christi linn

Don't do shit for other people may 2016

I worry so much about making others happy I forget to make my self happy.

okay Late night thoughts will be the death of me. I just miss being a child and not worrying about anything. I miss not caring how my face and hair looked, being able to talk to people with out wondering if they like me or not. I miss not having to put makeup on my fave to feel beautiful,I miss having people icould trust, while I do have a hand full I still can bring my self to talk to someone because I'm so nervous they will freak out, or even judge me. I always hold what I feel back and avoid telling anyone and it gets to points how I am right now where it's 1 am and I should be asleep and not upset about life. I used to know what i wanted to do but now that I'm 19 and having to figure out what the fuck to do with my life I just don't know. I don't want to go to school but Ido... I want to work in a salon a fain but I dont... like I can't make up my mind I have no ambition for shit. I used to be happy and carefree and now I'm worried about life and shit. I hate feeling this way I hate feeling like I'm not worth the air I breath. I just want to be able to be happy. Even though I try so hard I can't manage to do so.