Robert Ressler: "Interview with a Cannibal: Jeffrey Dahmer" - Some notes | Part 1
The time before Jeffrey Dahmer committed his first crime, he had been attacked himself, he was the victim - his words - for no reason. " was up visiting a friend's, and was walking back home in the evening, and saw these three seniors, seniors in high school approaching. I just had a feeling that something was going to happen, and sure enough, one of them just took out a billy club and whacked me on the back of the neck. For no reason. Didn't say anything, just hit somebody. And I ran"
About his sexuality: "In the township where I was at, homosexuality was the ultimate taboo. It was never discussed, never. I had desires to be with someone, but never met anyone that was gay, that know of; so that was sexually frustrating."
Jeff claimed that his fantasies of meeting a hitchhiker came from within and not from a movie or a book. Jeff admitted that he was very frightened after he killed Hicks and that he 'paced the house for a while'.
"Where you nervous when [the police] stopped you? [having the bags in the back of his car] - "That's an understatement."
Jeff stated that he never wanted to hurt anybody. He used the sleeping pills to make his victims unconscious so he could have complete control over them without hurting them. In the beginning he didn't even have thoughts of taking someone home. "That's why I started using the mannequin. [...] I wanted to find a way to satisfy myself without hurting anyone."
For about two years Jeff was successful suppressing his feelings and dark fantasies: "In about 1983, I started going to church with gramma. I wanted to straighten my life out. Went to church, read the Bible, tried to push out any sexual thoughts at all, and I was doing pretty well for about two years."
After receiving that note in the library Jeff's fantasies increased again and he started drinking again. "So I joined the bath club, went to the gay bars, and tried to satisfy with the mannequin." But the mannequin didn't work, so Jeff once went to a funeral home after reading the news that an 18year old had died. He saw the body, found him so attractive that he escaped to the funeral home's bathroom to masturbate. At night he went to the cemetery and wanted to dig up the young man's body to take him home, but it didn't work since the ground was frozen [* and he heard an owl hooting and a dog barking that scared him off - added from The Shrine]
At the Ambassador Jeff booked the room in his own name. If it had been in Steven Tuomi's name though Jeff would have left the body right there instead of taking him home.
After about eight years Jeff moved out of grandma Catherine's house to get his own apartment, where he "wouldn't be so restricted". Nevertheless they continued helping each other out: "I continued the month's rent, did the yard work, shoveling snow, and she made me meals, so when I got my own place it worked out nicely".
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