dream.

should she even be on the phone with hyun right now? sua knows that she needs to talk to him  -  that she should talk to him, considering the news.  she also knows that hyun would be ultimately disappointed if he found out through others that she was selected for heartz instead of through her.  there’s so many reasons that she should just tell him and get it over with, but she can’t help but think of the fact that he’s far too busy dealing with his soon to be comeback stage than to deal with her right now.

she shouldn’t be thinking this way.  it’s only a thought that baek jiyoung poisoned her with.  hyun has never seemed to care at all, and when he couldn’t talk he always told her so.

maybe sua is just feeling a little more guilty lately because of the situation  -  her questionable desire to be in the group versus the others who desperately want to be there, and whether or not she even belongs in sphere to begin with.  perhaps they’re trying to tell her that she belongs, but she doesn’t feel like it.  they made her feel like the odd girl out.  that’s on them.

still, when hyun answers her call, it relaxes her  -  albeit slightly.  her brow furrows together at the shakiness of his camera and the dark of the outside casting shadows on his bright smile.  " are you smoking again?“ she asks dully, the disapproval clear on her face.  perhaps that’s a bit hypocritical, considering all the shit she’s done in the past  -  but he’s a singer.  he really shouldn’t be doing this kind of stuff now, and she’s long since stopped her own bad habits.  for the most part, at least.

his dialect slips into his manner of speech and sua can’t help but snort.  as much as she pretends to hate it, hyun knows all too well how much his busan dialect really moves her.  that’s a secret between them, though.  ” you flatter me.“  she says in a bored tone, leaning back into her pillows and sighing.  ” you’re still tripping up your members? aren’t you coming back soon?“

this isn’t what they’re supposed to be talking about, but sua feels a little uneasy to bring it up fully on her own.  she bites the inside of her cheek  -  although she’s told him that she has some news, it doesn’t exactly make her feel better.  ” you’re disgusting.“ she mutters, shaking her head.  ” did you do something eric should be mad at you for? be careful, or he’ll actually get a gang to kill you.“  biting her lip, she sits up with the phone still held to show her face.  at this point, she should just bite the bullet.  ” i’m the next girl, hyun.“

The disapproval is very apparent, both in her voice and expression on his phone screen, and he does visibly get a little sheepish (although it’s not enough to make him put out his cigarette). His smile just gets awkward for a moment, eyes flickering over to the gently smoking contraband held by his other hand, and he clears his throat, offering up a fairly weak excuse. 

“Uh... I-- I haven’t had one in a while, and it’s just helping me loosen up a bit tonight.” Poor. Easily snappable with a gust of the wind. That’s how weak his excuse sounds, and he knows it. He knows she knows it because despite being a good actor on screen, he can be unfortunately transparent in his personal life. He can’t lie to Sua; her sharp gaze just sees through him.

As such, he tries to quickly move the conversation on, to something else other than his smoking to avoid the guilt as he’s held under her stare. He definitely feels like a guilty child who’s been caught with his hand in the cookie jar at times; one would think that would be enough to stop him but... somehow factors encourage the cycle to continue. He’s glad when he hears a snort from her -- his signal that he almost made her laugh -- and his grin returns to normal. Jonghyun tilts his neck, stretching the muscles in an effort to relieve the tension that has built up around there. “I just get a bit too focused and in the moment sometimes, you know? I wanna do well but I know I’m one of the weaker dancers in the group... But don’t worry! I’m not going to trip anyone up on stage!”

Somehow, her comment about him being disgusting just sends amusement through him and he laughs. It’s not exactly a compliment -- more of an insult, really -- but it’s more to do with him being that tiny bit proud about causing a reaction with his ‘joke’ than anything else. “I... don’t think I’ve done anything recently to make him mad at me... But I’m growing a bit paranoid, I keep thinking I’ll get kidnapped in a dark alley one night by gangsters who’ll put a bag over my head and then throw me into a van, and then tickle me to death, like in those movies.” He rambles a bit, typical Hyun behaviour as he gets caught up in one of his imaginative ideas, but Sua’s next words through the speakers of his phone cause him to pause, and he’s blinking at her. It’s as if he’s frozen in the call, except he isn’t, and he reanimates after a few seconds, very loudly.

rkxroyal​:

woohyun smiles at the younger, humming in sympathy. “i’ll bet.” he’s seen a handful of episodes, and knows that a lot of the content on running man is tiring, if not fun and exhiliarting. he doesn’t at all blame the other for being tired. “you’ll sleep like a rock, i’m sure.” he muses, chuckling. woohyun would at least, with how much he’s seen gone on the episodes. put the constant music promotions on top of that, and god. woohyun can feel the added exhaustion in his bones, even if he’s had a few hours of rest.

“it is!” he beams. “gotta give some tender love and care to these babies.” he taps his throat in gesture, chuckling at his statement. he’s always drinking some sort of warm beverage every night before bed. water and teas are his best friend, especially during promotion periods. “i’ll make you some! it’ll feel nice on your stomach too, especially before bed.” he’s quick to set his mug down and get to work, moving to heat back up the water once more. “you sound wonderful every time, too.”

as he looks over to jonghyun, he sees the yawn, and smiles fondly, before redirecting his attention back to the tea. “ah, i guess so.” he states in faux disappointment, an exaggerated pout on his face and apparent in his words. “i guess i’ll wait til the airing. oh woe is me…” he can’t help but laugh. “oh? how was that? were they nice?”

after a few moments of preparation, he’s pouring the tea into another mug, and the scent is warm and soothing. he smiles as he does, and when finished, presents it to the younger. “here you go~” he moves to retrieve the honey, setting it down by the mug for sweetener. “it’s steaming, so wait a bit. blow on it if you need.” he adds gently.

“I probably shouldn’t sleep like a rock, or I won’t wake up for schedules tomorrow,” Hyun laughs, althought it’s not something he can necessarily help. With their busy schedules during promotions, it’s sometimes hard to get consistent, quality sleep. Sure, they can nap during the morning at music stations, but it’s not the same kind of rest one gets at night, in bed. “If I’m a rock in the morning, hyung will wake me up, right? So we’re not late?”

He smiles as he watches Woohyun do this thing in the kitchen, rather admiring how dedicated he is to taking care of his vocals and body. That’s probably why he’s Main Vocalist, Hyun thinks. He deserves the position due to his hard work and effort he puts in to taking care of his instrument, and shares this care with everyone else too. “Thanks, hyung~ Ah~ What would I do without you~ My ego would be mnuch smaller and less over-inflated~” He laughs, but it’s rather true. Woohyun gives him too much praise sometimes, and it does go to his head a bit. “Although if I wait too long for the drink, I might fall asleep on the table soon, it’s getting very comfortable. I’m surprised you haven’t gone to bed yet.”

“They were super nice,” he emphasises, despite the tiredness he feels. “We should try go on the show together next time~ It’ll be so much fun. But if we’re on opposite teams, hyung, I’ll have to tell you know .. I might not show you any mercy. Enemies are enemies on the Running Man field.”

▲ SEPTEMBER ‘20 SCHEDULE: 28/09 PRE-CHUSEOK V-LIVE

playlist ; here !! mentioned ; @sangyeonrk, @rkmiya, @ianrk, @rkohsehun

It’s a nice day outside, a lovely day for a day off during promotions. He knows he could have done this live inside, but he thought it might be too noisy in the dorms... Although that meant that he could also have booked one of the studios at the company to stream, but why would on sit inside while the sun was shining? He’d spent enough time indoors this past month already; it was time to let him enjoy the outdoors for a bit.

He’s situated in the local park not too far from the CONVEX dorms, sitting in a more secluded and quiet spot, away from the main foot traffic to avoid any interruptions. It’s also so he doesn’t bother anyone with the music he’s intending to play from the mini Bluetooth speaker beside him. He turns on the first song -- their current title track -- in the playlist before he starts, to act as a nice transition to set the mood.

now playing:  CONVEX – Don't Wanna Cry (울고 싶지 않아)

▲ SEPTEMBER ‘20 SCHEDULE: 10/09 RUNNING MAN RECORDING PT. 2

The cast have been very kind to him throughout the day, both on camera and off. Song Jihyo in particular conversed with him in the car as they headed between location for filming, as she was seated next to him while Jongkook was in the seat behind. The first conversation at the start of the day was kept light, Hyun making sure to introduce himself to his team mates again -- properly this time, with a gruff handshake with Jongkook and a gentler shake with Jihyo -- before they moved out of the carpark and cameras rolled. Of course, Jongkook started off the questioning.

“What’s your personality like? Are you more quiet and reserved, or are you...?’

“Ah, usually I’m not this quiet. I’m just a bit nervous being on a show like this on my own, without the other members. I want to do well and not disappoint you or Jihyo-noona in the games, since I have a little bit of competitiveness in me too.”

“You know, people like Hyun can come across as quiet or inexperienced when they have a mission they need to complete, since others won’t suspect him. They can be quite dangerous.”

“That’s right... They bait us and so we don’t suspect them.”

“People who act are naturally good at pretending.”

▲ SEPTEMBER ‘20 SCHEDULE: 17/09 MNET M!COUNTDOWN ENDING STAGE

mentioned ; @rkhongjoong

When Jonghyun hears his group’s name announced as the winners for a third music show in a row this week, he has to blink to make sure he’s hearing right. Confetti goes off, making him jump a little before it starts raining down on them, and he has to glance at the members next to them to make sure he’s heard right.

It hits him differently each time. Some times he immediately smiles, filled with joy that their hard work has paid off and their comeback is well-received by their fans. Other times, it hits him as unexpected and takes him a moment before he realises. Despite his lifetime as an idol reaching nearly two years by now, there’s instances where he still doesn’t expect them to be as popular as they are. With so many other artists promoting at the same time with just as brilliant songs, he wouldn’t be surprised with another group or singer hit top rank on the chart for the week instead of them.

But tonight, on M!Countdown, CONVEX are the current number one.

▲ SEPTEMBER ‘20 SCHEDULE: 10/09 RUNNING MAN RECORDING PT.1

Hyun? Competitive? Of course not--

Unless there was incentive for his pride to be on the line, or fun to be had.

He’s the last to be revealed as one of the three guests on the show, entering out of a pink door after K.ARMA’s Kil is introduced. He can’t help the grin on his face, dipping his head in greeting to each of the cast as he takes his place in the line-up.

(”Seriously... He’s too handsome...”)

rkhongjoong​:

the fact that he gets to promote with hyun this time around is a surprise and a brilliant one at that.  when he first started seeing the promotions come out for don’t wanna cry, knowing that soon he’d get to see hyun on a stage and standing beside him at the end of it made hongjoong feel something more than joy.  it’s been so long since he’s gotten to see his best friend last.  

it’s the long break during inkigayo backstage hours, waiting for the show to air so that de:code can perform.  they’ve already gone around and greeted their seniors, so there’s really nothing much more to do than wait until showtime.  it’s boring  -  part of him wishes he could sleep, or escape.  maybe he’d even see hyun if he could.  that would be the dream.

it’s not until he hears a familiar voice at the door of their waiting room that hongjoong perks up considerably.  he can see hyun’s body through the crack and his smiling face peeking through, and hongjoong can’t help but raise a brow when he says that they’ve made a promise.  after all, they’ve made no such thing but he’s no stranger to hyun’s little white lies and mischief  -  often, he’s a key player in all of it.  when his manager turns to face him, hongjoong grins and puts his hands together in a pleading gesture.  " i won’t get into any trouble.  promise, hyung!“  and with his permission, he slips out through the crack in the door to look up at his best friend.  

” took you long enough.“

Hyun’s smile immediately gets wider when he sees his best friend come into view, rather glad at he’s able to steal him away from the mundane passage of time that occurs in music show waiting rooms before recording happens. To be honest, it also saves himself from the similar bore of doing ... not much, really. Sometimes games can be had in the CONVEX space, but if they can’t sleep, what is the point?

“Aaah~ Sorry~ The portal through to here from Dream World had a bit of traffic and my winged horse broke down so I’m a bit late~” Jonghyun explains casually, glancing around to make sure they’re not in the way of anyone while they’re standing in the hallway here, chatting. He then turns his gaze properly to Hongjoong, taking in his outfit and styling for tonight’s performance. The choices are bold, and give off a bit of a sultry, mature vibe. Hyun is envious.

❤️  💬 hjonghyunn ah~~ can you feel it~~ you make me crazy~

#de:code #enigma #de:codecomeback #감이오지   2 weeks ago

c l o s e d  s t a r t e r  for @rkhongjoong ; dated 09/13 SBS Inkigayo 

Overlapping promotions? Oh, yes, thank you Samsung managers-- or would it be just the Royal and Sphere staff? A spiritual higher power? Fate? Either way, Hyun had been looking forward to be able to promote alongside Hongjoong and it was just another plus of the comeback this time around.

He had to admit, he was a bit envious of how ‘swaggy’ and powerful DE:CODE’s ‘Can You Feel It’ is; not to say that CONVEX doesn’t have some strong beats to their songs, but there was just a different vibe to DE:CODE’s song that Hyun wanted to try one day. It didn’t mean he would necessarily be able to pull it off, but it just seemed so ... cool. All the more that it suited Hongjoong, though. In Hyun’s eyes, he’d always had that cool charisma that made it easy for people to fall for his charms.

coming home tonight isn’t the comfort that it should have been.  not when the words kept ringing in her ears all day and still haunt her at this very moment  -  the girl of the month is … kim sua.  they’re words that any of the others would have wanted to hear if it was their own name being called, but at the same time, these are words that she never would have expected to hear herself.  they’re also words that sua isn’t really sure she ever wanted to hear.

everyone calls debut a wonderful birthday gift, but sua isn’t quite so sure.  

dropping her bags at the door, the first and only person she thinks of calling is hyun.  there’s some sort of apology in her heart because while she has a desperate need to call him, to hear whatever it is that he thinks  -  because she knows she’ll be a little more accepting if it comes from him, if he tells her congratulations and that she should be on this stage.  but the apology comes from knowing how tired he’ll be from debut preparations  -  this is important though.  and sua’s absolutely sure he wouldn’t have wanted to hear it from anyone else but her.

with a video call ringing while sua throws herself onto the couch, meimei jumping up to rest next to her  -  she can’t help but feel the pull of a frown when their call connects and she sees hyun on the other end.  what is she supposed to do?  what is she supposed to say?

“ .. how was practice?”  that’s not it.  “ i have some news.”  that’s better.

˟ ▀  &.@rkhyun

Their comeback is drawing nearer and nearer, the days in the countdown now reduced to single digits, which means almost all of his time is consumed by endless practice. There’s still things to perfect, still parts to fix and tidy up so that they can present a cohesive and flawless stage and not disappoint.

(He feels like he always causes some degree of disappointment, though; there’s always something he doesn’t quite get right, even if only he notices it).

But there’s also the delicate balance of working hard but still trying to take care of their bodies. There’s no point in working themselves to the bone and not being able to perform properly in the weeks to come, yet Hyun wonders what hours in the day he has to be able to do so. It’s been reduced to the short time before he collapses onto his bed to sleep for the night, a couple hours maybe where he showers and nurses any sore muscles, or is given a hot soothing drink by Woohyun.

It’s also a time where he can finally reconnect with the outside world, outside of his bubble of work.

Tonight, he’s wandered up to the rooftop again, just for a moment of peace and ... a puff of a vice of his that he hasn’t quite shaken even after all these years. A faint ringing breaks the music of the city sounds and he yanks his phone out. As usual, a grin slides onto his face as he sees the name of the caller and answers; he has more control of his expressions in public now, but in private he lets his natural relfexes take over, the camera lens capturing a full shot of his smile (albeit at a shaky angle, the other hand occupied with a cigarette).

“Miss Ice Cream Princess~ Ma nigh’s be’n made inf’nitely bett’r ‘cause of ya~” he drawls in the full glory of his Busan dialect, before switching to his usual, ‘standard’ Seoul way of speaking. “Hmmm~ ... I almost tripped Sehunnie up, but I swear it was an accident. Other than that, we’ve nearly fully got it all perfected~ Then we’re ready for comeback.”

❤️  💬 hjonghyunn weve all been hard at work these past few months and im glad we can finally share it all wth consta~~~! hows our comeback this time?? hoping everyone is enjoying it with a smile ~~~ 

dont want (you) to cry ~~~~

📷: @iamosh  

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