Ranting

Why can't I just deal with things like a normal person. Why do I always gotta make shit dramatic or something

I just want to end it. I'm doing no one any good with my existence, I spend every day in constant pain and stress and worry. Why does it matter. What the hell is even the point. I started new medication but look how that's going. I'm right where I've always been, wanting to end it. Gotta wonder if it's actually a problem or me being to lazy to face up to my problems in life

Oh look, I just made this blog and I've already fucking screwed up. Amazing development right???? Fucking christ. So tonight I got my finger fucking cooked. Literally. I'm on the way to hospital right now to get an x-ray. And my lead supervisor had to drive me, and he's obviously posted off because he's missing work b3vause I made a mistake. And my finger probably isn't 3ven broken but I just can't take that chance. And I feel like shit. And I'm so pissed. And I'm getting a half point for being sent home early, and am now at five points. One more point and I'm fired. Fucking. Fuck fuck fuck fuck.