Outward to Inward

For some cases, those were life-changing. For some, those were adventurous. For most cases, they were waste of time.

But what I suggest is to take the last step after being mentally “ready”: don’t deceive yourself. You know yourself the most. 

In case you have learnt swimming in a traditional way, you should know it that first time, a teacher gives a support to the learner and the learner tries to survive in the water thinking s/he has a companion to support. Meanwhile, a time comes when the teacher makes the learner free and the learner still tries to swim assuming the presence of the teacher.

The moment the learner sees back ,realizing that he is alone, gives him two feeling.

1. The instant void feeling

2. The aha moment that yeah! I have learned it!

I know I am going through a path in my life when I saw behind, I saw none to guide me to my path. The aha moment is still ahead. But I know I am learning an invaluable skill

to walk alone.

( Don't get it otherwise. I am not saying that I don't have any well wishers, family members, friends to support me. Of course, they are beside me. But that's another part. To get my dream fulfilled, I need to take further steps where none will accompany me. And it's not bad. It's necessary for everyone to be self dependant. Some learn it fast; some do not. In case of me, it's harder. But I know I can cope up with it.

a moment with the night (before the sun greets hello)