Melodrama

i'll rub whatever you want baby

rub your WHAT

I want you.

i'm never not thinking about you

am i an idiot? cause you're fucking stupid

First off, from the beginning it was never that I just wanted to have sex with other people. That's why it was different with you.. that you would accept if I had feelings for other people too. You are STILL and always will be different from anyone else. I don't love him in the same way. It's incredibly different, but it's intense as well. That is what I meant. It is intense, like my feelings for you are intense. Why does anyone have to be "higher" or "more important" than another?

About the sex? It's not like I've been having a ton of sex. I've been busy, too. I had some sex with him, sure. You've been really distant. It sounds like I'm blaming you again, but that's part of the reason. I haven't been able to really see you. Maybe I'm the one that's distant, I dunno. Regardless, we haven't spent a lot of time together. Maybe that's /why/ we're distant. Maybe that's why we're having these problems. But also we're not understanding each other completely.

I trust you and I'm not trying to keep secrets from you. I'm not trying to settle with anyone. You know I can't. If I could I would have already with you. All I wanted you to expect was that I would love him too, because I can't help it. Sometimes I'd spend time with him, sometimes I'd tell him I love him. But that isn't to take away from how I love you. I'm not going away from you, Jinki. I can't do that.

✧ (a past thing!! ?)

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You don't know who you are, you say? You're Lee Jinki, the sometimes sassy, always sexy, perfectly illogically logical partner in crime of mine. Also you cut people open for money and I might be kind of jealous but i would never do it cause I couldn't handle that much school.