sailedsunset

                                      𝐑𝐔𝐋𝐄𝐒.  ━━━━   𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐒

good afternoon ! tonight will be a writing night so i hope to catch up my boys a little. your patience friends is sooooo ... you guys are great and the get well messages i got from people from here and frank’s blog. <3 you’re all so good.

i am slow as hell right now i’ve been feeling hella under the weather so i go home i just sink into the couch or work on a puzzle. my brain is not there at the moment i hope to feel better in a few days of not exerting myself. 

groceries and christmas shopping took me forever yesterday so i didn’t get much done on either account. reminder i’m spheritic during the holidays. december is a challenge always. anyway i should be here tonight i wanna catch my boys up.

good morning !! I am extremely all over the place this weekend don’t expect much till monday or sunday night ! my parents move tomorrow, and i have family coming so i have to clean this weekend, yesterday was a shit show of moving stuff and just building my cat’s new tower and shit. anyway THIS WEEKEND and week even obviously i’m scarce while moving my parents.

good morning !! happy thanksgiving to my american friends. i hope you all have a good turkey day. i am not american so it is just another day in the life of work work work. lol.  just also want to note that the month of december and the next couple days because my parents are moving i can be extremely all over the place and less online after work then during work when it’s slow and it gives me something to do you know? i always get into gaming, puzzles, and discord heavy in december especially because i’m now involved in the social club at work and we’re doing a LOT of christmas things. 

                          his brow raised a bit as he watched her in a close manner before he pressed his llips together. she was moving cautiously, careful and awfully quiet. “ you don’t talk much do ya? ” he inquired quickly as he arched his brow at her and then stepped forwards carefully before he looked down at her bag as she proceeded to open up and then looked to her. “ you offering me shit.... or just showing off? ” he inquired as he laughed a bit before he stepped back. he didn’t want her to think he was about to rob her blind. “ i ain’t trying to rob your anything. ” he added incase she thought he was. he wasn’t. he narrowed his gaze a bit. 

he knew not everyone agreed with the choices that shane made, or the rules he put in place or how he did things but every move he made was to keep everyone here ALIVE that was all. if they would just understand and listen, it was his job to protect people, he’d been a cop, he knew a thing or two and he was the best damn shot here. but certain people, like daryl or dale could be hard to convince. not to mention fucking merle. that was a whole other bag of cats he didn’t want to deal with. he rubbed at his face and looked towards lori with a faint frown on his lips as he let his head fall back trying to think a bit.  however, lori was respected, the women listened to her and she was respected in a manner here. which meant if lori agreed and backed him then they wouldn’t put up quite a fight, would they? “ lori look...... okay... ” he paused and rubbed at his face before he turned and glanced off and then back towards her. “ we can stay here and police people into not doing something stupid, at some point they gotta save themselves you know, use a little common sense here. okay we can’t save everyone. my focus is this group, is you and carl. i think that means we need to move. before those things start moving outta the city right on top a us, you know. i think this is the best thing. so please... just .... just support me on this one? ”

to say there were some choice words said and plenty of argument would be ... well an understatement honestly. no one was getting along per say, blame games a foot and no one seeming to own up to the fact that this breach happened and no one noticed had shane frustrated beyond belief. own up to this shit, sure as hell wasn’t him and it wasn’t like that person was gonna be killed for their incompetent nature, it was just to understand what problems really needed the fixing here. couldn’t fix the leaks and problems without knowing exactly what they were first which was all he was asking. guess it seemed people were still pretty uneased by him and all he could end up doing was turning to rick with a look on his face that said, get them to talk then.  “ look man we need to know, fixing this fence is step one, fixing the guarding issues or whatever break down happened last night we need to do that next, they ain’t gonna talk to me i’ll back off man but don’t be soft neither, man. this shit got one killed last night, it got close to hope and wanda man, you got carl and judith. i mean...” followed by a “ yeah you’re right i know. i’ll talk to them. ” that only made shane’s head shake because it was the best he’d get.  as if knowing he needed to give rick time to talk to these guys he turned hearing wanda’s voice and a sigh escaped him as he moved towards her, “ you’re suppose to be takin’ an easy, i don’t care how old fashion that is, you’re pregnant, we don’t exactly have hospitals if you strain anything. ” he added pointedly. he turned and looked back towards rick, “ trying to figure out where the breakdown, and how a walker got that far inside before anyone noticed is proven .....difficult. ” he grunted as he looked back to her, “ thanks for that though... ” he added as he gave a faint smile. 

                 yeah this was a bit of a surprise. the last person he expected to cross or see after all of this time was carol, not that he wasn’t glad to see her because she had always been one of the people he liked. but looking at her now, standing here he could tell she was far from the same woman from all that time ago. was probably good, some sense of survival took over in her? his head tilted and his gaze narrowed slowly as he watched her his boot covered feet starting to move against the dirt as he started to close the gap between them. he couldn’t believe he was seeing someone from his past, that he felt wouldn’t try to kill him either. that was almost refreshing.  “ holy shit.... ” he spoke in a manner of obvious surprise that he couldn’t keep out of his voice then just looking at carol. he spread his arms a bit and there was a smile touching his lips as he nodded his head, “ i can’t fuckin’.... ” this was perhaps the most speechless that shane had ever been or would ever been. he laughed a bit his head shaking as he moved to grasp her upper arm and elbow as he looked her up and down again taking it all in. he couldn’t for the life of him believe this was real.  “ you’re still kickin’ i admit that surpr--- i mean i’m glad. shit carol....anyone else i mean... ” he trailed off a bit. it wasn’t as if since he parted the far that he knew the fates of.... anyone really.