》rooVen《

Aqua as a big sister to the others but in an Eldest Daughter kind of way. In a Take Care of Your Brothers kind of way, in a Represent Your Family Well kind of way. We Expect Great Things of You. Look after them, nurture them. Keep them on the straight and narrow. Keep up with your studies. If they mess up, report back. It’s your responsibility. Keep an eye on them. Keep working. Correct them. Bring them back. Carry on the family tradition. Do not stray. You know better than that. You know better than them. Teach them, dry their tears, protect them, you are their everything. Do you remember being a child? Were you ever a child?

Terra as the middle sibling. Eager to please, often forgotten. Never measuring up despite trying so hard. Maybe this time he’ll do as well as Aqua. Maybe this time he’ll feel worthy of Ven’s admiration. He could never resent them, that would be Bad. He can’t be Bad. He has to be Good. If he isn’t Good then he’s Bad. Good is better than Invisible. But is Bad also better than Invisible? Need to try harder. Eventually somebody will notice.

You know, sometimes I feel like I keep holding onto a time gone by.

I came across a blog that was very prominent years ago, and I started digging through their archives, noticing how their presence slowly faded away, posts dwindling. This took me to a rabbit hole of nostalgia throughout other blogs and people who used to be here, used to be so lively. To other sites, to see where they are now, how they've been. And what struck me is how so many, really everyone has let go, they've moved onto something else, or just faded off to obscurity as a whole.

How time passes by. "How fast the night changes", indeed. How a hub of familiar faces that one takes for granted in the moment has somehow disappeared. You feel like it's forever, that moment will last forever.. ..until you've traveled far away from where you started. But here I am. Still.

Nostalgia is a heavy, though partially pleasant, weight. Seeing something so familiar that reminds you of a place and time long ago, where you cannot go even if your heart yearns, you can only remember. My heart aches.

And I think that's why Kingdom Hearts will always be so dear to me, and why I never seem to let go, never completely leave. It represents something in my soul that is fixed to a point in time that is my deepest, truest self. For this is my Destiny Islands, this is where I come to, from all the heartaches, happiness and adventure of all my years and life, I always head home, to the shores of destiny.

Like my heart has washed up on that shore, forever to be pushed and pulled by those waves.

But I can still hear it, the comforting lull, the sound of waves.

You ever think about how Aqua knowingly lied to Ventus about his origins, saying he's always been with her and Terra?

Aqua (and Terra, but Aqua more so) has always been protective of Ven, but this seems a bit too much for her to come up with on her own. Eraqus probably had something to do with this, most likely ordering them to say as much.

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Like, the entire. Discussion. In the Keyblade Graveyard. Where Ven is so sure and talking about Vanitas coming home and having choice like this is a conversation he's had before, or at least has had an exceptional amount of time and motivation to consider. The fact that he resents Vanitas' rejection of it like-- hey buddy pal where did your twelve years of offscreen character development go?

Because, like. If Vanitas was with Ven, in Sora's heart. If the heart hotel shenanigans are somewhat correct, then like. Ven slept through most of it. Ven slept through most of it and it still has really interesting implications.

It has interesting implications that a Vanitas who literally only just managed to reform himself, who is wearing an Organization coat that protects the wearer from Darkness except Vanitas is Darkness so why would he need to protect himself if not for the idea that he's currently, weak as shit, immediately bumrushes Sora and is like "Ventus. Give me Ventus. Give me Ventus right the fuck now."

All of that has me sitting here rubbing my goblin hands together gleefully because it comes with the realization that Sora's Heart is actually not the safest place for a pure Light. Hollow Bastion. A couple dozen or hundred forced Anti-form transformations, the disaster that was his Mark of Mastery exam, Rage form. Sora's Heart actually has like, a lot of really hostile Darkness in it and now I get to sit here and theorize that if the two Vanitii theory is correct then maybe, possibly, the reason Monstropolis Vanitas kicks down the door and demands Ventus the second he's capable of it is because Ventus isn't safe where he is.