Guilty As Charged || Zane & Roman
âWellâŚ.I do kind of default to everyone has their shit together more than me,â Zane quietly admitted, trying to take in Romanâs words. Really, Zane hadnât ever had someone who seemed to care like that before, and they didnât realize how much they had gotten out of Roman - they had just assumed that Roman was like that. Maybe it was because they still didnât know each other very well, but it was surprising to find out that Roman really did care about them the way Zane was starting to realize they cared. Only apparently if you like them, let them go was NOT the appropriate way to handle the situation.Â
âI guess Iâm just always hard on myself. Like I just have all these things I want to do, and thereâs just so much work that Iâve done that it seems like people donât see. So I look at people who are successful, and youâre successful even if you did stop your career to start this, and itâs just like hard not to add up. Because it was hard getting to Portland in the first place and like I just wanted life to be easier. Or really everything to be easier,â they sighed, âBut I want to get to know you too, because youâre really cool. I just wasnât sure if youâd feel that way about me.âÂ
Roman cast a gentle smile in Zaneâs direction. Theyâd never thought of themselves as someone who had their shit together. If anything, Roman lived on coffee refills and adrenaline half the time. Zane seemed so accomplished in their younger age. They were definitely more social and open; two things Roman could learn more about. âLetâs agree to disagree on that one.â They chuckled, letting their arms fall to their side. âI think we can balance each other out well honestly.âÂ
Nodding, Roman knew exactly how Zane felt. âSadly, life isnât easy. I think together we can probably accomplish a good point where things feel better or easier or stable but donât be hard on yourself if you havenât reached what you believe to be the status quo. Remember, things happen on their own time. Iâm a strong believer of that. Youâll succeed in all the things you want to. All in due time.â Another smile crept against their features when Zane called them cool and Roman couldnât help but laugh a little. âYou think Iâm cool? That is definitely not a word Iâd use but yeah, I do think youâre cool. More than that, youâre like a breath of fresh air, Zane. I wouldnât give this up if I were us. But...thatâs my opinion.âÂ