“ i can never go back. “

“ this is the shit i said i always fucking dreamed about. “

“ so fucked up but honestly, i’ve never felt more alive. “

“ how did i ever become this? “

“ i feel reality bend. “

“ it’s fucked up. it’s been days since i slept. “

“ i’m in heaven, seeing hell through stained glass. “

“ i tried so hard to kill the past. “

“ i’ve always been a burden. “

“ the nightmare’s reoccurring. “

“ i’ve never been a person, i’ve never had a soul. “

“ if you can dream, you can be anything. “

“ if you can dream, you just get further away from everything you ever wanted. “

“ i know you don’t believe it hurts. “

“ saying i’m in pain makes it worse. “

“ i know you think all i need is just to think positively, but it fucking hurts! “

“ i’ve never had a purpose. i’m too weak for working. “

“ all these years of worthlessness really take their toll. “

“ this is something you’ll never understand. you’ll never know what its like. “

“ i’m bleeding out on my back. “

“ i’m laughing because it feels like i am finally somewhere that makes sense. “

“ i feel so fucked up, but i just wanna be fucked up with you. “

“ sometimes i want to kill who i am. “

“ i never thought i could go to heaven until i died and i met you. “

“ is the truth just too depressing? “

“ my body hardly knows how to move. “

“ all those years just wanting to run away, i never dared to dream that i could ever feel safe. “

“ if i could tell myself that i would feel alive again someday, maybe i’d be okay. “

“ pretend for a while that we’re still alive. “

“ i’ll be trapped here forever. “

“ i am never leaving. “

“ my soul is hardened on the floor. “

“ this town is festering decay. “

“ this body feels like a grave. “

“ everyday i’m so fucking freaked out. “

“ everyday i can’t get the evil out. “

“ every night i feel so far away. “

“ will it ever be okay? “

“ everyday it seems like no one sees and no one knows. “

“ most days i just feel like i’m making it up. i pray to god that i’m just making it up! “

“ i can feel the evil in me. “

“ i’m such a faker, really. “

“ i’m a mess, a beautiful monster. “

“ life is so boring, there’s not much left to do. “

“ get cut apart and consumed, and you can be me too. “

“ the world is meant to change and it should change. “

“ i’d love to see the world in a beautiful new shape. “

“ i’ve tried so hard to be good. “

“ this is how it was always going to be. i’m still me. “

“ it must be protected, it’s all we have. we can’t survive without it. “

“ music isn’t magic. “

“ i’m not sure that music is anything at all. “

“ if it was the answer, don’t you think that all our problems would be solved? “

“ the pain’s still loose in my head, but that’s okay. if it ever changes, i’m sure ill be dead. “

“ if all we need is love, could there be enough to undo what we’ve done? “

“ healing is an ideal that’s supposed to be real. “

“ music is so easy but it only makes it easy to pretend. “

“ i can’t cry and i can’t sing and i can’t move and i can’t breathe. “

“ there’s no torture left, we just used it up. “

“ i’m sick, i’m suffering. “

“ i’m so fucked up my heart beats out of time. “

“ is this body me? can i be more than it? “

“ in a rotting shell, why do i exist? “

“ is this fucked up hell really all there is…? “

“ would we understand? would we still connect? would we recognize? would we still be friends? “

“ impending doom, is it true? “