FACE YOUR FEARS

It’s not my first attempt at Kpop either. By the time I got into Monsta X, I gained more knowledge and sometimes, I am at a loss for words, both, literally and metaphorically. 

So, I will start this post by stating that I have a crush on Changkyun. LMAO. Did I just admit that? I definitely did. ROFLMAO. Anyway, that’s the point of this post. Also, expressing that made me feel 18 again. 

I can’t describe well why I am attracted to him, I guess I just am. Well, there are cliche ones like similar energy, and similar views in life. I wonder what it is like if I meet someone like him, then we fall in love, and we get married. LMAO. I don’t think I have ever met someone like him. Technically, he’s out of my league. 

The traits I admire from him are his focus and resilience. If only I had stanned early, I would not have thought of this. Because we would be on the same page now. So, yeah, my recent issue is about how hard it is to stay focused. 

The thing I like about him is when he complains about the price. Expensive chocolate, a bottle of sauce, rent, utility bills, tax, house, and more. I found out he’s consistent about this even from predebut era. It means he understands the value of money.

And as someone who got to know them in the late 20s, when my prefrontal cortex finally developed, I have no reason not to stan.

Honestly, I said I have a crush on Changkyun. But, what does it really mean? It means, it will be nice to meet someone like him in the least. And if we actually get married, honestly, it is such a miracle. I don’t care if it doesn’t make sense. Because at the end of the day, a crush is just a lack of information.