Julien Davinos appreciation post: unironically I love this guy. Doesn't fall into any of the solipsistic shallow sadboy bs and explicitly does not want endless pity, would probably bite someone if they offered him pity. He's caught up in his grief and he has the worst case of tunnel vision in this side of Araman but our boy is a boots on the ground pragmatist who lands on his feet after the worst day of his life and keeps fucking going spurred on by a simultaneous death wish and stubborn will to win. He doesn't want sympathy he wants purpose and is possessed of a frankly terrifying tenacity when turned to it. He doesnt flinch from a challenge greater than himself and he'd do it again. He can be sobered into responsibility. He is not above being respectful and he can hear hard truths (except that one, the Thjazi Fang one) surprisingly easily, he's bull-headed to a fault but sees literally everything as tactics and tactics are adaptable. Simultaneously daddy's little boy and daddy's shame. The narrative is haunting him but he can scramble back up bloodied after his own hand choked him half to death you guys it's fine. Has a protective streak as relentless as his mean streak. He calls himself a weapon of war and he's not wrong, he defers information to people who know better than him and he is not afraid to accept this fact. He wants to be able to trust his companions because he wants to trust the hand that weilds him now that Aranessa is away from him. He's the prince of fuck castle (everyone loves him at fuck castle) and as pretty as he is lethal besides.
He cannot carry the body of his father and his friends and his lovers and he never got a funeral. Violence is a language he is most eloquent in so revenge comforts him but revenge is also the only closure he will ever get now. He could not carry their bodies so he watches the body of Frons Tachonis hit the ground and it is the feeling of a wake. He drinks to remember and he drinks to forget and he loves deeply even if he doesn't always love well. Booed and living man. #mybooedandlivingman.
