octaviaprestonâ:
â @romanrothsâ
LOCATION: escalus house
TIME: 2:15am
â ITâS BEEN A COUPLE NIGHTS SINCE THE LOCKDOWN. she was so angry that night, of course. to see them fight like that, to not BE there. sheâd wanted to fight back too, in her own way. in some ways, she looks better in death â because in life, everyone would call her a slut. no one calls dead girls âslut.âÂ
she doesnât feel like a slut. just a girl who loved two people, in different ways. selfish, maybe. but not a slut. she didnât necessarily want roman, but she didnât want him to be with anyone else â so, she visits him in the stairwell as he leaves iskraâs room, and thereâs ire in her eyes.Â
a picture frame falls off itsâ hook, shatters on the floor.Â
she looks at his nose. â i at least thought youâd fight back, butâŚyou didnât fight for me much when i was alive either. â she needs to use him, of course, but she canât resist a loversâ quarrel.Â
heâs always wafting in guilt after leaving iskra. in fact, it seems the only thing roman is acquainted with these days is guilt. he can feel it burning through his skin, keeping him wide awake at night with its cruel sting. heâs so exhausted from drowning in it, from trying to keep afloat that roman swears his mind is playing tricks on him. thatâs why he almost doesnât react when he sees her, staring at him with something like rage imbedded in her gaze. he already knows deserves it.Â
âit isnât as though you ever let me,â the words falling out of his mouth before he can stop them. he wants to feel more regretful over them, as they float between them, but he canât bring himself to. it was the truth, after all. heâd spend so much of his time trying to claw his way back into her arms, only to be pushed away for him. the very person who was rumored to have taken her life.Â
âdoes it even matter, tiv? even if you were alive, youâd be tending to each and every bruise on his pretty face. i know you loved me. but i know you love him more. is that not punishment enough? that haunts me enough as is, these visions of you could hardly come close.âÂ















