SabelAteMyPudding

Hi ! Let me introduce myself first. My name is Fran or Taisiya (real name). I`ve been an artist in One Direction fandom for over 4 years. It has been my saving grace and more, for all of those years . I`ve drawn hundreds of artworks through the years and even if you never followed my blog or my art closely,i assure you you probably have seen my art once or twice. not that it have much weight in this situation. My art helped me to forget everything that happened around me.

Trigger warning: description of emotional and physical abuse.

And much of support and help i got in the past for my art,i need help once more right now. What have been going on since end of 2013 is beyond me to this day. I`ve been raised and taught everything by my mum in a good and content family and when i was 16 (i.e.2013),i had to move out of my hometown to go to an architecture college in Saint Petersburg and therefore live with my dad. Since September of 2013 he had been abusing me emotionally and physically,tricking me into financial dependence on him. I`ve been beaten up by him twice: in December 2013 ,a week before my 17 birthday,when i tried bodily to defend my not-walking ill grandad from my dad who tried to choke him on his bed and been severely beaten by him with me ending in a hospital with concussion,broken ribs and deep bruises throughout my whole body ; second time it happened it was in November last year. There was nothing more to it that he has been angry. From this i got concussion as well and  a few bruises on my collar bones,hips and stomach. As to what emotional abuse contained it was constant speeches about how i owe him for everything in my life,how i owe him for half of the flat we both lived in,how badly i was raised and how unattractive i was,so no one will ever want to be with me. I was constantly watched by him and checked after cause he would be going to me room at any time of the day or night. I was forced to clean entire flat all the time when he did nothing but messed it all up. All of this was going on while i was going through my college degree,break up,breaking friendships and realising i`m badly depressed as an aftermath of these events.

Yesterday my dad bursted in my room,right away tried to choke my cat and throw her out of the window(we`re on the 8th floor),then he threatened me that everything that i`ve taken from him will be nothing compared what he will do next. I was able to throw a jacket on and run out of the flat on the streets. Police know. They did nothing 3 times. Nothing. Their excuse is that there was no witnesses,despite the fact that my grandad saw everything the first time it happened,as well as our neighbours.  They said this time again that they won`t be able to do anything with my dad.

There`s so much more to tell so if you`re interested,i`m quite an open person,i can answer a few questions if i won`t consider it harmful for myself.

What this whole post was about right now is that i had to leave that flat and pack my entire life within 2 hours while he was still away with the police. I`m on my last course of getting my architecture degree and i can`t get a job here without education. I really need to rent some place for the next year away from my dad to finish my college degree,i`m looking at the cheepest solutions as renting just a room somewhere on the outskirts of the city,but i still don`t have enough money for it. 

I want to finish my school and not to let my dad ruin my life with his actions. I want to say screw him and do it all inn the end. I won`t let it drag me down.

I`m not a charity or pity case and i refuse to be one. But i`m not above admitting that i badly do need help of others. If you ever wanted to buy any of my art or support my art,please consider doing it now. Again,i really need help really badly right now cause course lessons in will start already next week. i refuse to just take money for granted,i`m more than willing to work,so,if you want to support me,here`s links to all of my shops and sites. support my art on patreon -monthly rewards and additional not seen art.

buy original pieces of art in my tictail 

buy all sort of merch with my art on redbubble or teepublic

order commission drawings -only digital for now as i only have a tablet now.

paypal page -if you really didn`t like anything from the above.

All of the above help is purely voluntary and if you can`t help,it`s totally alright. If you share and reblog,it`ll be a huge help already. If you write me a kind message of support,it`ll be immense help to me as kind strangers on the internet is probably the best therapy i can afford right now. 

Thank you for your attention.