i wish i had a friend in my life that i could open up to in the way i am in therapy. i just can't do it on a friend level. i feel like a burden since they're not billing me for it. i've faced a lot of troubles in my life. some i caused, some that were caused by the trauma's others carried. but the one that's facing me head on will be my hardest yet. how does one live after the loss of their primary parent? i guess it's time for me to start learning how to process this level of grief. thankfully there's still some time left but who knows when that will end.
things i think could help.
a playlist of songs he loved and songs i loved that he experienced with me that remind me of him
recording every time i see him for a brief moment. i'd like to never lose his voice and laugh
and that's literally all i can share because im in a spiral and tears block the view of the screen
