It’s somewhere in the beginning of your first semester in nursing school, or perhaps you scraped in through the first semester, and barely treading water your second.
You’ve taken your first lecture exam of this semester, and you didn’t do so well, so you feel defeated. It doesn’t seem fair, you understand the concepts, the lecture material isn’t confusing, and what was confusing, you researched and you studied diligently, yet when you get to a test taking scenario, you feel like an idiot.
You spend hours practicing the skills you learned in lab, you’ve practiced until your hands wanted to drop off, and by the end of it your hands perhaps weren’t those of a seasoned nurse, but you thought you had a good grip on how to do a simple task. Except, now you have an impatient clinical instructor and a slew of nursing students watching you, so you freeze up in fear and you can’t do the skill you practiced so hard.
You feel defeated, and no one around you is aware, so you go on. You keep practicing, you keep studying, and you lay awake at night wishing someone would understand. You lay awake contemplating what becoming a nurse means to you, and you lay awake wondering if it was the right choice.
Your grades don’t define you as a nurse, but this idea means little right now, as you know it’s a matter of survival to pass each exam.
The skills and crowds you fear will eventually be a sort of background noise that you’ll learn to tune out, but today that doesn’t mean too much as you prepare for yet another terrifying competency.
The support you don’t have right now feels like the greatest defeat when you need it the most, but you are far from defeated. It doesn’t feel like it, but some day you will be the greatest inspiration to a nursing student on your unit that you see struggling, you will one day be that empathic support to others when you sense they are overwhelmed with fear, or perhaps you will one day be a leader in nursing, a driving force of change - so today, as one of those nurses who may be impacted by what you bring to our profession, I quietly support you and hope you go on.
Go on, despite the little defeats, go on, despite the moments of uncertainty, just go on.
You may not trust in yourself yet, but you are already making a little impact on the lives of your patients as a nursing student - and it’s only the beginning.
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