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Chapter 7 (final) : step 7: do you wish you could still touch him?

“I– Mark is here”

Eddie groans and rolls his eyes “So what?”

“Come back to the table?”

“Who even is this guy? Why are we doing all this? Just ask him if you care so fucking much”

Chapter 6: step 6: bend, bow or burn

“We should’ve put up a banner. Like, this is banner worthy, right?”

Buck chuckles at Hen’s words bashfully. 

“Absolutely. And, boys, let’s lose the tradition of making it everyone’s problem when you fight, shall we?”

Chapter 5: step 5: roll the stone away or stone it to death

“We’re fine, Chim” Eddie says this time, equally annoyed.

“Ok, good but, y’know, we have to restock and you’re kind of locked in there with the supplies”

Buck bolts open the door and storms out, not even glancing in Chimney’s direction as he passes him by, or Eddie’s for that matter.

“Did you make up?” Chimney asks with an apologetic smile.

Chapter 4: step 4: expect the hydra effect

“Stop” Bobby cuts off their imminent banter “This is not like you guys, what is it? What’s causing this?”

Both of them fall silent, because they don’t really know. They look down, nervously trying to conjure up something to say.

“Well?” Bobby insists.

Chapter 3: step 3: cough syrup

“Then get out of here” he moves the pillows and the covers, getting ready to get in bed.

“We’re talking– see! This is working already, we moved past the awkward phase”

“Oh, how wonderful, we get to fight for the first time in a while"

“We wouldn’t be fighting if you weren’t trying to backtrack”

Chapter 2: step 2: a fatal symptom to a terminal illness

“What does that even prove?” Eddie asks, irritated “Like, even if we didn’t fight, ever, would that make us a couple? Couples fight too”

“Right! The implication has no grounds”

“You know what? You’re right, forget I said anything” Chimney caves and continues sweeping.

“No, no, tell us” Buck urges “I, for one, want to stop any behavior that might make people believe there’s something else going on here”

Chapters: 1/7 Fandom: 9-1-1 (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Evan "Buck" Buckley & Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV) Characters: Evan "Buck" Buckley, Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Bobby Nash, Howie "Chimney" Han, Henrietta "Hen" Wilson, Christopher Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Josephina "Pepa" Diaz, Maddie Buckley Additional Tags: Angry Kissing, Dry Humping, Grinding, Dry Sex, Non-Explicit Sex, Frotting | Rubbing Penises Together, Pre-Relationship, Evan "Buck" Buckley and Eddie Diaz Being Idiots, Gay Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Pining Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz is Thirsty for Evan "Buck" Buckley, Eddie Diaz is a Little Shit (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz is a Menace (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz is a Tease (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz is Bad at Feelings (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz Has a Gay Awakening (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz Has a Sexual Awakening (9-1-1 TV), Bisexual Evan "Buck" Buckley, Evan "Buck" Buckley is a Mess, Evan "Buck" Buckley is Thirsty for Eddie Diaz, Evan "Buck" Buckley Is Eddie Diaz's Gay Awakening, Evan "Buck" Buckley is Bad at Feelings, Evan "Buck" Buckley Has Self-Worth Issues, Freak4Freak Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz, Pre-Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz, Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz First Kiss, Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz Get Together, Eddie Diaz Being Crazy (9-1-1 TV), Unhinged Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Evan "Buck" Buckley Being Crazy, Unhinged Evan "Buck" Buckley, Jealous Evan "Buck" Buckley, Teen Christopher Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Christopher Diaz is So Done (9-1-1 TV), Christopher Diaz Has Two Dads, Canon Rewrite, Bobby Nash Lives, Eddie Diaz Chooses Joy (9-1-1 TV), Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Fighting Kink, Fighting as Foreplay, Evan "Buck" Buckley and Eddie Diaz Fight, Tommy Kinard Bashing, Mentioned Tommy Kinard, Firehouse 118 Crew as Family (9-1-1 TV), Crack Treated Seriously, Crack and Angst, Light Angst, Angst and Humor, Requited Love, Mutual Pining, Evan "Buck" Buckley and Eddie Diaz are Roommates, Buckley-Diaz Family (9-1-1 TV), Getting Together, Codependent Evan "Buck" Buckley and Eddie Diaz, Horny Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Clingy Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Touch-Starved, Touch-Starved Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Touch-Starved Evan "Buck" Buckley, Horny Evan "Buck" Buckley, Clingy Evan "Buck" Buckley, Eddie Diaz Mentally Spirals (9-1-1 TV), Evan "Buck" Buckley Mentally Spirals Summary:

“I hate when you guys act like–” Chris cuts himself off with a groan.

Buck and Eddie frown and look at each other “Like what?” 

“Like you’re–“ he huffs in frustration.

“What, Chris?”

“Like you’re a married couple!” he blurts out “Like you need each other before making any major decisions regarding me just because you’re so codependent, like you… ugh, just stop! I don’t need you ganging up on me” and with that he slams the door shut.

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 9-1-1 (TV) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Evan "Buck" Buckley & Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV) Characters: Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Evan "Buck" Buckley, Howie "Chimney" Han, Henrietta "Hen" Wilson, Maddie Buckley, Christopher Diaz (9-1-1 TV) Additional Tags: Established Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz, Freak4Freak Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz, Engaged Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz, Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz Wedding, Married Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz, Weddings, Wedding Fluff, Wedding Speeches, Soft Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz, Gay Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Soft Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Pining Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz is So Whipped (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz Has Feelings (9-1-1 TV), Bisexual Evan "Buck" Buckley, Evan "Buck" Buckley and Eddie Diaz Are In Love, Evan "Buck" Buckley is Thirsty for Eddie Diaz, Evan "Buck" Buckley is So Whipped, Evan "Buck" Buckley Has Feelings, Eddie Diaz Loves Evan "Buck" Buckley, Evan "Buck" Buckley Loves Eddie Diaz, Idiots in Love, Marriage, Loving Marriage, Same-Sex Marriage, Best Friends Evan "Buck" Buckley & Eddie Diaz, Evan "Buck" Buckley and Eddie Diaz Being Idiots, Evan "Buck" Buckley Being Crazy, Eddie Diaz Being Crazy (9-1-1 TV), Teen Christopher Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Evan "Buck" Buckley Loves Christopher Diaz, Eddie Diaz Loves Christopher Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Christopher Diaz is So Done (9-1-1 TV), Maddie Buckley Ships Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz, Good Sibling Maddie Buckley, Good Friend Henrietta "Hen" Wilson, Eddie Diaz & Henrietta "Hen" Wilson Friendship, Henrietta "Hen" Wilson Ships Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz, Howie "Chimney" Han Ships Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz, Good Friend Howie "Chimney" Han, Fire Captain Howie "Chimney" Han, Howie "Chimney" Han officiates Eddie Diaz/Evan "Buck" Buckley wedding, Mentioned Bobby Nash, Fluff, Fluff and Humor, Comfort, Comfort No Hurt, Comfort Reading, Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz Fluff, Sweet, Short & Sweet, Attempt at Humor, Fluff and Crack, Firehouse 118 Crew as Family (9-1-1 TV), Supportive Firehouse 118 Crew (9-1-1 TV) Summary:

Buck and Eddie get married !!

or a silly little something i wrote amidst crying like crazy bc i love taylor so so much and i wish her the best of the best in the world

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 9-1-1 (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Evan "Buck" Buckley & Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV) Characters: Evan "Buck" Buckley, Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Henrietta "Hen" Wilson, Christopher Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Howie "Chimney" Han, Bobby Nash Additional Tags: POV Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Gay Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz Has a Gay Awakening (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz Has a Sexuality Crisis (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz Has a Mental Breakdown (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz Has a Crush (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz Has a Sexual Awakening (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz is Bad at Feelings (9-1-1 TV), Evan "Buck" Buckley Has Abandonment Issues, Evan "Buck" Buckley Has Golden Retriever Energy, Bisexual Evan "Buck" Buckley, Insecure Evan "Buck" Buckley, Pre-Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz, Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz First Kiss, Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz Get Together, Evan "Buck" Buckley Is Eddie Diaz's Gay Awakening, Eddie Diaz is Thirsty for Evan "Buck" Buckley, Evan "Buck" Buckley is Thirsty for Eddie Diaz, Feelings Realization, Friends to Lovers, Evan "Buck" Buckley is Bad at Feelings, First Kiss, Eddie Diaz is a Mess (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz Has Feelings (9-1-1 TV), Gay Panic, Gay Disaster Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Tommy Kinard Bashing, Getting Together, Eddie Diaz Watches Telenovelas (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz Speaks Spanish (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz Tries (9-1-1 TV), Evan "Buck" Buckley and Eddie Diaz Use Their Words, Eddie Diaz Uses Actual Words (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz Angst (9-1-1 TV), Fluff and Angst, Light Angst, Angst and Humor, Attempt at Humor, Crack Treated Seriously, Eddie Diaz Doesn't Like Tommy Kinard, Eddie Diaz Freaks Out (9-1-1 TV), Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz Flirting, Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz Fluff, Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz Kissing, Eddie Diaz Comes Out (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz Chooses Joy (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz Mentally Spirals (9-1-1 TV), Horny Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Best Friends Eddie Diaz & Henrietta "Hen" Wilson, Henrietta "Hen" Wilson Ships Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz, Eddie Diaz & Henrietta "Hen" Wilson Friendship, Evan "Buck" Buckley is a Mess, Evan "Buck" Buckley Has Issues, Evan "Buck" Buckley Has Feelings, Dreams, Dreams vs. Reality, Evan "Buck" Buckley and Eddie Diaz Being Idiots Summary:

Eddie has a telenovela dream about Buck. He wakes up unable to face him. Things spiral for a bit.

Chapter 2: don't you ever let go (final)

Maddie shakes her head “I just– I spent my whole life worried, y’know? Like, growing up we only had each other, he worried so much about me too, and then Chimney came along and Buck had someone to share the concern with, it was not just him worrying”

Eddie nods, not really understanding “He loves that you found each other”

Chapters: 1/2 Fandom: 9-1-1 (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Evan "Buck" Buckley & Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Evan "Buck" Buckley & Firehouse 118 Crew Characters: Evan "Buck" Buckley, Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Christopher Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Maddie Buckley, Howie "Chimney" Han, Henrietta "Hen" Wilson, Ravi Panikkar, Athena Grant, Harry Grant (9-1-1 TV), May Grant (9-1-1 TV) Additional Tags: Episode: s09e15 Pick Your Poison (9-1-1 TV), Post-Episode: s09e15 Pick Your Poison (9-1-1 TV), Coda, Hurt Evan "Buck" Buckley, Implied/Referenced Drug Addiction, Substance Abuse, Drug Withdrawal, Withdrawal, Implied/Referenced Drug Use, Drug Addiction, Evan "Buck" Buckley Whump, Eddie Diaz Takes Care of Evan "Buck" Buckley, Eddie Diaz Loves Evan "Buck" Buckley, Gay Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Protective Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Soft Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Pining Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Evan "Buck" Buckley Loves Eddie Diaz, Bisexual Evan "Buck" Buckley, Eddie Diaz Has Feelings (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz Has a Gay Awakening (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz is So Whipped (9-1-1 TV), Soft Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz, Evan "Buck" Buckley and Eddie Diaz Are In Love, Mentioned Bobby Nash, Grieving for Bobby Nash, Bobby Nash Dies, Evan "Buck" Buckley Has Mental Health Issues, Evan "Buck" Buckley Has Issues, Canon Compliant, Canon Rewrite, evan buck buckley has a drug dependency, Evan "Buck" Buckley Tries, evan buck buckley goes through withdrawal, Maddie Buckley Ships Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz, Maddie Buckley & Eddie Diaz Friendship, maddie buckley and eddie diaz talk, Christopher Diaz is a National Treasure, Firehouse 118 Crew as Family (9-1-1 TV), Worried Firehouse 118 Crew (9-1-1 TV), Supportive Firehouse 118 Crew (9-1-1 TV), Protective Firehouse 118 Crew (9-1-1 TV), Firehouse 118 Family Feels (9-1-1 TV), Getting Together, Pre-Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz, Eventual Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz, Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz First Kiss, Evan "Buck" Buckley is So Whipped for Eddie Diaz, Evan "Buck" Buckley is Not Okay, Evan "Buck" Buckley Has Feelings, Recovery, Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz Get Together, References to Addiction, Protective Maddie Buckley, Worried Maddie Buckley, Supportive Maddie Buckley, Firehouse 118 Crew are Protective of Evan "Buck" Buckley, Bobby Nash Haunts the Narrative, Everyone Knows About Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz, Eddie Diaz Actually Deals with Feelings (9-1-1 TV), Evan "Buck" Buckley is Bad at Feelings Summary:

Buck struggles when he develops a dependency to opioids.

Amidst it all, Eddie realizes life's too short to be afraid.

Chapter 19: sees me (final)

“Mhm?” Buck pulls back just a tiny bit, enough to press his lips against Eddie’s cheek and peck him.

“I love it when you’re my weighted blanket”

“Could turn it into my full time job”

Chapter 18: invisible (string)

Buck looks up from his bottle, he presses his lips together before shrugging “Honestly? Trying to figure something out” 

“Can I help?”

“Uhm, no, not really, just– I’m just kind of nervous”

“About something in particular?”

Chapter 17: all of life's colours

Buck beams “So you’re gay”

“Yeah, totally” he nods “And like, I guess I knew I– like, all this time, I knew I’ve been in love with you for the longest time, I just didn’t know I’m gay, if that makes sense?”

“It does”

Chapter 16: who am i?

“Why was dad acting insane?”

Buck chuckles “I don’t know, buddy, sometimes he gets like that”

“He sounded like a crazy boyfriend”

Buck laughs “He did”

Chapter 15: seems i just lost track

“Buck” Eddie whispers when he wakes up, a couple hours later “Hey, Buck” he tries again, but he’s sound asleep. Eddie lifts his hand and softly strokes Buck’s hair “Let’s get you to bed” he says as softly as he manages to, so he doesn’t startle him.

Chapter 14: fade to grey

“Uhm, I don’t know, I think it gives closure in a sense, right? But at the same time it makes it much more real”

“What do you mean more real?”

“Like, I don’t know, I mean, we know he’s dead, right? We know, and we know that having a funeral or not doesn’t change that, but… but once there’s a funeral, you can actually look back to the final point, like, before it, there were ellipsis, and even if you knew that after those ellipsis there would never be anything but the word End, it’s still comforting, in a way, knowing there’s no final point yet”