was there a proper way to do thisâwere they rushing into this? felix never really had a stable relationship before, so he couldnât say. as much as he tries to rack his brain for an answer, he isnât given any. if there is a blueprint out there to how relationships should go, felix and wooseok have probably messed that up already. after all, they met in one of the strangest manners, that being felix waking up in wooseokâs room with little to no memory, on valentineâs day.
and yet, if felix was asked whether he would change their first meeting if it was possible, heâd say no. to him, it was perfect. valentineâs day felt a little less lonely, and wooseok was fun to be around. heâs happy with how everything plays out. their unconventional first meeting makes things feel a little more special, too.
even though felix never allowed himself the luxury of a healthy and loving relationship, itâs not like he never kissed. he has even done more than that, heâs not as inexperienced as he seems to be. so why is he nervous right now? was it because itâs wooseok, someone he genuinelylikes? the thought makes his cheeks redder, his heart beating faster as time continued to pass.
time seems to have gone slower when wooseok ran a finger over his lips, causing his breath to hitch. at the same time, everything is happening so fast, because the next thing he knew, wooseokâs lips are on his own. heâs frozen for a moment, surprised that this is even happening. and yet, it feels as if heâs been waiting for it. snapping out of his daze, heâs overcome with the urge to be closer to the older. he doesnât deny himself this, wrapping an arm around the other and pulling wooseok in closer as he returns the kiss, head tilting.
Wooseok doesn't remember feeling this excited before, even when he had his first kiss he wasnât this nervous nor excited. Itâs like having his first kiss all over again, just way more exciting and with way more nervousness. When was the last time Wooseok was excited like this? Heâs always excited to see Felix, but not in this way, heâs not this excited and nervous. Wooseok doesnât know, heâs not sure off of when he couldâve been this excited before. One thing is for sure though, Wooseok is excited, heâs very excited. He feels as if heâs been waiting for this, like heâs been counting days till he had enough confidence to ask.
There are so many thoughts going through Wooseokâs head, like what if the other feels pressured? What if he went too fast? What if Felix actually only saw them as friends. Even after the yes thereâs a bit hesitant, because what if, what if this and what if that. Wooseok doesn't want to pressure the other, he doesn't want to go too fast, he wants to follow the otherâs pace, even if heâs impatient, even if he really wants this now.
Even in the kiss he had a bit of nervousness in him. Because what if when he pulls away the other realizes they donât like Wooseok at all? What if this is an eye opener, Wooseok is sure he has heard of things like that happening before. That one doesnât realize they donât like a person until after kissing them, itâs possible, right? However Wooseok doesn't want to think about sad things anymore, he pushes his nervousness away and begins thinking happy thoughts while enjoying the moment.
He remembers the first day they met, how they were just two strangers that woke up in Wooseokâs bed. The thought causes Wooseok to smile during the kiss. Wooseok is so thankful for that, though heâs still curious as to how they woke up together he doesn't question it much, heâs just happy that it happened. Wooseok remembers the day clearly, they woke up in each otherâs arms, decided to go on a date as it was Valentineâs Day, and Wooseok cooked for the other, it was an amazing life changing day.