Lethe the mailwoman

Hello @bakedpotatoesxp :D

I genuinely don’t how long I can even handle it

also my genuinely evil parents tried to force me not to get the pink one only because they view it as feminine color which ngl is pretty sad cause it’s been my fav since childhood :(

tbh I wonder if anyone actually even reads these posts at all, I hope it’s not another situation where a bunch of random people were blocked again by someone

my parents didn’t even get tickets or anything too :(

prime - the sour taste of death incarnated as one

what a liar

Also sorry for making ace the only one that isn’t full body I again got too lazy T-T

When I woke up the next day it was too late to go to school because apparently my dad “wanted to talk with me” about the project, it was him being mad about the fact the topic was about transphobia but also because they literally opened up my school iPad, put in the password for it (even though they shouldn’t even know it) and saw that I mentioned being transfem ON THE PART WHERE I WAS PUTTING MY REASONS FOR THE TOPIC which y’know felt like a complete invasion of my privacy especially since I didn’t even allow them to just do that and there was no valid reason to just go on my iPad like that. He then proceeded to confront me about that part and genuinely tried to force me to change it which I couldn’t cause the final day to get a topic already passed and I would need the teacher’s permission for that but they still forced me to do it anyway so I emailed the teacher, told him what happened and made a slight mistake of referencing my attempt I did when my mom caught me wearing her clothes (ik crazy reaction but my parents were the last people I wanted to know about it, tbh I only wore her clothes cause I was questioning at the time and the same day of my attempt I came out as transfem but obviously not to my parents) and a few days later some person came to the front door said something about lgbtqia + awareness or something along those lines and my dad got mad and confronted me about it and a day later a police officer came for a wellness check (but my dad intervene and made them leave although I think they were supposed to talk to me and not just him only and then leave) later on some where in November my cousins dropped by and for some reason when they were leaving my parents thought it would be a good idea to send me with them to Canada against my will and of course I couldn’t bring the laptop with me for some reason, while I was there I kinda lowk found out some of my cousins were lowk evil (one was transphobic but I don’t think he knew I was trans and the other person said slurs he literally couldn’t reclaim) at least the other 2 are cool (one of them was genuinely supportive and the other doesn’t even use slurs she is a really good artist too :D) and then there’s the baby who literally didn’t do anything wrong lowk. A good majority of the time though my time in Canada wasn’t the best while there was some things I enjoyed like using a apple pen for the first time or just listening to femtynal on the tv repetitively there was also my cousin who kept transvestigating me (I think I used the term correctly) after I mentioned him what happened while leaving out the details of me being transfem. The only cousin that did know and had the full details was the supportive one, mind you also the days I was supposed to be gone was 10 DAYS, I was gone for 4 weeks (according to my counselor, I actually forgot what the actual days I was gone for was but it was January when I returned to school) and by the time I returned practically an ENTIRE MONTH PASSED, when it hit the 11tg day I genuinely started to crash out and for once in a long time actually started to swear rather than just repressing myself from doing it. Eventually though when I returned home I expected my laptop to be there but nope it was gone, the entire time while I was gone and waiting to return home so I can talk to my friends and also return to work on some unfinished stuff I was working on with some people my parents “supposedly” saw my laptop’s charger spark and sent it to a workshop just for the people there to take it and run away with it because of ice being in the town they were In. When I came back and saw both the charger and laptop gone to say I was pissed off was lowk an understatement because I literally made them promise to me not to touch it and yet they took it. So I locked myself in my room pissed off, may have done self harm with a staple cause I genuinely cannot find the will to kill myself like I attempted to last time and it’s not like I’m gonna beat the hell out of them because even if I did attempt to there’s people in the house