3. asked about it in That Voice and then 4. martin didnt even react. he didnt even get all breathless and excited that jon cared enough to ask. he didnt even like. smile. remember how happy he sounded when daisy told him that people said he and jon were close. thats how he wouldve responded if jon asked him about his poetry in season three. but hes too far gone for that! lol!
Yyyyyyup basically it'a gonna haunt me until I die
