★almost home.

-Pumpkin Hill

William Beckett on Halloween 2007

Long Walk To Forever - Pencey Prep’s 2 song promo CD in December, 2000 Released through Black Ball Music

mike carden playing in the academy is…

thought of a really lame joke

Your lipstick, his collar Don’t bother angel I know exactly what goes on

And probably the most alienating part is being taught from birth that you ARE just lazy, you AREN’T trying hard enough, you ARE just making excuses and fucking off and ignoring your responsibilities on purpose bc you just ~don’t feel like it~ and bc you’re selfish. And how UNBELIEVABLY fucking difficult that self-hatred is to unlearn, and how just giving yourself a break instead of hating yourself for not functioning normally is a fucking gargantuan effort in and of itself - and how deeply hopeless it feels to actually manage that for once, and give yourself a break, and have your momentary lapse in self-loathing immediately touted as proof that you are just lazy after all. How even when you DO manage that, the near universal response from everyone is “you should hate yourself actually, because i can do [what you can’t] just fine even though it’s not always easy”

william beckett warped tour (08?)