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Zach smiled at Nico and nodded. “Our dream. Definitely. I’m just so glad you want to see me pregnant too. It makes me feel so happy that I’m making your dreams come true too. I know you’ll love me no matter what. I just won’t feel as desirable. But as long as you keep worshiping me and making love to me, we can make sure that doesn’t matter.” He kissed Nico gently, cupping his cheek with the hand not on his husband’s cock. He nuzzled at him and smiled. “You’re always so good at making me feel loved and wanted. I’m not worried.” He moaned as Nico thrust up into his hand and grinned, continuing to make out with his man as he jacked him off, obeying his husband’s command. “I love it too, Daddy. Love feeling all of you.” He gasped as Nico’s fingers ran down to his inner thighs. “You’re all I want too, Nico. Thank you.” He kissed Nico back eagerly, pressing his tongue into his mouth. He moaned loudly into the kiss as Nico started toying with his clit, hips bucking up into his hand. “Need you too. Oh God…please…please, Nico…I’ll do whatever you want. Just don’t stop. Make me cum. Make me feel good.” He twisted his wrist over Nico’s cock, working him over as best he could. “I’ll blow you if you want. Or you can fuck me. Whatever you want. Just need you.”

“I’ll never stop worshiping you, Zach.” He spoke quickly under his breath, enjoying how good they both felt. Feeling close to Zach was never the problem. Hell, it wasn’t long after they’d met that Nico felt as though he’d known this man all his life. But looking into his husband’s eyes and hearing all of the sweet things he was saying was almost too much. “Because I do love you and want you. It’s one of the only things that gets me through my day.” Their lips met again and again, pushing Nico more into the mood. His heart was swelled with love and need for the man in his arms and he was dead set on making sure they’d both had enough before the day was out. His cock throbbing and growing all the harder under Zach’s touch. Toes curling under and he whimpered into their kiss. “Oh baby.” He whispered, sliding up onto his forearm and he moved to hover over his husband. His hips thrusting into the other’s hand and he pulled his fingers back from his husband’s clit; more than satisfied at how ready he was to go. A shiver ran down his spine hearing Zach and how badly he wanted him. “You have me.” He smiled, wrapping his fingers around Zach’s wrist and he pulled off his cock. “Always, baby boy, you’ll always have me.” A loud gasp left his lips, Nic dropping his hips to roll with Zach’s. Feeling the wetness made his length twitch and his back arched in, their hips pressing back into the bed while Nico rubbed himself the length of Zach’s slit before he’d moved to push back inside of his husband. “Just can’t help myself today, baby.” He breathed out, kissing his husband so softly again and again. His knees dug into the bed and Nico slid almost all of his cock into Zach. His hand squeezed the blankets under his pillow, his eyes watching the other’s face as he gently started to slide in and out of his pussy. “You feel so good. We feel so good.” He breathed out hard against his love’s lips, kissing him again and again. “I love you, Zach. I love you more than anything.”

Zach kissed Nico back, lingering in it just long enough and then watching Nico walk away. He moved to adjust himself so he was laying on Nico’s side of the bed, smelling his pillows and humming happily, basking in it. “Oh my God, yes! Best husband ever. I’m going to take total advantage of back rub time.” He looked up guiltily when Nico came back in the room and caught him buried in his pillows. “I can’t help it. You smell so good. Like…mine and honey and cinnamon. It’s so good.” He grinned as Nico joined him on the bed and immediately grabbed a bottle of water, draining a little less than half and then setting it aside. He burrowed into his husband as he pulled him in close and kissed Nico’s cheek. “Hi.” He let out a soft moan as Nico kissed up his neck and ran his hands over his sides. He went to answer, but found himself silenced with Nico’s lips. He happily made out with him, leaning into the hand on his stomach. He closed his eyes as he fully leaned into Nico to make out with him. When he broke the kiss, he listened to him and nuzzled back at his husband “I hope so. But I’m not so sure. I’m probably going to be super insecure as I gain weight. It’s my worst nightmare, but also coupled with my dream come true. I don’t know how I’ll take it. But I know we’re going to take it on together.” He kissed Nico again and couldn’t help but grind against the leg sliding between his own. “Good. Loved.” He hesitated and then went for honesty. “Really horny. You’re just such a good husband and that’s so fucking hot to me. Like, you keep checking on me and it’s…” He couldn’t finish with words, so he pulled Nico in and kissed him passionately instead, tongue tangling with Nico’s as he reached down to run a hand over Nico’s muscles and then down to his cock, gripping it and squeezing gently.

“It’s our dream baby. And no matter what it will never matter to me what size you are. You’re beautiful to me and you always will be.” Nic didn’t know how he was going to convince his husband that he wasn’t going to always stay that size. But he was going to give it his best. It was something to see how they both were so obsessed with one another. Nico whimpered feeling Zach’s hands on his body. Nic’s head had been swimming all day. Between the baby and the love making he wasn’t entirely sure either of them were going to be able to stop at this point. His husband had always had that special touch that he couldn’t seem to say no to. And he never wanted to. They’d been at it all day and Nico couldn’t find it in him to stop. They’d been at it for weeks and it was finally their time. He wanted to celebrate, wanted to make his husband feel so good for being him. His hips rutted forward and his cock throbbed under his husband’s touch. Nic moaned out and moved to give the other better access to his body. “Don’t stop.” He managed to mutter against the other’s lips and he shivered as he pulled Zach in closer to his own body. “I love feeling like this with you.” The tips of their noses brushed by one another’s and Nico found his hand sliding down his love’s body and between his legs. His finger tips rubbed lightly along the other’s inner thighs and he whimpered out. “You’re all I want, Zach.” He whispered before kissing his husband again, pulling him in for a deeper kiss while his fingers slowly crept up between Zach’s lips and he’d started to rub on the other’s clit. “I just need you, baby, I need you so badly.”

Zach had never felt a day go so perfectly in his life. Other than his wedding day, really. And even that came with the harsh sting of Zach’s family pitying him and splitting in half to take up both sides of the aisle since he had no one to show up for him. Most days he tended to ruin with self doubt or questioning Nico. But today hadn’t gone that way. He had literal proof of Nico’s love inside of him. And it didn’t hurt that Nico kept reminding him. And kissing him. God, he loved all these kisses. “Me too. I love this too. I love the way you’re looking at me. And talking about me. And kissing me. I love you too, Daddy. So so much.” He nuzzled back at Nico and kissed him again. “Good. I need to hear all of that, Nico. I love you and this little one too. With all of me.” He nodded as Nico said he didn’t have to explain and just focused on kissing his husband. He grinned as he was taken to their bedroom and made out with Nico, knowing he knew the way well enough to not need all of his focus. “You noticed me, Nico. You loved me. You just…you aren’t the lucky one. I am. I don’t know how else to explain it. You saw me as valuable in a way no one else ever has. But even that sounds wrong. It makes it sound like you were my only option, so I took it. Even if a million other people had been interested in me, it would’ve always been you. Because you’re special, Nico.” He sighed happily as he was laid on the bed and grinned brightly as Nico kissed his stomach. “Maybe just grab a couple of bottled waters from the fridge? I’m not really hungry. Just need to keep hydrated. You too.” He kissed Nico back and nuzzled at his jaw. “I know you will. It is easy. It will be easy. Mostly I just need you. I just need to have you close to me. And…uh…lots of sex. God, I already feel so fucking horny all the time.”

Nico nodded and leaned up to give Zach another kiss. His lips lingered just a moment longer on his husband’s before he’d turned to go grab them a few bottles of water. “I won’t be long. Relax. I’ll rub your back when I get back.” He promised, winking before he headed out of their bedroom door and made quick work of a trip to the kitchen. He’d cracked the lid on one of the waters on the way back and drank down a quarter of it. He supposed he hadn’t realized just how hard they’d been going at it nearly all day. And that didn’t dissuade Nic, it only made him want to be back to his husband again. “There’s my handsome man.” He spoke softly as he re-entered the room and saw that beautiful tuft of blond hair on the bed waiting for him. Nico crawled back on the bed and made sure he put the other bottles where Zach could grab them when he was ready. His hand gently slid across his husband’s waist and he tugged the other closer. Zach was all kinds of good and Nico couldn’t get enough. “I wonder ...” He started, leaning in to kiss along the side of his husband’s neck, his hand traveling up the other’s side and he nuzzled himself into the other. “If this is what it’s going to be like from now on.” Nic pulled back to look Zach in the eyes, that soft smile still on his face. “Just you and me ...” His hand sliding back down the other’s body and spread his fingers over his stomach. “And this perfect little being.” Nic kissed his husband again, not letting him answer but instead kept making out with him. He’d been right, kissing like this was an incredible feeling. Knowing that Zach was giving all of himself to Nic was breathtaking. “I want it to feel like this ....” He whispered, brushing his lips gently back and forth against Zach’s and he smiled. “Always, Zach.” His leg slid up between the other’s and he nuzzled his whole self up with this man. He could feel himself starting to want his husband again. How that was possible was beyond him but he wouldn’t stop either of them today. “How’re you feeling?”

Zach felt his heart skip a beat when Nico said ‘Don’t,’ convinced he’d done something wrong. Then his heart soared when he finished his sentence. “Done, Daddy. All my kisses are yours. Never going to stop.” He kissed him back eagerly, dancing their tongues together. He kept his lips pressed to Nico’s, refusing to part them now that Nico had indulged him and told him he didn’t want to stop kissing him. Kissing was one of his favorite things and he’d never tire of it. It made him feel so warm and loved and special. “I know how special I am, Nic. I really do. I swear. How could I not be when someone as special as you loves me? You know you’re just as special too, right? The most patient, honorable, kind man to ever exist. My one and only perfect Nicolas.” He kissed Nico again, smiling into it as he tangled their tongues together. Then he heard his question and cupped Nico’s cheek. “God, it kills me that you’re this sweet to me. You could never hurt me, Nico. Never. You were perfect. Our little one feels treasured and loved because you keep touching my stomach. Please never stop that. Even when I’m big and bloated, please don’t stop touching my stomach. It’s…” He paused, clearly struggling for words. “Intimate. Like, the most intimate. I would kill someone else for touching my stomach, except for a doctor. Only you get to feel our baby.” He giggled as Nico scooped him up and he kissed him again, cuddling close against him. “We can definitely relax. Can’t promise I won’t get the urge to suck you off or ride you or…or something. But I do want to relax with you.” He kissed Nico again, nuzzling at him, unable to resist his husband’s lips. “Take me to our bed. I want to cuddle properly. Not that I don’t love the couch, but…I want to lay with you.” He shrugged. “Or we can go wherever you want. I don’t care. Just don’t leave me and don’t stop kissing me.”

It was crazy to him just how incredible this day had turned out. Of course he’d loved his husband with all of his heart regardless of the pregnancy. But they just felt so much more. They were adding to their world and it excited Nic to no end. His arms tightened around his love and he pulled him all the more closer. “I love this.” He whispered under his breath, returning his kisses ten fold. His tongue lightly teasing Zach’s and he could have just melted into him at that very moment. “I love feeling you like this. Love the way you just ... I just love you so much.” He breathed, nuzzling their noses, smiling widely and he gave a nod to the man his arms. “And I won’t stop. I want you both to know just how much I love you. Together, apart, all the ways someone can love his husband and their child.” Before Zach said Nic had made his mind up. He wanted to feel his husband’s skin on his own and he wanted their bodies intertwined more. “You don’t have to explain, my love.” He’d managed to get a better hold on his husband and wasted no time in whisking the both of them away to their bed again. Nico’s lips brushed gently over Zach’s and he sighed softly, pulling back just enough to look into the other’s eyes. “How’d I get this lucky?” His lips covering Zach’s and he hugged him close as they moved through the house and cleared through the door frame to their room. Nico was careful to set Zach down on the edge of the bed and he knealt down in front of him. Each knee got a soft kiss and then his stomach. Nico brought his hands up the other’s sides and lingered there just a moment before pulling back to look up at his husband. “Is there anything you need? Anything at all? A drink? I’ll wait on you hand and foot until this little bundle of joy decides to come.” The smile on his face was almost too big and too over the top but he couldn’t hide how good he felt and how truly in love he was with Zach. Nico leaned up, pressing a gentle kiss to his husband’s lips and he leaned in closer. “I just want to make this easy, baby. Want you happy and well cared for.”

Zach felt like he was falling apart all for Nico to put back together again. He always did. He always made him melt to nothing and then he built him up again with all of the best parts of him in place and the worst parts of him ignored for the moment. He kept riding out his orgasm as Nico kept toying with his clit. Then he felt Nico stop and he relaxed as he stared up at his husband. He kissed him back eagerly, moaning into his mouth as he was bathed in the taste of his husband. “You too, Daddy. So so amazing. I love you so much, Nico…” He melted into his husband’s arms, hands sliding around from Nico’s chest to his back, embracing the tight hug and feeling their bodies press together. He kissed Nico back again, humming softly into it as he felt Nico really making out with him. It was still so intoxicating to be the center of Nico’s attention like this. He smiled at Nico and nuzzled at him. “Thank you. You always make me feel amazing, so it’s only fair.” He felt Nico breathing on his lips and couldn’t resist closing the distance and kissing him again. “I can’t stop. I can’t stop kissing you. It just feels so good. Tastes so good. Makes me feel so special.” He stared up at Nico and smiled. “The same way I got lucky. Fate managed to put us in the same place at the same time and we both just knew. Not everyone finds their soulmate. That one person put on Earth for them. But we did. We got so lucky.” He smiled as Nico pulled him in tight and buried his face in Nico’s chest, kissing the skin there gently. “I can’t get enough of you either.” He gently grabbed one of Nico’s hands and placed it on his stomach. “As you can tell…” He chuckled softly and kissed Nico’s chest again. “I’m so glad you’re mine. My husband. My baby’s father. My world.”

“Don’t ...” Nico whispered against the other’s lips before leaning back in to kiss the man over and over again. “Don’t stop kissing me. I need them. All of your kisses.” His lips parted and he let their tongues move with one another again and again. “I need you to know how special you. How special you are to me. My one and only, Zach. I swear you are my darling.” The moment his fingers touched his husband’s stomach he knew he was done for. Feeling their baby, how much love went in to making their little life now growing. There wasn’t anything on the planet that could replace that feeling. It’d made Nico appreciate his husband so much more. The obstacles they’d over come and especially him. “I wasn’t too rough ... was I? I don’t want to hurt you or our little miracle.” Nico smiled softly and scooped his husband up against his body once again. He was exhausted but he wanted his husband so close. As close as humanly possible. A small smile touched his lips and lightly rubbed the tips of their noses together. “I want to relax with you.” Nic breathed over his lips, kissing slowly back along his jaw. His hands started to move all over the other’s back and down onto his ass, pushing their bodies flush once again. “Tell me where to take you baby.”

“I see that now,” Zach said softly with a happy smile. “I’m all that matters to you. I’m your true love. I’m your perfect match. Just like you’re everything good in my life, that’s what I am to you too. We’re just…perfect for each other.” He kissed Nico gently, nuzzling at his jaw. “You’re mine.” He kept kissing Nico and moaning as he was bounced on that cock, the large piece of meat hitting all the right spots. He could feel Nico’s body weakening from his orgasm and felt bad momentarily until he remembered that it was because he’d provided his husband pleasure that he was getting more tired. He kept kissing Nico eagerly, their lips mashed together and tongues dancing. “I’m never worried when I’m with you.” He paused. “Well, not about that, at least.” He chuckled and felt Nico carry him to the couch. He moved his hands to Nico’s chest now that they were more stable and felt up his pecs. And then that middle finger was toying with his clit and he gasped into Nico’s mouth. “Oh fuck, Nic…Oh fuck…” He felt Nico really get into it and start rubbing his clit and his pussy started spasming slightly, clenching and unclenching around Nico’s cock rapidly. He kept bucking into his finger and then down onto his cock. “Want you too,” he said breathlessly, moaning loudly and enjoying Nico licking at his lip. “Gonna. So close. Gonna cum for you…So close…” He felt Nico’s cock pulse inside him again and then he crested the wave, screaming out, “NICO!” as he came hard, juices gushing and pouring out around Nico’s cock, his jaw dropped and his body helplessly spasming and arching into Nico’s cock and finger. “Oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck!” he moaned out as he kept cumming and riding his orgasm out.

Nic loved his husband with everything in him. There wasn’t much better than making love to him and assuring him that they both were much connected and happy. “That’s it baby.” Nico whispered to him, watching as Zach rode out his orgasm against his body. His fingers lightly moved against the other’s clit and he only slowed when Zach showed he was completely and utterly so content with their love making. Nic bent in and kissed his husband again and again, his cock still tucked inside the other. “You’re incredible.” He breathed out, his arms finally coming around to hold his husband. His hands ran along the other’s back and he pulled Zach in to a tight hug. Their lips found each other’s again and Nic kissed his husband with everything in him. His hands moving to rub along the other’s skin and he loved every second of this. “You feel amazing, my love.” He breathed softly over Zach’s lips, bumping his nose to his husbands and he nuzzled in so close. They felt so good, this all felt so good. “How did I get so lucky?” He asked, pulling back to look into those beautiful eyes. “How did I get so lucky with you? I just ...” Nico tucked in and hugged Zach tight against his body, kissing the top of his head and he sighed softly. “I can’t ever get enough of you.”

Zach smiled and shrugged. “I don’t get how that can be, but ok. I believe you.” He stared at Nico and shook his head. “I’m not. Really, I’m not smart. And that’s ok. I don’t need to be smart. She can be smarter than me and that’s it. You don’t need a great intellect. I can be everything you need without that. It doesn’t matter.” He kissed Nico again and again, smiling against his lips. “I made you cum, Daddy. I always make you cum. That first time, I didn’t even know what an orgasm felt like. Didn’t know I could. Was always told I couldn’t. And then you made me cum so hard I saw stars. And I made you cum too. A lot. Thank God you had introduced me to birth control before then. There was so much…” He chuckled and kissed Nico again, licking his lips. He moaned as Nico kept fucking into him and kept his hands gripping his biceps that kept flexing and his legs wrapped around him. “God, you’re so strong. So much better than anyone else,” he echoed. “Thank you, Nico. Thank you for thinking I’m better. Just…thank you.” He stared into Nico’s eyes as he kept kissing him passionately, moaning into his mouth. “I’m glad. Because I’m the only one who gets to touch you. The rest can look, but you’re mine. Not even she can touch you ever again. Even if she comes back tomorrow and wants you back, it’s not happening. You’re mine.” He kissed Nico deeply as he did and moaned into his mouth as he felt Nico thrust into him and cum, moaning against his lips as he clenched to milk him of all his cum. “That’s it, Daddy. Fill me up. Fuck yes…feels so good. Love the way you cum inside of me.” He kissed Nico again and then blushed. “Th-Thank you, Nico. You’re strong and handsome and so fucking perfect. You’re my entire universe. I love you so much. I love the way you make me feel.” He hesitated and then shyly asked. “C-Can you…play with my clit? I…I wanna cum too…”

“Baby ... Zach ... you are everything I need. I don’t care what was before you. It’s so insignificant. You’re all I can see and you’re all I can feel.” Nic gasped out, their lips meeting again and again and he couldn’t help himself or the way his cock loved being inside of his husband. His pregnant husband. His everything was bouncing so skillfully on his cock and that was all he could see. The love of his life enjoying their bodies melting over and over together. “Holy shit, Zach!” He groaned and rutted and ground their bodies together until he didn’t know what else he could do. Zach’s body milking his cock and he couldn’t help but squirm. He loved the effect he had on him and he wouldn’t hide it. Since they’d started trying for a child their love life had simply taken off. They had great sex before but knowing he was pleasuring his husband in a way he hadn’t before it just did things to Nico. And that was worth every drop of cum he could spill into him. “Don’t worry baby.” He grinned, brushing their lips past one another’s and he slowly made his way towards the couch. As strong as he was that orgasm had taken a lot and Nic needed to steady his husband. With his ass propped on the back of it, Nico pressed his lips to the others and kissed him hungrily. His cock still twitching and throbbing against his walls as Nico took his middle finger and lightly pressed it again his clit. The slickness sent a shiver down his spine and he slowly started to work it around and around. His hips rutting ever so slightly. “I want you.” He breathed, parting Zach’s lips with his tongue and he’d lined the outside of his lower lip with his tongue. “I need you. I need you to cum baby.”

Zach felt like his heart was beating out of his chest. Nico had someone before him and someone better. A real woman. A beautiful, smart, perfect woman. He knew he couldn’t compare and yet he was trying to. He knew deep down that if Nico had had sex with her, there was no way he’d ever recover. Fucking a real woman compared to some freak like him? He had no chance. He smiled when Nico said it was him, but shook his head. “Me? For everything? You made her sound so good. How can it be me? I’m not that smart and you said she was, so surely she was better than me there. You…You’re just trying to protect me. Be honest. How do I compare?” He kissed Nico when he said he was the one he was meant to be with instead of responding, knowing now that it wasn’t the truth. Nico was so good. He was meant to be with someone just as good. Like her. He moaned still when Nico started fucking into him again. “Oh God, yes. Make love to me, Nic. Show your strength. Unload inside of me, Daddy. Please…” He kissed Nico back passionately over and over again, licking his lips. And then Nico told the truth and he froze. He felt a war take place inside him in a matter of seconds. Everything his parents had told him fighting against everything Nico had told him. He perked up and looked Nico in the eyes, determined. “Don’t be sorry, Nico. You hadn’t met me yet. I can’t blame you for trying to find happiness. And…if you’re telling the truth, you couldn’t finish with her. There was something incomplete there. It wasn’t right and you knew it.” He smiled and kissed Nico gently. “I’m pregnant. You’ve never failed to cum with me. I’m better than her sexually. I don’t…know how since she’s a woman and I’m…not. But I’m better. You’ve shown me that time and time again. Don’t be sorry because she’s your past and not a very good one and I’m your present and future and we’re great.” He leaned in and whispered in Nico’s ear. “If you want to feel better and make me feel better, though, prove that I’m right. Prove that I’m better than her in every way. Cum inside me. Do what you couldn’t do with her. Fuck me, Daddy. Show me your strength and then fill me up.” He kissed Nico’s neck and hummed softly. And because he had to, he softly asked, “I am better than her, right? S-Sexually? I mean, she had…breasts and softness and…I…I am better, right?”

“There’s no comparing you. You are so much more.” Nic kept reassuring his husband that was all he wanted and that was truly what he thought. “You are smart, Zach. You are.” Their lips met again and again, Nico thrusting in deeper as if to drive home his point and prove to Zach what he was saying was the truth. That he was the only one for him. Even thinking about this now made him feel so dirty. Zach had been his entire world the moment they met. Most of his friends thought he was crazy for rushing to be with this man but Nic knew. The moment their eyes laid on one another he just knew. And he hadn’t spent a single day being wrong thus far. “You are the only one that’s been able to do that. You’re the only one I’ve cum for. I swear. I was so afraid when we first started seeing each other I wasn’t going to be able to finish for you. And ... and after our first time...” Nico’s face blushed and he felt his cock throbbing more prominently. His husband telling him to cum, telling him how to make this better only made him want it that much more. His hips pumping faster and Zach’s body smacked against his “Zach ... so much better. You’re so much better than anyone else.” Nico panted, feeling his cock pulsing against his husband’s walls and he couldn’t fight it off much longer. He wanted so desperately to give Zach exactly what he wanted and he wouldn’t stop until he’d had his fill. “You’re perfect for me. So perfect. The only person I want. Only one I want to touch or look at me. Baby you’re all I want. You’re so good.” Nico kissed Zach harder, his lips dragging along his husbands and he gasped out, into his mouth, teeth clattering together and he dug his fingers in against Zach’s thighs. His cock exploded with one last thrust into his husband and he wasn’t entirely sure the noise that he made was entirely human. Nic’s eyes rolled back and he held the two of them flush, kissing him again and again. “You’re soft and beautiful. So beautiful. You are my whole world. Every last piece of it, baby boy.”

“I know you will. But…just remember that we need you too. I don’t want you to go all kamikaze and sacrifice yourself. That would be just as bad. But I know I have you. I know I’m not alone. I trust you.” He went quiet again as the girl was spoken of again. “You never know. Maybe you didn’t outgrow each other after all. Maybe you just needed a break. Maybe she’s who you’re meant to be with.” He shook his head and swallowed again. “I am fucked up and we both know it. She was…an actual girl. Real. Probably beautiful. Smart like you said. She didn’t cheat on you. You just decided to go your separate ways. Maybe you shouldn’t have. Maybe I’m the mistake.” He went back to kissing Nico and trying to focus on getting him off. “N-Nico….” he said softly, staring into his eyes, his own wide and vulnerable. “I’m not upset. I’m not. Honestly. I just…” He took a deep breath and then shook his head rapidly. “Don’t stop! Please! No! Nico, please. Make love to me. Stopping would be the worst. I need you more than ever.” He clung to Nico and kissed him desperately, clenching around his cock. “Please. Just…keep fucking me.” He took a deep breath, trying to calm himself. “Just…answer me this honestly. How do I compare to her? Looks, smarts, kindness, personality, everything. S-Sex? D-Did you have sex with her?” He prayed the answer was no, but he figured he couldn’t be that lucky. He figured Nico couldn’t have been a virgin like he was. That would’ve been too good to be true. Especially with Nico looking the way he did. “I just want to know if I’m good enough. For you. Compared to her. Compared to anyone.” He kissed Nico’s cheek. “But don’t you dare stop making love to me.”

Nico felt stupid and wrong for speaking about someone else while they were having sex. He knew better, but Zach asked and he’d always prided himself on being honest with him. After everything he’d been through it was really the only way they’d be able to trust each other. This could have waited though. He felt like such an ass and he wanted to argue, say that what Zach kept saying wasn’t true but he didn’t know where to start or which part to go for first. “You.” He finally managed to bring himself to say, his eyes focused on his husband’s and he sighed. “You are who I’m meant to be with.” He told him simply. It was the truth, it was what he felt in his heart. Nic’s breath caught in his throat feeling Zach clench around him and he whimpered softly, it was impossible not to feel everything he did for his husband. The more Zach asked the less he wanted to speak about her. Maybe when he wasn’t trying to pump his entire being inside of his husband but he asked. Nic leaned in and kissed his husband, his fingers clenching onto the other’s thighs as he slowly started to pump his hips again. “You’re so much more for me than she was.” That was the truth. “It was hard to breath when we were together. Like I wasn’t able to be myself when we were together. We didn’t fit.” He really didn’t want to answer the last question but the longer he pushed it away the more he’d make Zach feel some sort of way and he couldn’t have that. Nic buried himself as deeply as he could inside of his husband, panting softly as he bent in to kiss his lips so softly. “We tried a handful of times. I just ... It wasn’t her it was me. I couldn’t ...” Nic nuzzled his nose into Zach’s cheek, admitting this was embarrassing. “I couldn’t finish.” His shoulders shrugged and Nico tucked himself into the nape of Zach’s neck. He didn’t know what to do. All he wanted was to go back to making  love to his husband and forget about anything or anyone that wasn’t this man in his arms. “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. I ... I love you, Zach. I’m so sorry.”