CURSED TO FALL

William is a very, very closeted bisexual and carries a lot of internalized homophobia - not regarding anyone but himself, he could care less about the sexualities of others, but is uncomfortable in admitting he is anything but the white macho man people assume him to be. he has always been uncomfortable regarding his own sexuality, but over the years it has grown worse. this is from the lack of physical intimacy ( despite not having it, he does miss it - William is a sexual person, enjoys sex, but has gone without for so long he now has several self-confidence issues regarding it ) and the fact that for him, it has always been a subject meant to be kept private - between himself and his partner ( he doesn’t really want to hear about what his friends/soldiers/team have been up to in bed, and doesn’t want to talk about his experiences or lack of either ). combined with his physical and health issues, it’s something he tends to avoid.

in his youth, he had a string of girlfriends - all of them were brief flings, no emotional attachment on either end, but not as many as he’d boast about ( the ego of a hormonal twenty-something boy in the prime of his life, with a gun and a military record doesn’t want to be seen as someone who gets rejected by pretty girls ). experimentation sexually was brief and short, uncomfortable with the idea - he’d been touchy-feely with men before, but eventually backed out, nervous and drunk, doing it for attention rather than anything else. he was never the best lover, but what he lacked in talent he made up for in enthusiasm.

Rebecca had only really been the most consistent sexual relationship he had for the obvious fact that they were married and really the only person he had ever felt particularly close to. Since her disappearance, he had spiraled mentally, only really seeing sex acts as a way to manipulate or extort information. But even then it was never something he relied on, more so, dangling a carrot on a string in order to get what he wants.

contrary to popular belief though, he’s very on-top of personal hygiene when possible but he takes little consideration into his appearance unless it is absolutely necessary - he changes clothes when needed, but otherwise his routine only consists of showering and cleaning himself, brushing his teeth, filing his nails and trimming his beard. However clean you can realistically get from using dish soap as a body wash. ( the oiled duck do it, so can he ).

after a lifetime of surviving alone, battles in pubs and constantly causing trouble, William's skin is covered in scars - most of them are worn, faded with age or simply healed, and there’s too many to count-- he’s constantly in danger and sometimes sustaining severe injuries. most are from things with edges (rocks, bricks, glass - the environmental hazards of doing what he does, he’s often falling through things, into things, against things, along with various things exploding around him), though he has several from burns and the occasional scar from weaponry/supes. his chest and torso are rife with scars - mainly due to the many stabs and cuts hes received from supes. His legs and arms being fairly unblemished since his jacket/boots takes most of the damage albeit superficially.

the most noticeable scars are as follows:

head/skull: minor cracks/tears along the nose and cheeks either from the military or bar fights.

arms: two shallow holes from handling the vaught infant and suffering minor burns from it's lazer eyes.

eyes: Bloodshot while under the effects of the tumor.

legs:  scarring on knees from repeated scrapes in trying to stop backwards momentum.

other than that, notable features of his appearance are that he tends towards cool but dark colors ( greens, greys, black, silver ).

𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐋𝐓𝐇 𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐔𝐄𝐒

PTSD associated memories with Rebecca/partial amnesia.

Frequent night terrors/insomnia due to constantly being in danger.

anxiety/depression based on childhood trauma/idea of self inferiority.

Alcohol and tobacco dependency.

Suffers from hallucinations akin to schizophrenia.

Continuous cough that is accompanied by blood. (tumor effects)

unresolved anger issues and risky tendencies.