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Here are some of the bags:

Sylvia Plath / The bell jar

A student is on a Trip to New York. She has a difficult time there as she struggles to feel excitement. When she comes home she falls into a depressiv episode. She wants to kill herself and tries or plans on doing different things to kill herself. She ends up in a psych ward where she meets someone she knows.

The first time I read the book I didn’t like it so I‘m glad I gave it a 2nd try because now I love the book even though it is very depressing. We get such a clear look into the main characters psych and how she deals with her suicidal thoughts. I love how deep the novel goes and how true and pure it is. I also like the writing style a lot, it’s easy to read even if english isn’t your 1st language.

Dostoevsky / The house of the Dead

The house of the dead is a collection of stories in a prison. Important topics are discussed like freedom and philosophical questions are asked. We also get a view into the prisoners daily life, their struggles and their routines.

and then some people wonder why I‘m always alone

nobody should suffer this much

Virginia Woolf / Mrs Dalloway

„Kill yourself, kill yourself for our sakes. But why should he kill himself for their sakes? Food was pleasant; the sun hot; and this killing oneself, how does one set about it.“

Septimus is traumatized by his years in the army and losing his friend. We get a look into his life and how he sees the world: very threatening but also beautiful. Septimus wants to kill himself, he says over and over again. His wife seems ashamed and doesn’t quite know how to handle the situation. Then there is the other protagonist Mrs Dalloway, she invite many people to a party, old friends and her past lover. We get to see how fast people grow old, they talk about memories like it was yesterday. We also realize that Mrs Dalloway is much like Septimus.

It was my 2nd time reading this novel but it’s the first time I read it in english. It’s not so easy to read since there are many characters and the situation/atmosphere changes very quickly. I have to admit the first time I read it I didn’t like it because I didn’t understand it well but after getting used to Woolf‘s writing style it‘s easier to read. I love her writing style so much because you get such a great insight into the characters mind and it feels so lively, so real. Even though bad things happen I still find the atmosphere very comforting and I wish to live in one of Woolf’s novels. Still I got lost especially at the end of the novel when the party is happening because there were so many characters. My favorite chapters are the ones with Septimus I find him such an interesting character and also relatable so I would love if there would be more chapters about him. All I can say is that it’s a great book but even after reading it the 2nd time I still got confused and lost sometimes so I feel like I need to read it a 3rd and many more times to fully understand.

Mary Shelley / Frankenstein

„How mutable are our feelings, and how strange is that clinging love we have of life even in the excess of misery!“

Victor Frankenstein creates his monster who he abandons as he sees his satanic look. The monster haunts him and begs that Victor creates a female companion so he must not be alone. The monster seems like evil as he kills some of Victor‘s family yet he is also human like with a heart that loves nature and other human being. So we ask ourselves who is really the monster Victor or his creation?

I read it the 2nd time but in english unlike the first time I read it. I enjoy this novel a lot. It’s the father of horror so I think everyone who likes horror should read this novel. Unfortunately in movies we see the creation as something evil when in reality it has a lot in common with its creator. I love the scenes where the monster just wanders around in nature, it is a nice atmosphere in which happens so much horror.

Stefan Zweig / Angst (fear)

„She could not read anymore, she couldn’t do anything, demonic chased by her inner fear“

Irene is married to a young man whom she betrays with a pianist. Her secret affair will soon be the subject of her fear which almost leads her into death.

I enjoyed to read this novella a lot, I think it has the potential to be longer so the only bad thing about it is that it is so short. I felt the fear of the protagonist. Like in many novels of Zweig we get a clear insight into the protagonist‘s soul. It is very beautifully written and the storyline is also good and very exciting.

N. H. Kleinbaum / Dead Poets Society

„We don't read and write poetry because it's cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion.“

Five boys find out about this mysterious Dead Poets Society which was invented way back when their inspiring english teacher was still a student. They go into a cave and have their meetings. Besides that we also experience love, trouble with their parents and fulfilling their dreams beside all the struggle.

I like this novel a lot, it’s easy to read and the atmosphere is beautiful. My favorite character is Todd because I could relate a lot to him and it’s very nice seeing everyone making a process even though the end is very sad. Yet the process the characters made isn’t gone and their experience will always be in their hearts.

Dostoevsky / The Gambler

„Do you know that one day I'll kill you? I won't do it because I'm no longer in love with you, or because I'm jealous, but—I'll just kill you for no better reason that I sometimes long to devour you.“

The gambler is about a man who we watch slowly get addicted to gambling. We get to see his downfall. We get to read about the very complicated relationships with Polina, a grandma whom everyone wishes to be dead to get her money suddenly she appears into the picture, perfectly healthy. It’s about obsession and a reflection of Dostoevsky‘s addiction to gambling.

Jon Fosse / Morning and Evening🎣

A child is born, a man dies, that’s the cycle of life. Fosse gives us an insight in the metaphysical world of a man who is dying and the magic of a child being born surrounded by the calming atmosphere of the Norwegian landscape.

I loved the beginning of the novel, it was my favorite part. It reads like a work of classical music, the music starts softly and gets louder and louder always interrupted by soft tunes in between which seem to sneak around the room. It’s a very smooth book to read. By the 2nd part I was a little confused since I didn’t know what it was about and I thought the protagonist is just hallucinating. Overall it’s a nice book to read and very smooth.

Dostoevsky / The double 🎭

On a mysterious night Golyadkin meets his double on a bridge. They become friends, they fight, Golyadkin‘s identity gets stolen. It’s an endless search of the real identity and the question remains „Who am I?“ We do not know for sure if Golyadkin is going insane but he seems to be very paranoid and insecure which are his main traits, so seeing a double of himself who is liked by others brings him into rage.

I couldn’t get into the story, I couldn’t focus, my mind was wandering off the whole time and I don’t know if that was because I couldn’t focus in general or the story didn’t catch me. I think both play a role. So I was confused the most time and didn’t know where the people were and what is going on but maybe that also represents Golyadkin‘s state of mind. To me it really came through how the weather reflects the inner state of the main character in this novel. Also I felt like there was, despite the very unfortunate situation, a lot of humor in the novel. I also think the topic of identity is very interesting so maybe it’s just how it is being told which kind of bored me because the story itself sounds interesting. I liked the beginning since it’s very mysterious and we don’t know what is going to happen but then the novel lost me. I personally didn’t find it too interesting since it’s a lot about the main character‘s work place and to me the other characters weren’t as lively as I am used to when reading Dostoevsky. I might give it a try some time again since, like I said, focusing was very hard at the time I read it. But it’s totally normal and can happen sometimes that you read a book and your mind wanders to different places and it’s not necessarily a bad thing, it just happens.

Dostoevsky / The gentle one 🎀

In „The gentle one“ we get a look into a pawnboker’s mind moments after his wife’s suicide. Everything starts out very chaotic since his wife is still lying in the apartment and it is no wonder that it is difficult to think in such a situation. Throughout the novel we get a clearer view on the situation, like the narrator says, he wants to tell the truth. Soon we realize that his mind is clouded and didn’t see moments like they were. So it’s the readers task to look through his words and see how the situation actually is, which isn’t always easy. Keeping in mind that the pawnbroker is much much older and his wife is a young girl in need, having nearly no money, we can assume the power this man has over his wife and the fear she must have felt. But the narrator tells the story in a whole different tone, almost like he was the victim.

Albert Camus / A Happy Death 🌌

„And all those who had not made the gestures necessary to live their lives, all those who feared and exalted impotence— they were afraid of death because of the sanction it gave to a life in which they had not been involved.“

As the title says, the main question of the novel is „How to die happily?“ There are two parts in this novel. The first part is about Mersault‘s „ordinary“ life. He doesn’t have enough time or money, he isn’t living he is rather just existing. In the 2nd part Camus shows us how it can look like to be happy. We see Mersault freeing himself of all these circumstances that made it difficult to be happy. In the novel we can find many connections to his other work The Stranger, even though there are also many differences, but I see it going together since it is said that The Stranger grew out of this novel.

A happy death is my favorite novel by Camus, i love the atmosphere and it gets rid of my fear when I read it. I read it around two years ago for the first time and it changed the way I think and feel about certain aspects in life. It helped me to get out of the state of existing and start living and feeling (even though I have to mention that by only reading the novel, it won’t do that for you but it definitely helps). It can teach to live no matter the circumstances, it can teach be to feel happy (but not joyful) even if you feel miserable. To take every every bit of nature into your body. And it teaches how you don’t need to be successful, how you don’t need anything to be happy. It gave me a different view on happiness but it was only the base. This book has such a great impact on my because of what I made out of the knowledge. I enjoyed the chapters where Mersault was just walking around and living his life because it had something so relatable. My favorite parts are the ones in the house above the sea because it seems so nice there and I also want to live there! Of course the last chapter is also my favorite since it makes me feel calm. When I think about death I (no longer) think about fear, I think about peace.

Stefan Zweig / The Heart‘s Impatience 🫀

„For the first time I began to perceive that true sympathy cannot be switched on and off like an electric current, that anyone that identifies himself with the fate of another is robbed to some extent of his own freedom.“

The heart‘s impatience is the longest novel of Stefan Zweig. Hofmiller, a young lieutenant visits a wealthy family who‘s daughter is paralyzed. His main motivation for visiting them is the feeling of compassion. Condor a doctor treats the daughter and reveals some interesting facts about medicine like the treatments are mostly there to motivate the patient, not to cure the illness. Everything ends in a tragedy since Edith, the paralyzed girl is in love with Hofmiller which turns into an obsession (Zweig‘s common topic in his novels).