redemption

Are you guys still here?

It must be easier to care for no one.

It hurts until it doesn't.

How do I get rid of this feeling that sooner or later people are going to leave me and move on to someone better than me?

How do I stop from feeling anything?

I'm here posting at 1am like I don't have work in the morning but anyways I should sleep.

I posted something and it didn't go through so I wrote it again and it didn't go through again. Maybe that's a sign.

I keep coming back here because I need space to write emo stuff and Twitter is so public.

Follow me on Twitter though. I'm more active on there.

I used to say that I like being alone, which I still do. It's just easier to be alone. Then as I got older, it became comfortable. I've learned to live with it. But there's this ache, this tiny, what-if thought that's always there. And now? I'm realizing that I just lived with it, and I didn't really like it.

Came to a realization today that no matter how many times I go to the gym, I can't fix my face.

I don't know, I'm supposed to be with someone and yet I don't feel like I'm loved. I don't know if my expectations are too much or this is just not enough for me.