:p

Im aroace, but i want someone i trust so much that we can have whole-body skin to skin contact without fearing that we will be harmed or advanced upon.

Im aroace, but i dont want to live in a house with just myself.

Im aroace, but i want to wake up to somebody i care for immensely every day.

Im aroace, but i want to bring another person along with me through this adventure called life.

Im aroace, but i want to feel loved and cared for and love and care for them in return.

Im aroace, but i want this all without romance; just closeness.

Im aroace, but i want a life partner that i trust above anyone else.

Im aroace, but i want to love with all of my heart. Just not the way others think i should.

one with hair made shadows

and eyes full of nebulae,

all moonlight and whispers and

faint caresses down the back of my neck,

whispers sending chills up my spine

murmuring words in the language of the holy.

i wish i was in love with a girl,

one with hair made of sunbeams

and eyes full of summer sky,

all daydreams and hand-holding and

brash laughter chasing away silence,

never ending chatter encircling my mind

declarations in the language of the divine.

but perhaps when cupid strung his bow

and squinted one eye to line up my heart,

his fingers were not yet so adept,

and his arrow landed just beside me.

close enough --

close enough for me to feel

whatever elixir of love

the arrowhead boasted.

but just so far away

that i would only know the image of heartache,

never the pain,

never how it would feel in my own body.

one will long

for even something as terrible as love

if everyone around them

has been struck by it.

8+7 = 10+5 = 15

60+10=70

like you get to a point where most people you know are getting into relationships and are becoming committed to partners, and you're super happy for them. however, it always feels like you're just excised from their life entirely, so it can feel very isolating. i don't experience the attraction to be in a long term relationship, so i'm sorta just left behind.