all these things that i've reblogged

Dear Future Significant Other, I don’t know who you are and when you’re coming but when I know it…… I think i’ll feel it more than I’ve ever felt anything before. Until then, I wonder who you are, when you’ll pass into my life. What if you’re already here right now? I have no idea but i’m dying to find out your favorite color, what you think about at 3am when you can’t sleep, your worst fears, your passions, your favorite melody for every mood. And I want you to know a few things….  You have to know about me and all my quirks before you decide to be with me. When I invest in someone, I invest for life. Even when/if you leave, I will still be invested in you. I know a lot of people think that is stupid, but the reality is you’re either going to get into a relationship and be in it for life, or it’s going to end. And who want’s to invest in something only for it to end? So I always invest for the long haul, no matter what. And when it’s over, I am always going to care about you. I am extremely confident on the exterior but inside I have more insecurities than most people. I am always afraid of being cheated on, lied too, or left behind. I have the biggest heart you will ever find in a person with a chest as small as mine. Sometimes It’s a fault, a fatal flaw. But for the most part I am always freely and willingly offering my love to anyone willing to have it. Because of this, jealousy has no place in a relationship with me, as I share my love in a way not many people do and it sometimes makes people jealous or envious. It is hard for some to understand. Please do not be scared. If I am yours, I am devoted to you so much that you should never doubt it. I will always, constantly remind you of how much you mean to me, and I will expect the same. Even if I do not get it, I will want it. I may not be able to tell you you’re doing something wrong, because I am terrified of confrontation. So I need you to be perceptive to my needs, and emotions, and there are a lot of those. I need someone just as caring and compassionate as I am. If not more. I am insecure with every one of my relationships and friendships a-like. Because almost everyone has left, or lied. You have to understand that, you have to know that I always have this overwhelming ‘impending doom’ feeling when in a relationship, and so I will need consistent reassurement. All of this, and that’s not even including the understanding and patients needed in my companion, in order to properly deal with my illnesses and my mental health. But out of all of this, there is not one person you will find that will love you, or be more loyal to you, then I will. I promise you that.