𝒷𝓊𝓈𝓎 𝓌𝑜𝓂𝒶𝓃

now you know for the next album! it is something that i never imagined myself doing but the idea just clicked. i don't know if i need to apologize for causing you to feel jealous? it was! i know it shocked so many people to see him in it. it was since we are just rebuilding our whole relationship. i feel relieved and it was certainly cathartic? it almost feels a little bittersweet and exposing but i'm happy it's out there.

it would be cool to do that, for sure. or even to dip my toes into directing one of my music videos would be neat, i feel. and i'm not just saying that so i can use it to cast another actor, or actress, that i've been crushing on. but maybe i am. you definitely don't need to apologise. yeah, that's a big step to take so publicly. i hope that it's helped with rebuilding your relationship with him and not hindered it. what's next for you? tour?

So bummed. Don't know how to cope anymore with it all. It's not delusion cause at the start of the tour you were doing a lot of different ones and now you're just going basic. That's all I need to know there, love. Not like I chose to watch the videos, they just come up and I try and scroll as quick as I can.

and you think that's because of you? yeah, if we hit up urban dictionary for the meaning of delusional then it'll be a picture of your face. i know even your ego isn't big enough to truly believe that's the truth. right. your for you page betrays you there, niall. like i said you're bummed - i get it.

I feel like you're running out of Juno positions there, Brina. Even if your ass does look good while you were doing the skiing movements. Is it because you don't have me for inspo anymore? @sabcarpvnter

i get that you're like, totally bummed that you're not with me anymore but it's real delulu of you to think that i'd need you for any kind of inspiration. i'm doing just fine. you carry on watching videos of my concerts and i'll carry on literally not thinking about you at all, okay?

well, that's just a bit of a tease then. there's not even a teeny tiny hint that you can drop? c'mon, you know you wanna. my answer is exactly what people would expect from me - meryl streep, amanda seyfried and kristin chenoweth. i'm a cliche lover of a musical and that's okay with me. admittedly, i did enjoy your work in the video for all too well. so, if you ever decide to take a foray back into the music video world, then i'd consider adding you to my list, too. who would you have on your list?