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I always lose friends that way. I slowly distance myself or i run away. And then ill pretend i hate you or don't care because it's easier than admitting you affect me. 🥸🥸. I wasn't made for friends or relationships. I'm too pibble.

We stopped being friends because i never put effort into our friendship. I miss A, sometimes. I always felt confused when with him. He got me. But it was awkward? Knowing how we started. Knowing how we were more than friends once. I'm sorry we never spoke much. I was so hurt after everything with M***,. I didn't want to live after losing him, after feeling like i failed because i had to choose between two people i cared about. It's funny. I lost you both in the end. 🥸 but i only truly adored you. You were everything i wasn't. I was both envious and in awe.