kieran

@charliethekilljoy ☆

i need to talk to someone, but its always "not that serious" and never will be until i do smth serious

when i wanna have the most insane relapse then end it but my life is supposed to be perfect rn 🥹

when i keep trying to get new interests and friends to keep me happy but i just end up feeling annoying and even worse than before 🥹

i dont wanna live like this anymore

id genuinely do anything to be a kid again

crying and saying i wanna go home bc this isnt my home and it hasnt been for a very long time

i wish i could post pictures of my sh, but i only do enough to bleed on my chest bc its easiest to hide lowk

i genuinely dont think recovery is possible for me atp

"why do you have that tone with me?" i can barely talk to my boyfriend bc how bad im doing. why would i wanna talk to the woman whos been mentally destroying me for years.

anddd the blade is missing as soon as i need it. great.

i ate. i hope i throw up. i feel gross.