I think, the saddest thing that someone could ever say is 'please don't leave me'. And did you know how loud i screamed it inside the last time we met? I never been this sad before, i mean, i feel so pity to myself, this is the greatest failure i've ever done, i can't make you stay, i can't convince you to fight for us, while all of this time, i believe that you will stay, that you will fight for us and never give up. But then you don't. And, i can't do anything but let you go. And today I go with my things, but I still think about you, i wish i didn't but i do, and it makes me angry because i probably don't even cross your mind at all, and it could be even worse when i intentionally come to you, but you intentionally refuse to notice me at all. It's hard for me to make sense of all this, i can't even believe it's true how many times i tried to. You know, the pain, it never feels less heavy. This ache is alive when it shouldn't be, it is back and bigger than ever. I'm sorry but it turns out to be so hard to completely let you go. This is so hard when the hurt is a leech and i am always bleeding. It's even hard to put myself together. I often feel empty for knowing that i leave some pieces of myself in you. It seems like I cannot love anything anymore. Not even myself, geez, I could not even think about how to get my self-esteem back. I look at myself with disgust that I am a terrible worthless ass who doesn't deserve to be loved. I understand that it is stupid to let myself staying trapped in this situation, but please understand that it is so fuckin hard for me to move on, to let go everything that I love from you, not only you as a person I deeply love, but also your personal universe made of your habits, your favorite songs, your way of talk, your name on my contact, your favorite foods, and many other things that easily remind me of you. And hey, would you let me know, how to be doing just fine like you?
andulkaphoto
stormborns
theartofmadeline
turnnoffyourmind
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