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drunk people messing around, laughter filling the room as multiple colored lights flashed in everyones eyes with music blasting in your ears—it was all normal at a club.

you were the only sober one among your friends, laughing as they attempted to try and talk to you while everything around you was loud.

you danced with them, until a guy tapped on your shoulder.

“you look beautiful.” he leaned in close and whispered in your ear without knowing what your face even looked like.

you turned around, surprised you had to look up at him due to his height. he was tall with beautifully blonde dyed hair. his eyes seemed sharp and lustful for you.

“thank you.” you smiled with a small nod, scanning him up and down with a nervous laugh.

the man took your hand, brushing his thumb against the back of your palm gently as he licked his lips.

“are you enjoying your time here?” he asked, looking deep into your gaze—he seemed interested in getting to know you tonight.

you nodded with a smile and faced directly towards him, completely neglecting your friends who were cheering you on.

“what’s your name?” the man quirked up an eyebrow and looked down at you with a warm smile.

he nodded slowly once you told him your name and brushed a piece of hair behind your ear. you noticed the hand he earlier held yours was now placed on your hip, sending a sign he wanted to take things further than just this.

he leaned in closer against your ear, whispering so he wouldn’t have to yell over the music.

“i’m riki.”

you nodded, nervously licking your lips as you looked at him. he invited you to dance and you did. your arms were wrapped around his neck while both of his hands remained on your hips.

without having to turn around, you knew your friends weren’t that far away from you, paying attention to how you danced with riki.

riki stroked your hips to your waist with his hands, focusing on the happines in your eyes. he pulled you closer towards him, making the two of you chest to chest with eachother.

before you knew it, you were pushed against the clubs bathroom wall, his hands gripping onto your hips tightly.

you felt your breathing getting heavier and he did too. all he could think about was how good you would look with your clothes on the cold floor.

riki lifted you up like you weighed nothing, making your legs wrap around his waist as his lips crashed onto yours, giving you messy, sloppy kisses.

you ran your hands through his hair, tugging tightly as his tongue met yours roughly, drool dripping down your chin when he pulled away again.

you pressed your forehead against his, looking into his serious gaze, full of nothing other than pure lust in this moment.

“do you have a condom with you?” you whispered to which he nodded.

riki slowly let go of you, allowing you to drop your feet on the ground, switching the roles between you two—his back against the wall as you gripped the collar of his shirt.

riki sank down on the floor slowly, sitting down as he gently pulled you onto his lap, rubbing you against his hardon.

you planted soft kisses to his jaw before making your way towards his neck, sucking gently as he gripped onto your hips, grinding you against him to remain the rhythm.

the neck sucking wasn’t harsh enough to leave bruises, but not soft enough to make him stay quiet. riki held your hip with one hand, the other scratching your hair lightly as you continued to suck a little harder.

“fuck..” riki softly breathed out, biting his bottom lip as you grinded onto him.

you pulled away from his neck, roaming your hand in his shirt to stroke his abs, taking it off for him as quick as possible.

riki pulled out a condom from his pocket and dropped it on the ground, waiting to use it for later—his eyes never leaving your body.

after a few, the two of you remained bare. you grinded yourself against his cock, covered with a condom before slowly sinking yourself onto him.

riki’s breathing got heavier and the grip on your hips became more gentle once he looked into your eyes.

his gaze softened once he took a better look and leaned his head against the wall with his chin up.

“you look.. beautiful.” he whispered, keeping his hands in the same place to prevent you from moving.

not a single smile formed on your face, your look remained serious at his words. everything felt off for a moment.

riki expected a quick fuck in the bathrooms and then leaving afterwards, but this? this was different. he didn’t want it to end. his heart was pounding faster than usual—he felt something he wasn’t supposed to be feeling during a hookup.

riki clenched his eyes shut. he couldn’t understand what he was feeling. he played it off by moving your body up and down, riding him gently—but it wouldn’t work out. riki stopped guiding your hips and let go, allowing you to remain seated on him.

both of you felt confused. you felt your heart beating faster aswell, unaware of this new strange feeling.

riki opened his eyes again, filled with unwanted tears. his eyes scanned you up and down, admiring your beauty. it felt wrong to him.

“i’m sorry..” riki apologized and wiped his eyes to prevent tears rolling down his cheeks.

you shook your head, giving him a nervous laugh. “no, it’s fine.” you reassured him.

the bathroom felt awfully quiet and awkward now. you were aware over the fact he was also feeling this strange pounding in his heart.

“do you want to continue?” riki spoke softly and stroked your waist with his hands. he seemed so sweet and loving right now.

you nodded and pressed your forehead against his, your eyes looking bigger than normally for him.

riki nodded and slowly, let you ride him, his hands roaming over your body.

he let out soft whimpers as you fastened your pace, his eyes refusing to leave yours. there wasn’t a single hint of lust left anymore—he felt confused, uncomfortable even.

riki shook his head and held your hips, signaling to you that you had to stop.

he let out a sigh and clenched his eyes shut. “i’m so sorry.” he spoke in a tone that was barely a whisper at this point.

you got off and he helped you get dressed, holding out a hand for you to get up once the both of you were clothed again.

riki leaned against the wall as you leaned next to him. everything felt complicated, as if there was somethng wrong, which worried you.

you were worried you weren’t doing well and let out a disappointed sigh.

“i’m really sorry.” riki apologized again, pressing his hand against his forehead with a loud sigh. “i just feel kind of.. strange, i guess?” riki let out a dry humourless laugh and shook his head.

“it’s fine, really..” you tilted your head to the side, facing towards him.

he looked down at you, his body still facing towards the wall as his lips curved into a soft smile at you.

there was something hidden in that smile of his. his expression was unreadable, even if he seemed okay. your expression still remained with the same worried look, causing you to look away again.

“we shouldn’t have done this.” you quietly admitted, fidgeting with your hands.

“i know.” riki spoke with a shameful tone in his voice.

the atmosphere felt awkward, it felt like the two of you were the only people in the world right now. everything happened so fast, but now? time felt slow, as if everything was taking forever.

your chest felt warm and fuzzy and so did his. the feeling was unfamiliar for the both of you, especially right now. the sex didn’t feel like a hookup, it felt like a deep emotional connection that couldn’t be finished.

you sighed as you stepped into the car, your friends passed out in the backseats as your other friend who remained sober drove everyone home.

you looked out the window, wondering if you’d ever get to see him again someday, maybe even finish where you left off.

part of you wanted to also never see him again out of shame.

you leaned back into the seat and let out a sigh.

you felt like you had just embarrassed yourself for a guy you didn’t even know, even though he felt the same towards you.

maybe he was thinking about this aswell, maybe it hurt him just as much as it hurt you.

the whole ride, he was all you could think about. the bond you felt between the two of you in that short 20 minutes of time was killing you.

you fell a tear roll down your cheek and quickly wiped it away as you closed your eyes, waiting until you finally got home and try to forget that man.

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