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So it started out fairly innocent and I don't remember it well. Then I was with a guy from tinder (one I. Rejected irl actually) and for some reason he grabbed my waist? And it gave me a panick attack so I was shaking. Explained to him damn sorry this never happens to me let me sleep and I slept but I kept waking up and the hours were all wrong. He left also. Which was weird. I thought he'd stay. Then there was christmas at home with my grandparents. And eveything was WRONG their faces were off but I was like ok they're just younger... right? My mom was taller than usual (like 2m actually? She's 164cm I think) and looked wrong and her hair was too dark. They recognized me so I sat down to talk. I assumed they're just, them but younger. But when I asked them about life it all was wrong. I asked them about my brother and he didn't exist. Which normally I'd enjoy but it didn't make sense. I went to the room he would be in if he was real and there was a devil there I couldn't see nor comprehend. I fell asleep. I kept waking up. I kept screaming. It was like a spiral of waking up and finding my phone and the apps looked all wrong. And I was choking all the time also.