Big-Time Nothing

Remember when joining fandom as a younger person meant lurking for a bit and figuring out the vibe and etiquette instead of coming in on day one and calling people weirdos for liking weirdo shit in the weirdo factory.

it’s always summer v winter bitches fighting for their life, where are the spring/autumn girlies, the moderate temperatures crowd, the transition period aficionados, the ‘sun is shining but the wind’s cold’ connoisseurs, the ‘decay and rebirth of nature’ devotees

the hottest thing a guy can be is barely conscious on the floor while someone lifts his head up by the hair so that you can see his glazed out eyes and the blood running down his face

got a crick in my neck and a frog in my throat and a chip on my shoulder and a stick up my ass and now you're gonna stand there puttin words in my mouth? haven't I been through enough?

saying this as a freak and a pervert but at some point it does really get exhausting and infuriating how a creative cannot write/draw, like, detailed body parts or characters with sexual desires or 'unconventional' fixations/happenings/etc without being accused of having some sort of fetish they're projecting into their creation. Artist a little good at drawing feet? Clearly a fetish thing. Writer factually mentioning things like characters having body hair or other not often mentioned traits? Obviously it's because they're into it. A character expressing sexual desires/preferences in character? Well of course it's just the creator channeling their own kinkd/whatever into it. Aren't you guys tired? the world becomes such a beautiful place when when you realize that sometimes things can just be and you can look at them for what they are and present, and it'll turn you into a better creative too to internalize the fact that you can write things that are not a reflection of your own personal desires and feelings.

AND ALSO!!!!! even if it WERE a fetish/kink/reflection of the creators sexuality, so what? Does that take away from the art? Does it make it less impactful if someone wrote it while feeling slightly randy? Would your perception of something you perceive as beautiful/deep/whatever change if you knew the person who created it might have committed the crime of being horny? Or do you just use sex as a shield so you won't have to confront what a piece of art is actually getting at? Something worth thinking about