love is all that i fear

Mmmmotherfricker, I still have to pee, I think I just peed a little bit. I’m holding you anyway, that’s what brothers are for. You really need to wait until you’re okay, I mean. Just think, you’d miss out on a lot if you didn’t wait around for it to come.

I'm laughing, don't pee yourself. I can get off of you if you need to pee. I think everything between now and then will be very very hard to get through, I'm pretty sure I won't be able to do it this time. I just?? Jackson, I've given up.

I don’t want out of the tub, I want to just close my eyes and never open them again, is that okay. It’s not really okay, I don’t like it, I don’t like being alive right now.

You’re getting out of the tub, I’m sorry, that isn’t okay. I mean, hey, you’ll be okay! I mean, even if you’re not, you can try to be okay, and maybe life’ll be a little bit better for you.

I'm rolling out of the tub, I'm flopping right on top of you. I might be okay sometime but what will happen between now and then?? A lot can happen, I'll end up making a lot happen between now and then and if I succeed in making a lot happen, then may never come.

That’s a little bit too depressing. We need to get you ooouuut of that tub, you need sunlight, sunlight might make you feel a little better. Lots of things don’t have childhoods, but you did, and the scars, I mean. That happened, it’s okay? Yeah.

I don't want out of the tub, I want to just close my eyes and never open them again, is that okay. It's not really okay, I don't like it, I don't like being alive right now.

Because I don't want to do anything, Jackson, I don't want to go anywhere or do anything but lay here and try not to breathe. I think being a raisin would be better than what I am now, raisins don't have to think about stuff, raisins don't have childhoods, raisins don't have scars, they just have wrinkles and sweet mushy stuff inside of them.