express it all for you

Like all those girls you see online

With their bones visible under their skin

I do in fact lack "basic human empathy" . I should not have to feel obligated to care about people online that I have never met before , because even then , I do not care about people online or in person that I have met before either .

and of course I recognize that it is not "normal" and that I am mentally disordered , but that does not mean I will also fake emotional connection and act like I care . no , I would never use it as an excuse to be mean to anyone , but that's because it is logical to not treat someone like shit just because I have a mental disorder that stops me from feeling proper emotions .

I think the only person I could feel empathy , genuine love , and genuine care for is my boyfriend . but the reason I feel that way for him is because , to me , our bond goes far beyond "favorite person" and emotional connection . and even if I do feel those things for him , my misunderstanding of how to process those emotions due to my usual lack of them causes me to become extremely angry and aggressive . and when Im not angry and aggressive trying to process those emotions , im overly and utterly obsessive .

he abused me for years , then suddenly tries to abandon me once I turn 18 by killing himself . he knows i cannot live alone , he knows i am disabled , and his reason for trying to kill himself was some shit about not wanting to pay house bills .

ai is not taking up water, that is not possible , especially with how earth works and the types of cooling systems ai data centers use . but they are polluting the air .

also , generative ai in itself is not necessarily bad , its how its used that is bad . ai is built on llms , you can make several things yourself with llms . you can make your own chat bots with llms without it being a bad thing , because generative ai isnt the issue , its how big companies are using it and how big companies don't care for the earth and people around them .

though obviously, I do not support ai art or image generation, especially when it comes to generating people and children , because the ai sources from real images of people and children . unless its jon mud ❤️ ,,,,,

what I do support though, is experimenting with making your own chat bots , whether its of characters or ocs ,, or whatever ?? making it yourself wouldnt be harmful , as long as you aren't using those shit chat bots made by big companies .