Let it go, bitches

It really does - its magical and I cant stop looking at her? I think we have no idea what we are doing but so far it all worked out? A hello bello package? I am not even sure what that is but it sounds like something useful 

It’s been five years since I had my last baby -- and sometimes I can’t stop looking at my girls either. The feeling doesn’t go away. Kids change your world in the best way possible. I still have no idea what I’m doing half the time -- so don’t panic and worry about it. You’re always learning as a parent. Oh, Hello Bello is my company for baby and kids products. We do all sorts of things so hopefully it helps you a little.

We kept it a secret for a few days and mostly we kept her all to us for a few days, but our little beautiful earthling is here and I don’t think I’ll ever stop looking at her. Completely and utterly in love…and she’s a little virgo 

Aw! Welcome to the world, little one. There’s nothing quite like holding your child for the first time -- it truly takes your breath away. I’ll never forget the moment I laid eyes on my girls. Love at first sight. Hope you and Zayn are settling into everything well. If you need any help, let me know. And I’ll send you a Hello Bello package! Watch out for that.

I guess, having a family to take care of changes everything. Right? Mmm, it’s completely worth it, just a few minutes of each, and you feel like a new person. Where were they, when you say they weren’t at home? Okay, that’s fully understandable. If you’re on the schedule, you need to get through things, especially, when you’ve been grounded for six months or more. Oh, their dad is here? I didn’t know that.

It does -- but I love the little ratbags, wouldn’t change it for the world. Just every once in a while you need a break from life. Family or no family. They were just enjoying time with Dax -- yeah, he got an apartment that he comes and stays in so he can have the girls and enjoy his time with them. Don’t think he’s fully committed to living here, yet. I’m proud of Seb and Anthony for working hard and making all this happen. It’s going to be amazing whenever we get to see what they’re working on.

Oh? What kind of costumes are we talking about here? I still need to decide what to do - couples costume or not, what my kids want to dress up at, how we can safely do trick or treating… lots to consider. I wish I could still sleep in, even if I miss out on things because of it. Mine definitely are, and I know where they have it from. Not my DNA, definitely not mine. It’s Mr “I get up at five am to work out”… I’m blaming him fully. You didn’t want to assume, when he’s basically sitting at the base and dating you? Go for it. It’ll be great, Scarlett, Florence and Rachel have worked hard on it. You lose the remote? How?

Well -- the girls are finally not wanting to do Frozen as a theme -- instead their going as Hogwarts students. Each have their house picked out. I’ve got two options for myself -- Dumbledore, or Bellatrix. You should ask Lisa what she wants and base everyones around that. Could be a super cute family moment. Not my DNA either, I think it’s from Dax and just slight influences from Seb. Since they’ve certainly enjoyed getting up earlier since he’s been staying with us. Why do our men have to work out so dang early? Well, he could take his mom -- or a friend. I dunno. It slips between the sofa cushions sometimes and it takes me a while to dig it out. 

Oh, that sounds actually really nice, having freetime and unplugging from the world completely. It’s what I have been doing in a less crass form, recharging the batteries away from others with lots of meditation, walks, runs, reading, baths… anything that cleared the mind and healed the body. Where did you leave your kids? With Seb?

It’s been a while since I’ve been able to do that -- so was certainly needed. Those sound like lovely things to do though -- I might have to do some, even with the girls back home. As much as they’d love a trip out of state, I don’t think having them on set would be fun for any of the crew. Nothing would be filmed -- and they’d be even more behind in their schedule than they already are. They were with their dad. 

This whole year has flown by, even though it also dragged on. Days melted into each other, and it was difficult for me to differentiate what kind of weekday it was. It was nice to find some sort of rhythm, at least. The kids made it easier, otherwise I might have slept in till noon every day. Seb’s going to get invited, you know that, right? So ask him to take you along, if he hasn’t made plans for that already. It really is, isn’t it? What else are we going to do? Perhaps they don’t want to make us miss out on anything. 

Hasn’t it? I have no idea how it’s September already. Three months till Christmas -- but more importantly -- Halloween is next month. I’m so fucking excited. I already have costumes picked out. I’ve still tried to sleep till noon -- doesn’t work but there’s an attempt. I don’t know how my children became such morning people. Of course I know that -- but I don’t want to just assume that I’ll be there by extension. Plus -- it’ll be good to support a female lead superhero movie. It’s kind of them to check in on us, but it also means I have to move and grab the remote to push a button. And sometimes -- you lose the remote.

We’ve started dating early 2017, sometime, just casually, and they filmed them throughout 2017 and 2018. So it wasn’t “a lot shorter”. We already had our tickets and everything… I can’t wait for that date night. It’s nice, actually, working less, and with more quality, it gives also others the possibility to tell their stories. Some we’ve heard, some have never been on screen before. Ten episodes of forty-five to sixty minutes feel more bingeable than the long seasons. Also, it didn’t keep Chris from having a home life, and it won’t keep me from it, either. I can do both, and not feel like I’m missing out. 

I’m happy with my family the way it is right now. And I still have time to decide whatever I want to do.

Naw, it’s still Annie. There’s no cowardice in you.

It feels like a much shorter time, for some reason. Although Seb and I have been dating since December and that feels like time has just flown by. Time is going far too quickly. I’m sure it’s going to be a great date night! I gotta make sure I get my tickets when they go on sale, before they sell out. I just think it’s rude that Netflix asks if we’re still watching -- it’s so judgemental. Of course I’m still watching. 

You’re sweet, Soph. This is why I keep you around.

What do you mean once or twice? This whole time? I have been on the sidelines through two fully Marvel film shoots, and they’re not too busy to call, at least. Mmm, I guess they have a deadline and want to make it happen, seeing how it apparently ties in with Black Widow’s film, and then Wanda’s tv series and other films on the way. And it’s a lot of money on the line, too, like always. I quite like short seasons - ten episodes with quality content over lots of screen time. Also, those are better conditions for us actors, too. 

What makes you think I’d want to get pregnant again now?

It takes a lot out of you, but this is why we do what we do, right? We love the challenge. That’s good. Injuries are never great. They’re annoying, niggling things. Aw, but you aren’t a coward by any means. You do like to toe the line, don’t you?

Two? Why does it feel like you’ve been with Chris a lot shorter than the time it takes to make two of those movies. I can’t wait for the Black Widow film -- for sure I’m going to go on opening night. It’s strange that this is what TV is coming to -- less than 20 episodes a season. For some reason I thought seasons would get longer, not shorter. 

I dunno -- I was mainly joking, babe. 

Kristen Coward Bell -- it’s actually my middle name. I’ve been fooling everyone this whole time with the Annie thing. Surprise.

So he didn’t call? He doesn’t need me to check in on his girlfriend. Nicely done, girl. Congratulations. Mmm, kinda. On the other hand, new formats arise every day, where you don’t have to work sixteen hour days for nine months on end. I’m allowed to pick and choose, too. Baby what now? Mmm, I prefer TC to the big screen, it’s… more fun to be able to delve deeply into your character. Even with his rotten shoulder? How is that injury coming along? I can imagine that it’s nicer than having to fly back and forth. You married a daredevil once, that doesn’t make you one by default. Your girls did get half his DNA, though.

Once or twice -- but he’s focused on work. Disney likes to get antsy when things are working out on time so I guess they’ve just got a lot to do down there. I’m just hoping they’re not pushing him and Anthony, and the crew too hard. True -- so many streaming services around lately, and the TV seasons are getting shorter and shorter it feels like. Baby number three! 

TV is fun, to be able to do that -- I loved Eleanor and Veronica, my last two roles on the small screen, but it’s also very taxing on your own soul. I think it’s mostly healed now, not really sure, to be honest. Sometimes I think it’s more than half -- the amount of daredevil in them is a lot. It’s kinda mad.

Don’t you think he worries either way, when you drop off the face of the earth, while he’s in Georgia? Oh, nice - I’m all for female-driven plots. There are many of them. Film or TV? I just miss being on set, with Lisa in Kindergarten and CJ in daycare - so we have lots to tell ourselves. Not that I don’t love being a mum, but that’s not all I am. That’s what Dax is for, right? How’s he adapting to the East Coast living?

Nah -- I’m sure if he was worried, he would of made you come and make sure I wasn’t dead, ha. A movie -- going back to the big screen. Not really sure if I could really do TV anymore, takes far too much time away from the kids. Just means you have more time to make baby number three, Soph. And of course it’s not -- you’re superwoman. I can’t wait to see your pretty face on the big screen, or TV one, soon. He’s liking it -- still gets to ride his bikes and be his daredevil self. The girls like having him here, too. Since they get to do all those things with him. Mama still won’t do the dirt bikes. Too scary for me.

Have you told them? About you unplugging, I mean. I’m sure they’d understand. Oh? What kind of thing? I’m still hoping that the Good Sam will start production soon, but… we’ve been out of it for a while. Is it homeschooling that’s got you all butting heads? Seb’s mother is all kinds of lovely, she’s so cute around kids.

I’ve text my mom -- but with Seb busy working, I don’t wanna disrupt him. I’ll let him do his thing. It’s called Queenpins -- about two housewives who laundred 40 million dollars through fake coupons. It should be fun to film. I’m hoping for you, too, babe. Yep -- I think they’re too much like me, so we all just needed a break from each other. She’s the sweetest, I love her.