all i want is a runnin' riot

if you want it good... | E | 6k pre-relationship hook-up, Eddie Munson is a teasing little shit (and Steve falls for it)

devotion (pretty on my knees) | E | 5k confident Steve, older Eddie, exhibitionism, voyeurism, implied strangers to lovers

salty lips like candy | M | 2k altering pov, mutual pining, idiots in love

no remorse (so unholy, so untamed) | E | 5k teacher Steve/student Eddie, forbidden love, sexual tention (and acting on it)

all i want is everything | E | 4k deinal of feelings, feelings realisation, friends to lovers

bat guy | T | <1k Ozzy Osbourne Tribute, established steddie

whatever we deny or embrace... | E | 6k missed oppurtunities, second chances, friends to lovers to strangers to lovers

sweetest infection of body and mind | E | 2k Dom Steve/Sub Eddie, exhibitionism, humiliation kink, established relationship

haunt me... | M | 2k Vampire!Eddie, emotional hurt/comfort, second chances, angst with happy ending

how sweet, the taste of certainty | E | 4k established relationship, taking care of each other, slice of life

-> steddie bingo the end of maybe | T | 1k established relationship, self-doubts, marriage proposal

when it's love, it lasts forever | T | 2k established relationship, romatic fluff

your heart's safe with me | T | 1k pining, not actually unrequited love, love confessions

happier with you | T | 3k heartbreak, emotional hurt/comfort, angst with happy ending

real, if you want it to be | E | 8k past Tommy/Steve, Steve is an emotional mess, fake to real relationship, angst with happy ending

no universe... | E | 2k established relationship, fluff and smut

not like the movies | M | 3k actors au, past heartbreak, keeping secrets, love confessions

caramel | T | 2k alternate first meeting, pre-steddie, flirting, confident steve, best friends jeff & eddie

puzzle pieces | T | 5k Steve suffers from temporary amnesia after a car accident, angst with happy ending

blue straps on black lace | E | 3k Dom Steve/Sub Eddie, established relationship, lingerie

paths crossed | E | 4k Dom Eddie/Brat Steve, pre-steddie hook-up, open/ambiguous ending

-> steddie holiday drabbles if this is a rom-rom, kill the director | T | 1k (unintentional) meddling, pre-Steddie, forced proximity, implied friends to lovers

sleepless | T | 1k love confessions

taking chances | M | 1k good uncle Wayne, Eddie has a crush, Steve is a sweetheart, open/ambiguous ending

tell the truth G | 1k S5 references, post Vecna, everybody lives, recovery, confessions, friends to lovers

change of course | G | 1k alternate first meeting, flirting, open/ambiguous ending

curious | E | 1k Eddie has a crush, Steve is a tease, sexual tension, secrets, fantasizing

warm bodies and beating hearts | T | 1k trauma recovery, Steve takes care of Eddie

favourite flavour | G | 1k alternate first meeting, coffe shop au, strangers to friends to lovers

against the rules | M | 1k hurt Eddie, post Vecna (S4), angst with happy ending

keep him waiting | M | 1k established steddie, chaos gremlin Eddie, Steve is a tease, orgasm denial, open ending

cabin fever | T | 1k forced proximity, denial of feelings, feelings realisation

tough love | T | 1k best friend Robin Buckley, mutual pining, oblivious idiots to lovers

five minues to midnight | T | 1k Robin & Steve, Jeff & Eddie, pining, meddling, not actually unrequited love

-> corroded coffin fest another love | M | 2k past fwb Jeff/Eddie, newly established steddie, jealousy, love/friendship

angel | M | 1k famous Corroded Coffin, rock star Eddie, Steddie meet cute/ugly (it's both)

made for each other | T | 1k friendship, jealousy, feelings realisation

hold on together | T | <1k art inspired, nightmares, emotional hurt/comfort

let them know that you're mine | E | 3k Rock Star Eddie/Manager Steve, famous Corroded Coffin, secret relationship; Backstage Romance part 2

found | E | 4k pre steddie hook-up, they're both bad at feelings, 0 to 100 strangers to lovers

i wanna stay where it's you and me | E | 5k secret affair, denial of feelings, emotional hurt/comfort, fuckbuddies to lovers

Wayne is reading the newspaper and Eddie watches him absentmindedly while chomping down another pancake, trying not to make too much of a mess with the syrup dripping everywhere.

Sometimes Eddie forgets how much time has passed since he first showed up on the trailer’s doorstep, how much he’s grown since then. But as he takes in Wayne’s features, he finds a reminder in the new lines he discovers on his uncle’s face, little signs of age that make his heart grow and sink at the same time.

It hits him then, out of nowhere, how much of his life Wayne has given up for Eddie. To raise him and help him become the man he is today. How much love he poured into his upbringing, despite all the trouble he put him through.

He’s more than just his uncle; he’s a friend, a father figure, the only worthy connection tying him to the Munson name. And for all the struggles Eddie’s early childhood entailed, he couldn’t have been luckier than to end up right here.

Wayne was always accepting of all of his choices, even the ones he didn’t condone or understand. Always making sure Eddie knew he’d have his back no matter what.

Even when Steve eventually came into the picture and Eddie was sure this would be where he’d draw the line and send him to hell, Wayne once again proved there was nothing in this world that could change his unconditional love for him.

Thinking back on it now, Eddie can’t even remember why he was so scared to introduce Steve as his boyfriend. Why he ever doubted that his uncle would do anything other but embrace the fact that Steve was now part of their unconventional little family. Treating him like a son, just like Eddie, like it was the easiest thing to do.

And it makes him wonder, how a man who has so much love to give never ended up with a family of his own.

   "Can I ask you something?”

Wayne looks up from his paper with raised brows, waiting for Eddie to continue.

   “Did you ever regret not having kids?"

Wayne takes a long sip from his mug before he answers, "What do ya mean? I got you, son."

Eddie immediately chokes up, swallows roughly to regain his composure. It never not makes him emotional whenever he’s reminded that Wayne sees in him more than just a life-long burden, a blood relative that got dropped on his door step for him to take care of. Wayne always called him his own. Made him feel like it, too. But that’s not what this is about, not the point of his question.

   "That’s- not what I mean. Did you never, like, think about getting married? You know, find a wife, have a family, all that stuff."

Wayne sets down his mug and thinks for a moment.

   "Sure. I thought about it once or twice. Had a girl once, when I was younger, thought maybe she would be the one. But I guess it just didn’t happen. And then my priorities changed.”

Meaning he took up guardianship for Eddie. Put all his spare time and energy into raising a traumatized boy instead of following his own dreams.

   “Don’t you give me that look, boy. I chose to take you in and I haven’t had a single moment of regret for doing it.”

Eddie’s throat feels tight, nose and eyes burning with tears he refuses to spill.

   “But if you hadn’t, do you think your life would be... different?”

He doesn’t say better because he knows Wayne wouldn’t tolerate him even thinking that.

   “Who’s to say? I’ll never know and I don’t care. I’m happy with my life as it is. I have you. And Steve. You're my family, that's enough."

Eddie can feel tears trickling down his face, tries his best to subtly wipe his eyes before Wayne sees it, but of course he notices it.

   "Hey now. Where's all that coming from? Is this about you and Steve?”

He doesn’t know why he’s even surprised that his uncle instantly came to the right conclusion despite not having mentioned Steve’s name once. It’s not like he could ever hide anything from him; Wayne always knew what went on in his head.

   “It’s- nothing,” Eddie lies but knows the moment he says it, that there is no use to deny it. Wayne would never push but one stern look from his otherwise gentle eyes is enough to make Eddie crumble.

   “It’s just- One of Steve's colleagues from work recently became a dad and it's all he's been talking about."

It was one of the things Eddie often joked about after his secret was finally out. Telling Wayne he’d save him from becoming a grandpa, that he wouldn’t have to worry about Eddie accidentally getting Steve pregnant and having to take care of another abandoned child so he wouldn’t lose any more hair. Wayne did not appreciate his dark sense of humour, just rolled his eyes and told him to shut it but that never stopped Eddie from bringing it up.

But lately, the same subject has been haunting Eddie every waking hour of the day and in his sleep.

   “I see,” Wayne says and rubs his scruffy chin in thought. “So now you’re worried Steve feels like he’s missing out, is that it?”

Eddie wishes he could tell himself that he’s just jumping to conclusions. That it’s not as deep as he makes it. But he knows how much Steve loves kids.

They have a whole gaggle of now young adults to prove how good he is with kids, too, because the ones he’d been babysitting as a teen still worship him like he’s their own personal hero. Still regularly call and visit and ask him for advice and guidance because they know he’s always there for them.

And in the past, Eddie thought that this might be enough to compensate for something they’ll never get to experience first-hand. That the family bond they have with all these wonderful people around them would be all they need to make their life complete. But maybe he was wrong. Maybe it isn’t enough.

   "Did your boy ever say he wants kids?"

He did, once. But that was long before they started dating, back when they were just friends and Steve was still hung up on a past relationship with a girl he thought he’d marry one day, and have kids with, and be the good version of a father both of theirs never lived up to be.

They were still so young then, foolishly caught in the illusion that they’d had their future paths all figured out, unaware of the crossroad waiting for them down the line, offering a choice they hadn’t yet considered optional.

And then, suddenly and unplanned, friends became lovers, and everything changed. And maybe it was selfish of Eddie to think all these ideas Steve had of a perfect life would simply change with him. That falling in love with another guy automatically came with the acceptance that some things just wouldn’t be in the cards anymore.

But much like Wayne chose not to get married and start a family, Steve does have a choice. And it kills Eddie inside to think that maybe he wasn’t the right one. That maybe Steve will wake up one day and realise he wasted years on something that leaves him unfulfilled. He’s not bound to the circumstances he’s in, so what if-

   “What if he does? Maybe not right now but what if he changes his mind and realises he wants something he can’t have? Not with me.”

Wayne gets up and rounds the table, makes a come here motion with his hands and pulls Eddie into his arms the moment he stands. He doesn’t comment on the sob Eddie can’t hold back any longer, just holds him tight.

   “You listen to me, Eddie. If I know anything, then it’s that Steve loves you. I could see it in his eyes the first time I met him and I still see it now, every time I see you together. The way he looks at you? Like you’ve hung the fucking moon. And I’m sure, if there’s ever anything missing in his life, he’ll move heaven and hell to make it right, together with you.”

Eddie can probably count on one hand the times he’s allowed himself to cry in front of Wayne, and that was only shortly after his old life had fallen apart. But right in this moment, he needs it more than ever. Feels like a kid again, despite his 26 years of age, as he buries himself deeper into his uncle’s embrace and lets his soothing words sink in.

Wayne is right.

Whatever it is, whatever problems they face, Steve would always try to make it work, proved it time and again in the seven years of their relationship and even before.

   “But you gotta talk to him. Can’t just keep it to yourself and hope it all goes away. We both know it’ll eat you up and then you’ll just end up doing something stupid.”

Eddie sniffs but huffs a laugh, remembers that one time Wayne had to give him a buzz cut as a kid, because he acted on impulse when he couldn’t take the teasing anymore from the boys in his class that kept calling him ‘an ugly girl’ for having long, wavy hair. Took the kitchen scissors and cut it so badly, shaving it all off was the only way it could be saved.

It wasn’t the first time he’d let his suppressed feelings boil up and explode, not the last time either, but he’s older now, maybe even a little bit wiser, knows there’s no shame in asking for help if he can’t do it alone.

   “Thanks, Wayne,” Eddie mumbles against the old man’s shoulder, gives his uncle one last squeeze before he’s ready to let go again.

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