lion hearted boy –

          “i - uhm - i’m sorry? i didn’t - uh - i know you’re real?” he stumbles over the words, not sure what to say. shaky fingers dance nervously over his neck and mattie offers an unsure smile. “no pinching required.”

-- “Oh uh-- sorry, I get a whole lot rambly and off track sometimes,” Rowan smiled just a bit at the other. “Did I make you uncomfortable? I didn’t mean too if I did...”

clem: cheesy

clem: "blah blah blah i have no concept of context or abuse or circumstance so i'm a raging dick 2 everyone that doesn't fit my tastes even when they make an effort 2 reach out and fix their behavior" -rowan celis, circa 2017

clem: hows john doing btw?

clem: o right. he ditched ur ass

rowan: got a new life when i was able to transition, things get better when u do things that aren't murder to get wher u need 2 be

rowan: LOOK HONEST TO FUCK: I DO NOT CARE THAT YOU WERE ABUSED, THERE WERE THINGS YOU COULD HAVE DONE TO AVOID KILLING YOUR PARENTS IF THEY WERE ABUSING YOU THAT BADLY, YOU DON'T JUST FUCKING KILL PEOPLE

rowan: THAT'S NOT RIGHT, KILLING PEOPLE BECAUSE THEY'VE WRONGED YOU IS NOT THE SOLUTION

rowan: NOT TO MENTION: YOU WANTED TO MARRY AND FUCK YOUR BROTHER THAT'S NOT RIGHT

rowan: AND YOU DIDN'T EVEN TRY TO APOLOGIZE OR FIX YOUR BEHAVIOR, YOU JUST TEXTED ME OUT OF THE BLUE LIKE "HEY HOW'S YOUR LIFE" APOLOGIZE BEFORE ASKING QUESTIONS ABOUT SOMEONE, GOD

rowan: oh my GOD he didn't ditch, asshole

clem: why'd you name urself after a bush

clem: not that i'm judging k i lost the name lottery and i kno it

clem: u rly dnt know shit abt me or what i deserve so tone it down

clem: i didn't punch u in the gym and that's p damn good

clem: ikr? it's the Worst that i'm finally getting to see the person that cares abt me most in the world and the only member of my family that isn't shit

rowan: cause the rowan tree symbolizes new life

rowan: "wah wah wah my parents wouldn't let me fuck and marry my brother so i killed them" -clementine sterling, circa 2017

rowan: yeah, u didnt punch me, so grateful for that :P

rowan: pal i rly do not care i think it's super gross that u and ur bro are in love and fuck like ?? that's fucked

clem: ur named after a bush i think u should let the name thing go neither of us r gonna win

clem: ew school

clem: u doin summer school?

clem: ur really not making this Being A Better Person thing easy, r u?

clem: i'm visiting my brother since i haven't seen him in forever

rowan: i know, i named myself asshole :P i chose the name rowan cause i liked the meaning and symbolism

rowan: need too. catching up.

rowan: yeah honestly? u don't deserve it to be easy

clem: wow full name you sound like my parents

clem: bad comparison

clem: didn't mean to start this off w/ vague threats

clem: but w/e

clem: r u doin good

clem: still lookin 4 bigfoot?

rowan: clem is dumb in terms of nicknames :P

rowan: eh, fine. bored. not rly rn, focusing on school.

clem: is this rowan?

clem: angry dude that loves bigfoot or whatever?

rowan: mmmmhm

so if you want a starter from my dear peachy boy rowan please just like this post!! if you’ve got multiple characters lmk which one you’d prefer for a starter :)

QUICK EDIT: if i do owe you anything i might’ve missed it because my activity is always fucking with me and is unkind as all get out :’) just lmk about that too if i do owe you something i may have missed

    as the sort of person who’s good at getting what he wants, he knows when he’s about to succeed. here and now? he’s practically already counting it as success. Rowan seems more than interested in eloping and his little challenge is obviously nothing he can’t conquer. “convinced yet?” he purrs against his neck, a smirk teasing at the edges of his lips. “or should i keep trying?” either way, he’s pretty sure that Rowan’s going to be cooperative with him. 

-- “Very convinced...” He breaths out softly as he felt his lips against his neck. “Y-You can keep trying but I don’t know what else there is to ‘try’ for, you’ve got me uh-- ye-yeah...” Rowan’s hands move up to Nick’s face, cupping his jaw in his hands. He pulls him into a deep kiss before pulling back just a bit, “maybe we should go somewhere... More private?”

“sure! here ya go,” les smiled as they exchanged numbers. “awww, thanks! I’ve been told,” he said, “…i don’t really believe it though.” if anyone had known him from his previous school, they’d know how severely dangerous he can get. people avoided him for it and it drew him into a dark place. plath was a fresh start, a blank slate where people wouldn’t judge him for his disorder. “so. how’s plath going for you?” he asked with a smile.

-- “Eh, that’s alright, it’s hard to believe things other people tell you,” Rowan says with a soft smile. “You just gotta hope they’re not malicious or anything, and I can promise i’m not being malicious at all. You’re very sweet and very handsome so... Thanks. For the shirt and being nice and teaching me how to do my laundry the right way. It was really cool of you.”

    he snuggles in a bit closer to Rowan, a heavy ( but content ) sigh escaping him. he hasn’t felt this relaxed since he’s arrived at plath, much to the dismay of his team, but here and now he thinks for once that there might be a point to the whole thing. sure, he’s not sure exactly what that point is ( or why they shove him so adamantly to interact with their kind ) but he doesn’t think that matters too much. he doesn’t need to understand; he just needs to learn to be more comfortable. after that, maybe everything else will get easier to bear. “me too,” he mumbles, his eyes flickering shut. “like being with you.”

-- Warmth spreads slowly through Rowan’s body as he gets closer to Raul, his lips gently pressing against his lips once more. “I’m glad...” He mumbles softly before pulling a blanket around them carefully. It’s so good, it feels so good to be this close with him. It feels right. Nothing has ever felt this right to Rowan, everything has always felt just ‘right adjacent’ but this... Raul... It’s all just perfect. “I like being with you too.” He knows not much needs to be said between them, they’re both able to read each other pretty well, even though Raul’s not keen on people and Rowan is just... Generally bad with social cues. Because of those things though, they click so much better than they would with anyone else.