The thing that drives me absolutely feral about Twilight/Loid Forger is that there is no name that can actually describe him.
He is Twilight; Twilight is a spy, and nothing else. He takes pride in his missions and compartmentalises them completely and cleanly as soon as they are over. He could have any face, any body, any gender, and he will play the part perfectly; he is known as a colleague to look up to, or an enemy to be feared. Twilight is not a person, but some person, whose name we never know, is Twilight.
(The man who is Twilight wants things that Twilight cannot want, let alone have.)
He could have been [redacted], but he is not. The name does not describe him. He was [redacted] once, and that time changed him, but he could never be that boy again and he has seemingly no desire to reconnect with who he once was. You could guess at what [redacted] is, but that would be missing the point.
He is Loid Forger; or, at least, he could be. He loves his wife ("for the mission"), he loves his daughter ("for the mission"), and he cares deeply about the life he lives in a way that he fears he should not. He does love them. Loid Forger is not a real person. The life he lives is fabricated, but he still lives it, so it has to be real in some sense. The people who he loves, and the people who love him, know him as Loid Forger; but he could never be Loid Forger, not without caveats. Loid Forger has not disarmed nuclear warheads. Loid Forger lost his first wife. Loid Forger does not know that his brother in law is in the secret police. Loid Forger has a name.
(As Loid Forger, Twilight is able to live the life that he doesn't have a right to admit he wants; and there is something real about Loid. But it cannot—and does not—encompass a very large part of who he is. As of such, Loid Forger is not his "real" name.)
I feel like the manga is a teensy bit more explicit with it than the anime, in that there's more of a sense of Loid Forger as a construction and a mask, but yeah. I think the text is moving towards a sense that Loid Forger is as real of a name as any name, but it's certainly open to interpretation.
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