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Screaming into the void: I MISS ILJA

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...Unrelated, but I'd like to see a feud between Ludwig and Gunther one day. It would be incredible as it contains many aspects such as history, friendship, respect, legacy, culture, and love for the sport.
Finally watched the match. A pure happy ending for the massive feud. I’d give flower shower to both of them. They made such an incredible story out of a trash concept.
…Odd to say, but I think I kind of thank MJF for his comment about Malakai Black.
…Of course, MJF criticized Mal with words, but in the end, he said he is OK if he will be proved wrong. And how can Mal prove him wrong? Only by working together. So, I took that as his gesture of trying to give Mal another chance.
Once again, I don’t know how it happened in the first place. (I have some theories, but they are just my theories.) All I can say is something went horribly wrong between Mal and others, and I DO hope the issues to be solved. So, this might be just me, a big fan of Aleister/Malakai/Tommy with his works, desperately trying to find lights there. But…, well, the words from MJF actually gave me a bit of hope (even though I imagine many AEW fans may not want) and I’m really thankful for that.
In the end, the only way to redeem the name of Malakai Black is by working with others. I don’t think AEW nor former HoB members need him to be there. It’s much more likely the other way round, as he has to prove that he can work properly with others once again. And MJF kept the bridge, the chance to exist. I thank him deeply and prays for it goes well this time, as that’s the only thing I can do.
Start over from the ashes Start over from the seed
…There are times I feel many things but cannot do nor say a lot. In that case, I put them into drawings. In a sense, this is a form of prayer.

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Memo to self: Try drawing Drew while listening to OST of Elden Ring Nightreign and other Fromsoft games.
…Drawing through Aleister/Tommy’s tattoos now. I hope I can finish the drawing this weekend as 5/19 is his birthday. It should’ve been tough for him these days and this is basically the only thing I can do. I just need to believe in the power of fan art, even if it doesn’t affect anything physically.
For those who are interested to know what Asuka and Iyo have been saying in Japanese, I (Japanese) would say that they were not largely different from what they said in English.
Anyway, I translated them. (Though some parts can be wrong as it was a bit difficult to figure out what they were saying when they were talking smaller and half crying)
...After the release, I wonder if we are getting to see the stories about Tommy End. It was only mentioned once, at the short movie of Malakai's emerge, so many would have forgotten this. It suggested that there's something between Tommy End, Aleister Black, and Malakai Black, something more than just being different personas. Since then, there's one question in my mind: How is Tommy End doing now?
31K likes, 912 comments - aleisterblxck on July 7, 2021: "“I often wondered how many more there were, like in my head? Those voices. I don’t
(I've been posting this link several times before, but it's still one of my most favorite PVs of all time.)
In the movie, it's said that Tommy End has been telling them about Aleister Black while being kept in an asylum and he started calling himself Malakai Black rather recently. In the end, something supernatural happened and Tommy End left the place as Malakai Black, singing "the devil made me do it".
Quite obviously, it seems like Tommy End become Malakai Black because something supernatural possessed him. And I think, that means Tommy End still exists. He might be possessed and corrupted by the entity resides in him, possibly altered beyond recognition, but still exists. And I wonder, is it possible to save him?
...About the relationship with Tommy End and Aleister Black, I actually have crazier theory. Like, as it said in the movie, Tommy End has been in asylum during the time Aleister Black has been working in WWE. It sounds contradicting with each other. Then, what if I try to make it make sense while not throwing WWE in alternate universe from other companies? The thing I thought was, Aleister Black exists out there while Tommy End in asylum has been resonating with his soul. It also works along with Aleister Black's original backstory where he was actually inhuman (a devil with memory loss). (See, I can imagine Aleister Black got exiled from the heaven and accidentally landed on Tommy End, ended up sending him to asylum while completely losing his memory. And it's not that surprising when their souls got mixed up a bit on the shock, since angels/devils are spiritual being unlike humans. It's the similar way that human bodies can be mixed up in gory ways if it happens.)
Though, I'm unsure about Aleister Black's second run at WWE. He seemed more human like than before, especially after he started working with his wife. So, it might be, just MIGHT BE, it could be Tommy End believing that he is Aleister Black, because he surely has memory of "the first time he worked in WWE". (In that case, where is Aleister Black, and how did he changed from Malakai Black can be the new questions.)
...Well, the second chunk is really crazy one to believe, but I think the first chunk about Tommy End and Malakai Black has some potentials to be real. In that case, they can technically "cleanse" him to get Tommy End back. And who do you think the most suitable one for this? I think that's Brody King. He's been knowing Tommy End for long and knows how Malakai Black had been functioning. So, if they ended up pulling the feud with this aspect, it would be really cool and also help pushing Brody to get bigger. (And it will also help the entire character ark of Tommy End to step into new chapter.)
...Yup, this is fanfiction level of imagination, so I don't wish for it to happen. It's just too much to ask. But it would be cool if we can see a bit about what exactly has been happening with Tommy End.

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...I was going through Aleister's (should I start call him Tommy now?) IG for references and ideas for drawing. And the way he's been saying that he has a lot more plans to come and sounding excited about them broke my heart. He and his team have been prepared for things and all of them were thrown into trash can just when it started putting out buds.
And you know, it wasn't even the first time he had to face this. Of course, both of them should have come from business decisions with financial perspective or something, but it always feels terrible when a project which can be great is abandoned before seeing its outcome.
...After I read the comment from JR, I've been wondering what has been happening with Malakai in AEW. I basically don't trust news pages, but when the words are coming from the actual people in that place, that should be worth considering as at least it means they think/feel that way.
So, JR mentioned a bit about trust and reliability. He also said that some believes that Mal was missing something and he doesn't disagree with that. However, JR also said that Mal wasn't missing his work ethic and he still likes him.
If the thing were like "that egomaniac never let others over because he didn't feel like it", then JR wouldn't have said that, I think. Nobody including JR would tolerate with that kind of attitude. It was something he could tolerate, yet others couldn't. And as I believe all of them have reasons for what they think of him, I wonder what could've been.
(Well, JR may be able to tolerate with things way lot more than others considering about he's been in this industry at least since 90's, but I don't think he never updated his views from then.)
...Actually, from my personal experience of my life, I can think about one thing that would cause this kind of situation, but... he is not me. Again, I have no clue on the industry nor their lives. I can only hope for the best outcome for everyone.
(↓Lengthy post about my personal experience as an odd and kind of shitty student in the class, only for those interested)
This makes me wonder about the situation. So, whatever the issues they had with him in AEW, they were something JR could tolerate and some others could not...? If they were attitudes like rejecting to work with certain people and refusing to get pinned simply because he didn't feel like it, those are something I don't think JR would tolerate with. (Also it should be considered to be issues with working ethics.) Then, what exactly was that...?
...Well, we never know and the only thing I can do is hoping for the best for him.
…Really personal thing, but one of the many things pisses me about Aleister’s release is the fact I just started drawing a fanart for his birthday. It was still a rough sketch, but it could’ve been cool, then it lost the meaning along with his release.
…Anyway, now I’ll think of a new design.
…You know, I think/hope it’s not like that, but the way they releasing talents with ongoing stories gives me the impression that TKO wanted to discontinue their stories but couldn’t find proper reasons for that, and just decided to fire them all so that they don’t have to think about any excuses.
…I hope I’m wrong with this, but I’ll never know.

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Current WWE releases as of 04/24/2026 (I will update this post as the releases are announced, these have been confirmed by Fightful Select):
- Zoey Stark (5:30 PM EST)
- Alba Fyre (5:30 PM EST)
- Nikki Cross (5:30 PM EST)
- Joe Gacy (5:50 PM EST)
- Bo Dallas/Uncle Howdy (6:05 PM EST)
- Andre Chase (6:25 PM EST)
- Erick Rowan (6:55 PM EST)
- Dexter Lumis (6:55 PM EST)
- Dante Chen (7:15 PM EST)
- Kairi Sane (8:00 PM EST)
- Aleister Black (8:00 PM EST)
- Zelina Vega (8:00 PM EST)
- Motor City Machine Guns (8:00 PM EST)
- Santos Escobar (8:00 PM EST)
- Tyra Mae Steel (8:00 PM EST)
- Apollo Crews (8:00 PM EST)
…Sudden weird realization during hair cut.
There must be at least one person who wore/wears Baron Corbin’s hair as part of their wig, as he donated his hair when he shove his head.