SadPrincess

A friend sent me a picture with my name under it and a laughing smiley. In the picture was a text that said: ‘Teacher: Now we’re going to talk about how alcohol destroys your liver’s.’ Beneath that was a classroom filled with pupils that all looked at the photographer.

My friend meant to make me laugh. Instead of laughing I cried. My friend just knows that I drink a lot when I am with other people and there is alcohol. What she doesn’t know is that I am depressed and when I drink I want to drink until my feelings are completly gone. I also don’t drink alone because I have an alcoholic depressed father. Alcohol is the thing he lives of, he has lost everything because of that and at the moment I am really scared that he will do something to himself. And all of this came to my head when I saw the picture. The pain, the fear, the anger and most of all the sadness that the liver of my father is probably non-existent. It seems dumb and melodramatic that I cried because of a picture which was supposed to make me laugh.

Hello, today was scary and kind off horrifying. For the first time in ages I cried in front of my family. We had a talk about our situation.

My father is an alcoholic and he really hurts my mother and me with his actions. So my mother and me looked for a new place to live, maybe just for awhile until my father is in an better condition. We found a flat, and if we want too than we could move there next Friday. Sooo we told my father today about what might happen next week and he said nothing. My big sister, she doesn't live with us anymore, was kind off the host of that horror show and asked my father and us questions about everything. At one point I said that to my father that he should act different because he hurts people. He asked if I felt hurt by him. I said yes because he didn't really said anything yo me in the last few month and I felt like he didn't cared. Then I stopped because I couldn't hold my tears any longer.

It was the first time in ages I cried in front of my family and the first time in ages I let my mother really hold me and calm me down. That was an interesting day.