The Land of Graphite and Ichor

i wasn't allowed to get any fucking word in edgewise before i was banned but i was labeled as a racist over a fucking misunderstanding, given a strike for talking inappropriate when i mentioned being thankful for artists who draw fat people as people and not fetish objects, etc

i was sent a fucking novella about how racist and vile i was because i named a character, essentially, "newspaper smith", and gave him a nickname that is "a grunt". newspaper because of google translate, smith because it was a common surname - one i liked the sound of whose original meaning fit him!

you see, dear reader: this was about an oc whose name i deliberately chose to be symbolic of his character. i chose actual names from a website with real fucking names on it. it happened to contain accents my keyboard could not type, so i would type it out without the accents. someone punched it into google translate and claimed that's what i did for his name. it was not.

for the nickname. i learned how to pronounce his name in a different dialect than someone who knew someone with that name. the dialect made a name that is generally one syllable into two, and so, in text, i shorted it to the first syllable. to the person who knew the single-syllable pronunciation, this seemed like i was just being lazy, and they refused to hear me out otherwise.

but, y'know. based on the diatribe i got in my dms? they just... didn't like me, and neither did the regulars they valued above all else. they saw it as the perfect excuse to get rid of me.

people who made themselves out to be like genuine friends of mine dropped me like a bag of bricks the moment i was removed from the server without another word. even people who promised to keep in touch if anything happened. it was devastating.

i wasn't allowed to get any fucking word in edgewise before i was banned but i was labeled as a racist over a fucking misunderstanding, given a strike for talking inappropriate when i mentioned being thankful for artists who draw fat people as people and not fetish objects, etc

i was sent a fucking novella about how racist and vile i was because i named a character, essentially, "newspaper smith", and gave him a nickname that is "a grunt". newspaper because of google translate, smith because it was a common surname - one i liked the sound of whose original meaning fit him!

you see, dear reader: this was about an oc whose name i deliberately chose to be symbolic of his character. i chose actual names from a website with real fucking names on it. it happened to contain accents my keyboard could not type, so i would type it out without the accents. someone punched it into google translate and claimed that's what i did for his name. it was not.

for the nickname. i learned how to pronounce his name in a different dialect than someone who knew someone with that name. the dialect made a name that is generally one syllable into two, and so, in text, i shorted it to the first syllable. to the person who knew the single-syllable pronunciation, this seemed like i was just being lazy, and they refused to hear me out otherwise.

but, y'know. based on the diatribe i got in my dms? they just... didn't like me, and neither did the regulars they valued above all else. they saw it as the perfect excuse to get rid of me.

people who made themselves out to be like genuine friends of mine dropped me like a bag of bricks the moment i was removed from the server without another word. even people who promised to keep in touch if anything happened. it was devastating.

Im sorry im so bad at uploading things to tumblr.... Ive been procrastinating this for a whole week for no good reason!

I REDESIGNED ALL OF THE HOMESTUCK GODTIERS!

Below is a google drive with literally everything Ive created for this project

The designs and color palettes are based on my own interpretations of the aspects and their classes. The rage aspect changed the most since I believe their powers are based upon all emotions and not JUST rage. So their color palette is meant to represent overwhelming emotions with two opposing colors that are very bright.

Homestuck/Hiveswap - Extended Zodiac

I wanted to compare the titles given to each Sign, as well as the signs of the same Aspect and such with each other, but the way the website ordered them to put the True Signs at the top and needing to click on each one individually to see them was messing with my brain.

Soooo I took all of them, Name and Title included, and ordered them by Caste, Moon and Aspect.

Throws these up

But! To explain my point: you know who doesn’t? Aranea. Aranea, who grooms Jake for slaughter, who forces herself on him and violates his autonomy for her own gain. Mindfang is a rapist, obviously, but Aranea? It’s an allegory. An obvious, pointed, uncomfortably in your face allegory using an alter of one of the only characters to commit explicit sexual assault in HS canon. Aranea’s assault on Jake isn’t literally sexual– she does back off when he refuses to kiss her– but it’s read as such. It’s written as such. And genuinely, I think when we think about it, we all get that

So then we get into Jake in the dungeon. We get Jake under the magnifying lens of objectification, forced by paradox space into uncomfortably skimpy underwear. We get Jake as a character who is fed body fluids without his consent as a means to coerce him into a romantic relationship.

We get quasi-canon where Jake is repeatedly assaulted but many people still gloss over it, because the narrative has you like a lobster in a slowly boiling pot of water, accepting that this is just how Jake is written. Dirk orchestrating sexual encounters for Jake while brainwashing him in Meat- hardly the first time Jake has been brainhacked. Jane deliberately drugging Jake in Candy- not the first time Jane’s done that.

Adding onto this aromantics can still dream about love having crushes etc but absolutely fizzle out or become deathly avoidant of relationships and struggle to form attachment or even consider people they know for anything romantic at all. They may dislike the idea of people having crushes on them seriously. But like having crushes (onesided) on other people. They can like the idea of a relationship or being in love but hate being in one.

Jake and Dirk just read to me as people that are incredibly reluctant to form proper attachments due to failure while young to form or rather be taught what a secure attachment to people means. For Jake, it’s fear of what they’ll see if they get too close and that they’ll leave him or think less of him in some way, Dirk because he doesn’t think he does well with people in general. They do if they try but I feel like they’d be highly skeptical and put up fronts to most encounters or social engagements because that’s what they’re used to doing, 100% of the time.

But the neato thing I guess, to me with Dirk and Jake is that they’ve had long enough to build that genuine care and bond that they find so hard to figure out. They’ve seen each other at their worst, at their semi-best, and obviously they both need a lot of work and time to be on their own and figure their own shit out but objectively I do believe that genuinely they stand a point to gain at least some idea of “love” around each other.