running outta time.

i don't even know how to think this straight so i have no idea how i should write it down.. but i feel like it doesn't matter what i do in my life, where i am or with who - i'd leave everything just to be with you. no matter what'd be first, you'll always be my first choice. you'd be the one i'd die for. maybe you already are the one i'd die for. i don't know. i don't know if it'd matter if i knew.. but what i want to say is.. that if there's one thing i've learned and still experience every day is how unbelievable worthful a person is who is willing to do everything for you to make you feel better, who is always, and i mean always, here. who's always holding your back and supporting you no matter what. who understands you like nobody else does. i had this, and i miss this every fucking day. since we broke up i have no one i can always count on. no one but me. i have a lot of good friends, but i just saw it again on tuesday - if i really need someone right now, there's no one i can count on 100%. on tuesday i was lucky cher called me back because she just saw it, but we all know that this is just pure luck.. you can't imagine what i'd do to have one person who's just here for me, and you probably understand now how i'm here for them. i'm always here when you need me, my phone's still on loud at night. i am here, and i am here to prove so. | sunday early morning, 18th june 2k17.

i fucking hate double standards! my coworker and me were talking about homosexuality during lunch, and she asked me if i never wanted to try it with a girl, if boobs don't turn me on, and why? my response as always: because i'm not attracted to them, i don't get turned on by girls no matter how hot they are. as i asked her why she never tried something with a girl, she came up with "because it doesn't turn me on." - u see what i mean? i have to explain myself for my sexuality but she doesn't? | friday early eve, 9th june 2k17.