MBTI and Occult Shenanigans

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if someone hadn’t eventually listened to me i would have died

“No,” I said. “You don’t understand. I can’t walk when it happens, it hurts so bad. It’s been since I was a little kid.”

“It might twinge a bit, sure,” he told me. “Go to physical therapy for a few weeks.” I burst into tears.

My mom then refused to take me to physical therapy, because it was a long drive and the doctor said it wasn’t serious, so why should she bother? That was the start of her not listening to any complaint about my joints I ever had.

As it turns out, my knees were dislocating every couple of days. She and my doctors ignored and taught me to ignore sprains, fractures, cartilage tears, and dislocations until I moved out and learned that it wasn’t normal. I missed out on years of my life because of my doctor not only discounting the experience of a young girl, but fully blaming my pain on the fact of my being a young girl.

Good rule of thumb – if you are considering the possibility of being an extrovert, you probably are one. More extroverts mistype as introverts than the reverse, because introverts tend to know their limits when it comes to social engagement. That being said… the same rule applies from that post. Inferior functions are like infants.

Inferior Ne tends to be resistant to looking beyond the obvious. It will Ne-riff with people for awhile but it soon gets tired of “playing” and goes back to real life. In my experience with ISTJs, they easily become frustrated with abstract concepts and conversations that go on too long, because they don’t appear to have a clear conclusion in sight and serve no purpose. Their inferior Ne just is not that tuned into that sort of thing, unlike an ESTJ who will engage longer on that topic and sometimes, with greater skill. Higher Ne’s tend to “dabble” in Ne-related things – so you have an ESTJ who dabbles in philosophy as a hobby, or adopts abstraction as part of their career in psychology, as a means of helping figure out what makes their clients tick.

Inferior Fi is also more childish than tert-Fi, because its’ ruled by a very strong, dominating Te-dom tendency to want to shape the outer world according to its own values. Hermione Granger is a perfect example of this, with SPEW.

If an ISTJ decided that SPEW was a good idea, they would steadily work toward it, because it has value to them (Fi), but not being Te-doms, would be much more respectful of others’ views and know that a gradual process (Si-dom) is best. You change small things that lead to larger changes down the line. SiTe logic would say choose an area that will appeal to a wider base of people, and target that. Work to get that changed, and it will have a greater social impact. Go at it more quietly and productively. That’s the balance in an ISTJ between logic and feeling being best friends in the middle of the stack. Middle TeFi – I believe this, but I also do not believe in imposing my views on others.

Hermione, however, goes in with Te-dom drive and ambition. As an extrovert, she’s focused on the outer world – the House Elves are being marginalized and enslaved, they are not being treated properly, I need to fix this. Her Fi is strongly and rather childishly valuing her own opinion over how others (namely, the house elves) feel about their “enslavement.” So she launches a massive campaign in which she wants others to get on board and be supportive (extrovert) but her inferior Fi lacks nuance, so she drives people away with her aggressive approach, and is not that respectful of the needs / wants of most of the house elves, who start avoiding her because THEY DO NOT WANT FREED. Her Fi wants change, and her Te-dom attitude is IT NEEDS TO HAPPEN NOW.

Now, if she wasn’t being inferior Fi irrational, she would use her higher Ne to look at the big picture. If all the house elves are suddenly freed, what impact will that have on wizarding economy? What impact might it have on Hogwarts? What are the larger social problems of freeing all the house elves? Where is the money going to come from to pay them to do the same thing that last week, they were doing for free? She has the idealism of tert-Ne, but none of the practicality of Te, because she’s so wrapped up in inferior Fi emotions.

You need to remember the attitudes and focus of the introvert vs. the extrovert.

Te-dom: shaping the outside world to fit what they want from it.

Si-dom: having a rich internal world that they steadily build toward expanding.

Te-dom is more likely to leap into action instantly than Si-dom, for that reason.

This is complicated by my core enneatype: 5 (likely with a 4 wing). I’m obviously not a social extrovert, in fact if I leave my room I often get jokes at my expense (“It’s alive!” for example), which don’t make me want to come out of my room at all – obviously. But I’m aware that inferior Fi is as valid a possibility as inferior Ne.

My possibilities started out with all of the TJs. I first ruled out INTJ, as I’m clearly not a Ni dom. A lot of my friends see me as intuitive (after my clear Te preference, that’s always the most obvious), but I’m pretty clumsy with intuition and I mostly use it in a way typical to someone with intuition lower in their stacking. Plus when doing my research, I’ve ruled out Se completely, I obviously use Si/Ne, and I think that’s why people can see me as intuitive and “quirky” or “odd”, they’re seeing my extroverted functions. Plus my chosen career and the way I express myself aren’t (stereo)typical of an STJ. I’m an occultist – astrology and tarot are two of my favorite tools, but I use them in a practical way, to help people and to try to understand the people around me. People, their emotions and typical ways of interacting confuse the hell out of me. I’m a neurodivergent, disabled, queer woman of mixed race and that’s shaped me into someone a bit odd I suppose.

To address lower Fi: I have a shaved head, nearly bald, and I love it, but it took me an actual eternity to actually shave my head the first time. I was at war with myself and the situation I found myself in; I knew my family would freak out, I knew I’d get strange looks and be judged for it, but my hair was falling out due to illness, to the point that it was seriously distressing me and taking a toll on my mental health. It took me well over a year to finally say “screw it” and shave my hair off completely and I still struggled with my decision even after it had been done, still struggle with it sometimes. And all of the emotions involved were strange and strangely intense, I do have deep feelings but they can be pretty foreign to me and I often struggle with my feelings a lot. I’m still pretty bad with feelings in general.

Another example: My username is something I say I am sarcastically to my mother and grandmother, both feelers, who are convinced I don’t have a filter at all. I do, it just filters differently. I honestly struggle with feelings, though, I’m either too insensitive or too accommodating with little in-between and I struggle with that. I don’t want to hurt people, but I also think that sometimes people are too sensitive. Then sometimes I surprise myself with my own sensitivity to things, as I’d like to think that normally I have a thicker skin – but everyone has their weak spots I suppose. And sometimes I know exactly how I feel about something, and sometimes I’m unaware of having feelings on a matter at all.

And when stressed out I can have a mini to a huge meltdown. From none of the clothes I’ve grabbed fitting me and my foul mood ruining a shopping trip to me literally crying and screaming because I’m overworked, exhausted, and in pain with no breaks because my mother had an accident three months ago and I’ve been having to take care of her nearly non-stop for the whole time while being disabled myself as she got worse before at a snail’s pace starting to get better and heal, but not seeing an end to it before I figured I’d collapse, and so getting upset at how exhausted I was, how nobody was considering how I was feeling and only my grandmother was helping, and me catastrophizing about it only getting worse and how it was never going to end. Am I proud of all of that? No. Am I kind of fine after the occasional freak out/outburst? You betcha. Am I embarrassed by them and do I feel incredibly exposed afterwards? Hell yes. But I’m trying to be honest here so I can finally figure this out.

Do you see why I struggle with whether my Fi or Ne is inferior? Sometimes one is the screaming toddler, sometimes the other is, and sometimes they just scream together. An example specific to high Si/low Ne, since I’ve focused more on Fi: I’ve come to despise my birthday as something always goes wrong and the day is terrible. I’ve come to expect it to the point that you’d think that itself would ruin the day – which it has in the past. This year I tried to just hope for an average day and wouldn’t you know it, I get sick. But hoping for an average day came after me ranting and rambling on all the things that could go wrong and being called out on catastrophizing.

I’m sure of my functions, sure of being an STJ, just not sure of the exact order. Since we haven’t discussed my first two functions, since you seem to enjoy using HP examples/references, and since more examples of how I think and work will likely help: I’d never read Harry Potter until about three years ago, still have only read the first book, and I honestly got so incredibly pissed off at Dumbledore. Why? Well for starters, at the beginning of the book it seems like Dumbledore hasn’t taken anything practical into account. He doesn’t consider talking to the people he plans on leaving Harry with so he has no clue what they’re like, if they’re willing to actually take Harry in, if they’ll keep him, if they can financially provide for him when they already have one baby to care for, ect. And then if memory serves me right, he didn’t check back in on Harry to see how he was being cared for. Actually, nobody did, is there no one practical in the wizarding world who cares about Harry? I mean, aside from Harry being now-famous, you’d think someone would have cared? Even McGonagall, who seems the most practical of the bunch, didn’t. I understand that Dumbledore is an intuitive, obviously, and that McGonagall has learned to trust Dumbledore and the madness to his meathod, and I haven’t read the other books, but these are just the things that I would focus on were I in this situation and there was a young child involved and that annoy me that nobody focused on and I do not have reasons for. I’ll possibly read the other books later on.

Just now he started asking “what’s this? what’s this? what’s this?” while staring worriedly behind the couch. I said “I dunno” because I wasn’t sure if he was actually asking about anything in particular. Maybe he meant the couch? The darkness behind it? The marimo next to the couch?

Then he said, “it’s wood?” which I figured he was saying because I had been making him a toy from wood blocks a moment ago. So I said, “I’m not holding wood anymore.”

But he kept staring intently over the arm of the couch, so I had to go over and see what he meant.

Then when you said that Ripley holds things in his feet, I assumed you were talking about an armless child

Then when I saw the picture, at first all I noticed was the parrot, no gourd, and thought "why does this child think this parrot looks like wood?"

“This happened hundreds of years ago, get over it”.

Sure, it started centuries ago. But it didn’t end hundreds of years ago, or one hundred, or even 50. 

When we talk about these issues, we don’t just mean small pox-infected blankets, or forced migration. We don’t just mean settlements, bounties on our heads, the physical attacks on our villages. We don’t just mean the residential schools, or the laws that banned our traditional languages and practices. 

We mean: 

- The Sixties Scoop, when Indigenous children were ripped from their communities to be placed with white families.

- Residential schools, the last of which only closed in 1996, where children were forced to give up their languages, culture, identity, and were abused horribly.

- The Millennium Scoop. The child welfare system in Canada is still ripping children from Indigenous communities. Despite only making up about 8% of the age demographic, Indigenous youths under 14 account for more than half of the foster system. (x)

- 80% of reserves in Canada have median incomes that fall below the poverty line (x)

- A vast number of reserves in Canada do not have clean drinking water (x)

- Indigenous rights and land titles are routinely ignored in order to create pipelines and sell off resources. (x)

- According to Indigenous women’s groups, there are approximately 4,000 cases of Missing and Murdered Indigenous Women and Girls. The RCMP only acknowledge about 1200 of these. (x)

-  “Between 1997 and 2000, the homicide rate for Indigenous women was nearly seven times higher than the rate for non-Indigenous women.” (x)

- A man literally confessed to the murder of Tina Fontaine, a 15 year old Indigenous girl, and he was acquitted. (x)

- Colten Boushie, a Cree man, was shot multiple times by a Saskatchewan farmer. A jury featuring no Indigenous people declared his murderer not guilty. (x)

- The Starlight Tours. Saskatoon Police routinely took intoxicated Indigenous men outside of the city in sub-zero temperatures and left them to find their way back. Several froze to death. The Saskatoon Police were caught deleting the article about this from Wikipedia. (x)

- Suicide and self injury are the leading cause of death for Indigenous men under 44. In addition, the rate of suicide in Indigenous women is seven times higher than that of non-Indigenous women, and the rate of suicide among Indigenous men is 5.25 times higher than that of non-Indigenous men. Suicide rates for Inuit youth are among the highest in the world, at 11 times the national average. (x) In certain communities, like Attawapiskat, suicides reach epidemic levels. (x)

These are just a few of the many legacies of colonization that impact us today. 

This is colonialism. This is genocide. 

It never stopped.

- The Canadian government and RCMP carried out a heavily militarized attack on Wet’suwet’en people defending their unceded territory from an illegal pipeline this week.

This is land that does not belong to the goverment. It is land that according to the government’s own laws, and more importantly Wet’suwet’en laws, can’t be taken by Canada.

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The original purpose of a pregnancy test before an x-ray was to make sure there’s no fetus being exposed to radiation, which can result in the worst case scenario in birth defects and miscarriage. Radiology and medical imaging in general operates on a risk-vs-benefit scale. Is doing a chest x-ray to see if you have pneumonia worth a small risk to the fetus? In many cases, of course it is. I personally don’t like x-raying pregnant people (not that it has anything to do with pregnant people, but more about how most doctors don’t understand the first thing about radiation safety when they over-order exams), but sometimes you gotta. Pregnant people get sick and need healthcare. That’s that.

But the thing is, that’s when people KNOW they’re pregnant. We explain the risks and benefits to them, so they can make an informed decision. Some people refuse, some don’t. It’s their choice.

But if you’re pregnant and don’t know it yet, you can’t make that informed decision.

So we offer pregnancy tests to people who are unsure of their status in that regard. To give them peace of mind if nothing else. If somebody is sure they’re not pregnant, they’re still making an informed decision. Most places have a form you can sign saying there’s no chance of pregnancy and y'all can get on with the test. I fill it about 20,000 of those papers every shift at my hospital. I know they exist.

What happens a lot, though, is that you go to the ER (for example), and the doctor orders an x-ray and an hcg, and the nurse asks for a urine sample or draws some blood without telling you it’s for a pregnancy test.

Y'all. That is not informed consent.

So then (if your ER is anything like mine), you have to wait 10 years for a nurse to have time to test the urine or for the lab to process the blood. And all that time wasted for nothing, because you knew you weren’t pregnant.

Next time you get an x-ray, tell the nurse up front you don’t want a pregnancy test and that you’ll sign whatever form you need to.

It shouldn’t be your responsibility to do that, tho. That’s the thing. Doctors and nurses should inform you that they’re running a pregnancy test, because it’s your right as a patient to understand what kind of care you’re receiving and to refuse any exam or test you see fit.

But doctors don’t like hearing “no”, so they don’t tell you so there won’t be a fight. That has to change.

OP, I want to tell you that, no matter what a doctor or nurse or anyone might tell you, x-ray techs know the rules about radiation safety better than they do, and they cannot REQUIRE a pregnancy test. They can suggest and recommend it, but they cannot REQUIRE it. It IS sexist and paternalistic not to listen to a patient in any way, but especially in regards to what can be a very sensitive subject. No one should force you to undergo a useless test that only serves to delay your care.

But as far as news regarding Gotham’s prominent citizens go, Bruce’s ‘scandals’ are so normal that it’s downright refreshing. When a headline has ‘Bruce Wayne’ in the title, you know you’re either going to read some Celebrity Gossip level non-drama, or else something to do with a charity. Maybe he’s been kidnapped again, but that’s only happened a few times. Bruce Wayne news is like the Gotham equivalent to special reports about dogs who rescue their owners from drowning, or raccoons who’ve figured out how to get past the new self-locking garbage can lids.

And there’s something weirdly reassuring about following his twitter. Like, if Bruce Wayne is tweeting about a really neat old tree he just saw, things must at least be sort of alright.

That’s a deep… dock.

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