kurtis 𖦹 salem

Ive been thinking about if i have ADD/inattentive ADHD for awhile, they're the same thing but i think inattentive ADHD is the new term. I think its always been obvious to everyone but me. For reference i was diagnosed with autism in 2022 and i have struggled with my mental health for as long as I can remember. I always just thought it was either my autism or depression making me act the way i do. Which yes that is a part of it, but the more i relate to people with ADD i realize maybe i do have it? Obviously I'm not going to self diagnose as there's no reason for me to. But my family has a history of people with ADHD, but i always was like "oh that could never be me because im not super hyperactive and i can control myself" but then i learned about ADD. Ive always struggled with functioning like since i was a kid and i think it was super obvious that i might be neurodivergent especially when i was little. I always struggled with numbers, i still do. I could never understand fractions or just anything that wasn't basic addition abd subtraction because it just overwhelemed me. I struggle with saying numbers and just processing things. I hate math and some of science because of just how overwhelming it is and no one really understands what i mean when i say that. I also have always struggled with doing things like just actually getting up and doing it. Even If i want to. Likr the concept of getting out of my comfort zone is like my version of hell. Ive always been called lazy, unoragnized, stupid because i struggle to like just get up and clean or i misplace things very easily. I can't do like just one thing at a time either, like i can't just sit and watch a movie, i need to like scroll on my phone or play roblox while doing it but also while focusing on the movie if that makes sense. Im also very forgetful but im pretty sure thats because of my PTSD and depression. Ok like another thing i do is like ill be like " ill start drawing at 11am" then 11am comes and im like "well its already here so i guess ill just wait till my computer charges all the way" then it charges and i still dont get up. Then the day ends and i feel like a failure becsuse i didn't actually do anything lol. I always have thought maybe im just like stupid lmao but now idk. Again, not trying to self diagnose i judt wanted to talk lel since thats all i rlly do on here. Is any of this relatable to anyone who maybe is diagnosed with ADD and or ADHD or even autism for that matter. Sorry if this is unreadable i struggle putting my thoughts into words often arrhgggheh ok bye.